A TEEN-AGED MIND

Emily P.O.V I can't understand what is happening to me i have my exam next month and i have to get a grade of A+ otherwise no college would provide admission but i am still chatting on my phone .Did I take a correct decision of coming in a relation with Ralph? Ralph is a good guy and would surely keep me happy i know but i don't feel that spark with him and i can't lie to myself but i haven't forgotten Samuel yet .What am i doing with my life ? Samuel was perfect for me , but why did he leave me all of a sudden? He even didn't give a reason ...There is so much happenings and i can't share it with anyone? Even my best friend is angry with me. Please i really need some help to tackle all this depression? Will anyone ever come in my life to understand me , my problems, my sorrow, my grief?  Should i really get this depressed ? I am just 17 and i have my whole life ahead ...i have so many dreams to fulfill..i need my own house my own car, though i have my bike and a car gifted by dad on birthday but i need to do this on my own. This depression and anxiety attacks would kill me one day otherwise i would end up in an asylum. Now i need to sleep tomorrow is a big day let's see what awaits for me tomorrow....