John,jame, Mary, Ann,Eager, Finer, bruce, brainer and Lewis

I never thought that life was so cruel.i started realising That people want you by their side when things are hard for them and that I was a fool to believe that love is for everyone.i am a man who always doubted himself.from a young age I just didn't believe in myself nor paid attention to it but as time went by I started realising that I'm confused about my own existence and that I don't know anything about myself.Life is a funny thing.we think we are good yet we kill to survive.when this survival thought occured to me I realised that I'm not a good person to other living organisms except my own self.i am a human whose life has just been flipped upside down.i currently just lost my job as a police officer and I'm not taking that well.i guess I would say some people don't know how it feels like to lose your job. To me I would say it felt really good that I was fired by my own wife who happens to be my boss at work.Most people would ask me how is it possible that your dating your boss.i was always famous at work and just when I thought to myself that things are going to plan it just happened to be that my wife fires me then divorces me to date a big fat man who doesn't know what to do with his money.i always said to myself that I'm the one for her.The night I first slept with her it felt really good that I lost my virginity to a beautiful woman who would do anything to sleep with good looking men.The first night I met her.i met her in a strip club and when I saw her I thought to myself that I can change such a woman and make her someone who has a purpose unlike sleeping with guys in a club that only values you for the fact that they get to sleep with women for the fact that they want to have fun and think of themselves as one of the big guys.Now back to the real story.so when I entered the club I saw a really good looking woman who I first loved at first sight and it just happened to be that she was also giving me the eyes.she was busy dancing on the stage and I thought to myself why not tell her how I feel.i went to her, just when I thought I was gonna say something to her she came to me wearing those wonderful clothes.she said that I'm the one she wants all that I'm all her desire,when she said those words I felt like I was in a different realm that men enter when they start to feel what most men don't feel.i thought that I was dreaming.i passed out.when I woke up I found myself laying in bed.i was topless.i then asked myself what happened when I was asleep.As I kept on asking myself those questions, someone came in and it turns out to be that it's the same woman who I thought I loved.i then asked myself"I thought I loved?"that question kept on repeating itself in my head.i asked the woman who was in this room.who are you?she replied with a horrific smile,"my name is Ruth and you seem to have passed out so I rushed to help you out. I have never seen a man looked at me like you did back there.i mean like I work here.i reply"I looked at you because I've never seen an angel like you. I'd like you to be my wife,she said I will be the one for you.As Time went by she always showed me love but I wondered to myself and kept asking myself whether this is true love.after marriage I decided to keep working as a police officer and before I knew it. My wife joined the military but her work was a bit different from the other soldiers.i then realised that I had married a person I don't really know much about.on the 14th February when I got home and sat outside the house, infront of the door and thought.who is this woman I call my wife and what is it that I know of her than she does to me?.I kept asking myself and it just happened to be that I am a foolish man who does not indeed know a thing about life.i went inside the house and my wife was sitting in the dining room.she looked like she was waiting for me.i then went to her,I said my love and her response was horrific.for the first time she said John,and I said marry what is wrong? I then sat on the chair near her.i looked at her and said I will always love you.she smiled and I was still curious about her sitting in the dining room like this.she looked at me,' John I love you but I can't do this anymore.it's just that you are not the man that I thought I've been in love with.i lied to you from day one.the time we met at the club.It's just that at that moment I thought that you were one of those guys who were stupid enough to let a woman take anything from them as they like.To be honest with you it breaks my heart to say this to you but I've finally found a perfect man and my purpose in life.i have been confused and lost since the day of my birth.i really feel sorry for you because I've been lying to myself saying that I love you knowing very well that I never had any feelings for you. At that time I thought that it was going to be easy loving and caring for someone I don't love was fine. Look I like you but I just don't think that I'm the one for you.there are many women out there would love to have a guy like you. You are a man who knows how to care for a woman but you are just not the guy that I want to live with for the rest of my life.i would like us to get a long break from this relationship.i am just gonna be honest with you,I've had enough of this love of yours.i am divorcing you.i have found a man better than you,who meets my desires.i would like you to leave this house because you bought this house for me. I've already packed everything for you,your bags are in the sitting room.she leaves in the dark wondering.i don't even know what to do,where am I gonna go live.