"What do you want for dinner?" Alan asked.
"Anything you want." I replied without looking at him as I was writing a song.
"Beef burger with extra onion.Is that fine?" He asked.
"Alan,you are ruining my apetite." I said as I gave him a disgusted look.
"Well you are the one who isn’t talking properly." He replied and laid down.
"You know what I eat." I said.
"Hm." He said and he ordered it.
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After I was done writing,I laid beside him and kissed his muscular arms.
"When can we have a baby?" He asked and I was surprised by the question.
"I am not ready." I said.He was disappointed and slightly angry.
He turned to his side and said,"I'll sleep for a while,call me when the food arrives."
I climbed onto him,"Don't sleep."
"I'm tired."
"No,you are bad!" I said like a little child and left the room.I wasn’t angry but I just wanted to make him feel like I was.
I sat on the living room and thought about everything that's happened in the past two years.
"Stacey." He touched my shoulder and I startled.
"You scared me!" I said as I took a deep breathe.
"I am going out.You have your dinner and head to sleep." He said.
"Alan..." I called him from the back.
"Please." He knew I wanted to stop him from going to kill humans that's why he stopped me from speaking anything.
I laid on the bed and waited for the food to arrive.I was feeling scared for the first time.In the past two years,I've never felt like this.Is it because he was killing an innocent human with the same hands by which he made me wear a ring and swore his promise of eternity.
The door bell rang.
It was the delivery person.I took the food and thanked him.
It was 11 already.There is no point in waiting for Alan.He's not going to come.
I ate my delicious burger and soda.I watched a few serial killer documentaries while eating.
The night was still young.I could hear the cries of the street dogs.I stood on the balcony, visible beyond the transparent curtains rustling in the moving haze.The room lit up with a bright flash of lightening, and thunder rattled the windowpane.It was midnight.Thin, dingy rain spat and drizzled past the lighted street lamps.My glassy eyes observed the windy night as the thunder roars reminded me of Alan.It was darkness every where.The slow sound of the tiny drops of rain hitting the ground and the lighting flashed through the clouds.
I was feeling afraid.I turned off the lights and headed to sleep.
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I heard the sound of a crash.I dare not open my eyes.I knew what it was.He roared loudly just like the thunder outside.I peeked at him from under the duvet as he entered the room.He banged on the walls with his hands until it was bloody.He laughed demonically.I was so afraid that I couldn't handle it but cry.He seemed to heard my sobbing and heavy breathing.
"I know you are awake." He said and I was shaking in fear.He came sat beside me and pulled me from under the duvet.He laughed as he saw me weep.
"Why can't we have a baby?!" He screamed and choked me.
"Ah!" I struggled to get away from him.
"WHY?" He screamed in front of my face.I dare not look at his horrific face.
"Please...let me go..." I whispered.
"Let you go huh...LET YOU GO?" He slapped me so hard that I fell on the bed.
"Not until I impregnate you." He laughed like a devil.
"You can't impregnate me!" I screamed and ran to the other room.He was running behind him.Luckily,I was able to close the door.
"Oh god,what do I do? What do I do?" I cried not knowing what to do.
He was breaking the wooden door with an axe.I was getting killed today for sure.
"Okay,okay." I tried to calm myself,"Talking him down is not an option,neither is running away.What do I do?" I was out of options.
"Come on,come on!" I said as I banged my head by my hand.There was something on my mind but it was very risky.
I slowly opened the door and he pushed me.I immediately ran to our room and took my phone.I rushed to the bathroom and played the videos of Alan,Tobey and I.
He ran back to me and started banging on the bathroom door.I opened it and made him watch the video.
But he got more furious,more angry.This is my end.I thought to myself and surrendered.
He pushed me onto to the bed and I was feeling so dizzy that I fainted.
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I woke up the next morning with a terrible headache.I saw Alan sleeping beside me but his head and hands were bleeding.
"Oh god,oh my god!" I said as I jumped off the bed.I ran and brought the first aid.
I slowly put the oinment on him and bandaged his wounds.He opened his eyes and groaned,"Ah!"
"I am sorry."He said and hugged me.
"Well,it is nothing new Alan but you've started hurting yourself.What is up with you?" I asked him with my welled up eyes.
The environment was still cold from last night.A bit chilly and windy.
"Last night..." He said as he was struggling for air,"Why did you say that I couldn't impregnate you?"
"Leave it." I whispered.
"No!Tell me!" He yelled.
"You almost killed me last night...I-I didn't know what to do.I was out of options.You-you...If you barge into the house like this every night,Alan...I barely survived from you last night...I-I how,I mean how can I protect my child if this happens?" I said with a trembling voice.
"Stacey..." His hands rubbed my thighs.
"I will try to stop it." He said and sat up.He caressed my cheeks and started to run his lips on my neck.
"Then stop it.We can only have a child after all of this is over or else...I can't-I can't bear losing another of my babies." I cried.
"But-but what if I can't stop?" He asked.
"I will stay by your side but with no child."