Black Rose

His answer hit me like a brick wall and for a moment I thought this was all a dream. How could this happen? How could I have let it happen? I felt like my world was crashing in on me. Everything was too damn loud and the ground kept slipping from my feet.               '' Jossy, ''David began. He had somehow walked to me and was now reaching out to me.     '' No, don't f*****g touch me! ''I just couldn't take it anymore. How much of a fool had I been? This couldn't possibly be happening. Let me explain 24 hours earlier Shit! s**t! s**t! I was so going to be late for work and was pretty sure Celeste my boss was going to stick her foot up my ass. 7:45am. There no way I was going to make it to work by 8:00am. I let out a frustrated sigh as I looked through my wardrobe for an outfit. I'd never had a shorter time in the shower than today. I settled for a black long sleeved fitting dress. You could never go wrong with one of those. I grabbed my shoes and my purse and I barely managed to grab my car keys before I locked my house. Looks like I might have to skip breakfast today. I got to work at 8:30, by then my boss had already signed my death certificate. I gave her a small smile and immediately got to work. I was a personal assistant to Celeste who owned the largest clothing line company in Australia. I loved my job to say the least but my boss was at the very most demanding. A few hours into the paperwork Lil Tecca's Love Me blared in my ears. My hands blindly roamed my bag for a few seconds before I found it. The ringtone had to go, it was too loud for nothing. I was changing it immediately after receiving the call. I froze up when I saw the the caller ID. David, my boyfriend. I had totally forgotten about him. Tonight was supposed to be date night. We'd been dating for about a year now and we're quite happy, or at least I thought we were. I took a glance at my boss's office before I took the call. This had to be important. He knew better than to call me at work. "Hey baby, what's up?" I whispered into my phone cause really didn't need Celeste on my back right now. " Hey Jossy, "I immediately stiffened at my name. He never called me by my name. Never. " I can't make it tonight sorry. I got  called to work. Could we do it another day? " My mouth went dry but I managed to croak an okay to him. I really didn't want to fight with him today so I decided to let it go. David was a lawyer, I didn't understand why he would get called to work at night. I muttered an I love you to which I did not get a reply. He just hang up. No I love you too. No goodbye. He just f*****g hang-up on me. The day came to an end sooner than I'd expected. I picked my purse and thought of saying goodbye to my boss but thought against it. Lest she give me more paperwork. I inwardly giggled at myself for even thinking that. I got into my car and pulled out of the parking lot. I'd decided to spend the night at David's place to avoid my lonely house. I also wanted to surprise David when he got home. He didn't sound too well on the phone so I thought I'd try and cheer him up. I soon pulled up on his driveway and surprisingly enough his car was still there. I didn't give it much thought. He may have carpooled with one of his friends for all I knew. I made my way to the door and noticed the lights were on. It was something we both did when we left the house at night so people wouldn't know whether we were in or not. I took out the spare key he'd given me and opened the door and I swear nothing would have prepared me enough for the sight before my eyes. A woman! A freaking woman that looked like she'd been taken from the cover of a Vogue magazine. And she was....pregnant? Holy s**t she was pregnant. I just stood there staring at her trying to figure out why she was here. I was pretty sure David didn't have any sisters. Or did he? At this point I couldn't even remember. Then he came strolling casually out of the kitchen with a bowl in his hand. Like it was a routine for him. Like it was something he'd always been doing. He looked up and stopped dead in his tracks when he saw me and I instantly knew this was not going to end well. "Who's this D?" she finally asked when the silence became a bit too much. Wow D, okay I did not see this coming. I took deep breaths and forced myself to remain calm. "She's my friend." wait what did he call me? Then I saw it. The ring on her finger. It finally clicked. This had to be some sick joke. "Is she your wife?" I knew the answer before I asked it and I was dumb for asking anyway. I just needed to hear it from him. "Jossy I can explain... " He had to be kidding right now. "You can what? Explain? Is she your wife?" I was literally already screaming by now. I saw him flinch at words before he muttered a yes. His answer hit me like a brick wall and for a moment I thought this was all a dream. How could this happen? How could I have let it happen? I felt like my world was crashing in on me. Everything was too damn loud  the ground  from my feet              '' Jossy, ''David began. He had somehow walked to me and was now reaching out to me.   '' No don't f*****g touch me! ''I just couldn't take it anymore. The very thought of his hand on me made me shudder violently. How much of a fool had I been? This couldn't possibly be happening. "D what is the meaning of this?" the woman said in a whisper that I had almost missed. D? I thought I was the only one who called him that other than his brother. He told me I was the only one. I could already see the tears that had began to form in her eyes and it broke me it hurt me more than I cared to admit. Then I realized it. We had been played. He had played us. The freaking two of us. Then I felt it. That old familiar suffocating feeling that I hadn't felt in a long while. I had to leave. This could happen anywhere else but here. I had to get as far away from him as I possibly could. I turned on my heels and rushed to my car and I suddenly wished I had parked it closer to the door. Why had I even locked it in the first place? To say I was frustrated would be an understatement. I'd barely gotten into it when I began having trouble breathing. I was in pain and I felt like I was bleeding through my eyes. Not now! Not freaking now! I was running out of breath and my vision was becoming blurry. I brought my hand to my eyes and touched some wetness. Tears. Of course it was tears. I was f*****g crying. My dress suddenly felt too tight and I felt a strong urge to take it of. I quickly fumbled with my zipper and unzipped it. I had to get out of here! I tried to to put my keys in the ignition and failed. My hands were too shaky and my eyes were teary. My head was spinning and I suddenly felt trapped. I desperately wanted to get out of the car. Stupid anxiety! I began hitting my steering wheel with my hands. I kept going till it became painful. I needed the pain. I needed something to get him off my head. I didn't realize I'd been screaming until I heard a loud knock on my window. I immediately froze up and looked to find the woman I'd left in the house. She looked bad but not in the beat up sort of way but rather in the I've just been crying sort of way. She was obviously better off than I was. I looked at her for a moment contemplating whether or not to hear her out. I tried to roll down my window but realized I couldn't because I hadn't been able to start my car. Suddenly my door was pulled open and I felt all my senses go haywire. I was terrified of her and I had no idea why. I s**t my eyes tightly and waited for her to scream at me. I waited and waited but it never came. I opened my eyes slowly and found her staring at me. Literally, she just stared at me. So I stared back at her. She was extremely beautiful. She was so beautiful that looking at her made me tear up all over again. Her big black eyes were red from crying and her cheeks were glistening with tears but even then I still thought she was heavenly. She had curly 4c hair just like mine and she'd somehow managed to make a twist out with them. Her bulky hair pooled around her upper arms and knew it was going to be super long if it was straightened. My eyes moved down her her body and I immediately regretted my decision when I saw the unmistakable baby bump. She had to have been beginning her second trimester and this made a sniffle escape from me before I could stop it. She suddenly snapped out of her daze and spoke but I wasn't sure I'd heard her right. "Move over" she said again and confirmed that I indeed still had a sane mind. "Excuse me?" I countered her. She couldn't be serious. Did she think we were going to go home and paint each other's nails while pouring our hearts out? Somehow the thought didn't sound as bad as it did the first I thought about it. I was actually starting to consider it. Blame it on my hormones or whatever. "Come on let's not do this, we won't survive it. Move over." She said in a husky voice and almost broke down towards the end. Honestly, I had already made up my mind. I was taking her with me. "Please" She added softly and I could have bet my next paycheck that she had whispered it. Like she was afraid to raise her her voice. Afraid that if she raised it any higher it would turn into a sob. I honestly didn't have the energy to say no to here and I clearly couldn't handle the wheel let a lone start the car. I held out the keys which she took as I moved over to the passenger's seat. She settled in the driver's seat and pulled the door shut. She locked the door and put put the key in the ignition. Her calm and collected demeanor was honestly very unsettling but for some reason I was sure I'd be safe with her. The engine came to life just as David rushed out of his house. Words could not describe the look on his face when he saw his ex wife in my driver's seat. Yes I said ex. I'd glanced at her hand and the ring wasn't there. He looked mortified and for a moment I was pleased. Bee backed out of his driveway so fast I almost lost my breath. I know. I know I gave her a nickname because not knowing her name bothered me to the core. Bee was short for Beauty because let's just face the facts. She was heavenly gorgeous. So much that it had me questioning just what it is David actually saw in me. Also considering the fact that we had both been played by the same douchebag and she'd saved me from being found stuck at David's driveway, she pretty much deserved to have a nice name. I let myself relax without further thoughts and for the first time I let someone drive me without being all over their face asking about where we were headed and mentally taking note of major landmarks. I let her drive us to wherever she wanted. I let go for the first time in years and funny enough I was at ease. Like I had finally found my peace. Something about Bee made me want to let down my guard, even if it's for a little while. So I did.