falling in love with mr wrong

hi my name is tammy and I'm 15 and I got to high school. me and my mum and step dad just moved to Dagenham. my step dad didnt liked me and I hated him the thing his my mum has two daughters my older sister kirsty and then their is me. my sister is 9 year older than me so is married and has child of her own. I'm stuck with the step dad from hell. he make sure I know he doesn't want me around. thats why I spend most of my time on my bb (blackberry) talking to my friends and thats when I saw the name Tommy i knew he was new on it and I messaged him asking how he got my bbm pin (blackberry messager pin) I wait for the reply and found out it was my mums old best friend son and the two mums had hated a plan for us to meet up again as we haven't seen each other since we were little.. we talk for a couple of weeks around school time of course. he would make me laugh and we chose to meet up and see how much our life has changed since we saw each other last. we met at the park near were I lived and it was like time hadn't passed at all. he could still make me laugh and his smile was the best. Tommy was two year older than me. After a couple of times after meeting up he took me to the same spot that we met the first time and sat me on the swing and asked me to be his girlfriend. I wasn't sure as I didn't want to harm our friendship. I'm not say his not hot but his not really my type as his was a good boy who did stupid stuff like smoke w**d. I hate drugs as my dad done drugs and was never there for me growing up. I wouldn't see him for long periods of time. but Tommy pushed me to say yes and it started off good. we would have our ups and downs but I would push past the feeling of wishing I didn't say yes to him. I was trying to force oh school and I didn't want drama in my life. Tommy was a lot of drama and he would make me feel low about myself. when we was in a fight he would tell me how no one else would want a ugly girl like me. how I was stupid and just a little girl. was he right? I started to think he was. don't get me wrong he wasn't all bad when he was good he could make you feel like nothing in the world was more important than you. he would sing to me and dance with me. the small thing was what kept me with him.. one day he came over to my house and asked me if I would like to meet a couple of his friends.. I wanted to say no as I hate meeting new people. I'm shy and get really scared and stressed out meeting new people. he begged me and in the end I agreed. he messaged a couple of his friends and they said sure. they all agree to meet on Saturday around 1pm at the park as I would have school until Friday.. he ask if I was okay with the time and date. of course I was it was okay yo make sure he stayed happy. he stayed for a bit to watch a film with me. After the film was finished he left to go home. I was tired to I fell asleep.