No Matter What
648 Words
Alan's fever recovered and he was alright.I was thankful for that.I couldn't bear to see him in pain.
It was the night.Alan was curled up in the bed.He kept tossing and turning like a little child.
"Aren't you feeling okay?" I asked.
"What?No I am fine." He said turning his back at me.I rolled my eyes and checked whether all the windows are locked or not.There was a storm coming.
I turned off the lights and laid down.Alan turned to me and pulled me closer to his chest.
"Come on..." He said.
"No..." I replied because I knew what he wanted.
"You still don't love me." He whispered in my ear.
"Alan...I don't think we should...get physically intimate with each other...for a while." I said nervously.He stared at me with his beautiful eyes.
"I don't mean that I don't love you." I said as I placed a kiss on his perfect face.Hoping it would make up for it.
"It's okay for not wanting to get intimate with a criminal." He said.
"No...I just said for a while.'' I replied as I touched his neck.
"That day,when I stabbed you and killed our baby.You should've left." He said.
"Oh no,no,no." I said calming him down.
"I-." I didn't have answers to his questions.Well,seems like there is no other option for me.I got over him and kissed him.
He put me down saying,"Go to sleep."
"Shush." I said and continued doing what I was doing.Then,he was finally satisfied.
"You're mine!" I exclaimed.He looked at me when I said that.
"Really?" He asked with a smile which seemed so genuine and innocent.
"Yes." I whispered and kissed him.
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I woke up the next day feeling extremely exhausted from last night.I can't make breakfast right now.I need to order something.I was checking the breakfast menu on my phone.What should we eat? Pancakes? Muffins?
"Stacey?" His voice startled me.I looked at him with wide eyes.
He put his hands on my thigh and caressed them.
"Order breakfast." I said as I threw my phone at him and went to the bathroom.I really wanted to go back to sleep.
I came out and he asked,"What do you want to eat?"
"What do you?" I asked him back.
"Egg muffins and Doughnuts."
"Yes,same for me." I said as I sat beside him.
"I want to take you somewhere tonight." He whispered in my ear and kissed my neck.My heart skipped a beat.Tonight? Where?
Is he going to harm me?
"Where?" I asked,trying not to show my nervousness.
"Just a surprise." He winked and I nodded nervously.
Is it what I think it is?
"If you don't tell me where we are going,how will I dress for it?'' I asked hoping he would spill.
"If you are thinking that I will murder you tonight..." He said," Then do whatever you want I don't care." He read my mind.
"I wasn't thinking about that." He looked at me in disbelief.Honestly,I was scared and yes I was thinking about that.My therapist told me that if he can stab me once, nothing will stop him from stabbing me again.
"Why do you go to a therapist?" He asked and my heart skipped a beat.
"What...how? Yes...I," I hesitated.
"It's okay.You don't have to tell me." He said.
The door bell rang.
"It's the breakfast maybe.I will go check." I said as I got up.I opened the door and took the food.
I placed the stuff on the bed and sat down.
The food was delicious, especially the egg muffin.
"Forgive me,please." He said all of a sudden and touched my hands.
"Alan, forgiving you means giving you more chances to hurt me.There was a limit and it has been reached.I thought I was strong but I am just weak like a child." I said to him.
"No,you are strong.You are the strongest woman I've seen in my entire life.After all you've been through,you are still trying to make me a better human being." He said as he placed his hand on my cheek.
"I really love you and I don't care what the odds are.I will make you mine no matter what." He said.
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