Even if I want I can’t

Chapter 3

Chris's POV

Today is Thursday and we will be going out for that speech thing, Ashton was talking about.

Though he is thirty years old and a father of two cute girls, still he behaves like an infant himself when it comes to giving motivational speeches. His love for these speeches is not normal. He's been excited all week for this day.

"Dude! Get ready, we'll be late!" He exclaimed."Ash keep your balls inside! There's still time to go there."

"Alright I'm chilled, you tell me why do you look so constipated? Looks like you didn't get enough sleep last night." He asked.

Sometimes I get flabbergasted how could he see through me this well. " Who said that? I'm great and rocking like always!" I said in cheering voice.

He give me the famous 'are you shitting with me right now' look and I stale faced him.

"Fine, I'm having those dreams again." I said in a boring tone he was dumbfounded "Again those eyes? Or anything new." He asked.

"Those exact same eyes but this time it's like they are hurting, there's immense pain but she is smart enough to hide that."

"How could you be so sure about?" Ash asked

"I just know, it's like I can feel her feelings like they are my own. So deep!" I explained.

"Don't worry dude they will be forgotten like before." He said.

But I know that I can never forget those eyes, those round coffee brown eyes. When I was fourteen years old that time I started seeing these dreams, then I used to see that there were happiness in her eyes. They had this twinkle which could make the strictest person to melt in putty in seconds.

But then that happiness vanished and then confusion took its place. Those eyes which used to be the only reason I used to love to sleep, and the twinkle in her eyes that somehow used to gave me hope, happiness and serenity have changed.

That girl was not happy anymore, she was confused about something or someone that I don't know about. And after almost fifteen years I'm having these dreams again.

Now sge shows that she is and content and happy with her life, but that twinkle is missing that's why I know she is hurting really bad. And we all have heard that saying that, 'the saddest heart could smile the brightest'. But this is not the only reason why I can say she is sad, it's alien to me that how am I able to feel her pains inside me so well. Sometimes I try to sleep for more hours just so I could see her full face. But that never happened.

"Maybe you are right." I said to assure Ashton that it's not that serious of an issue. "So I'll come to pick you up at two o'clock in the afternoon for that program" he said. "Okay I'll be ready " I answer and left for the ever so interesting charity event. 'Note the level of sarcasm'

Whole day went well, we could collect a good amount of money to support the homeless orphans. Then I attended a meeting with the German delegates for my new project. Soon I was in my cabin waiting for Ash.

Something is definitely wrong because my inner beast is very restless. It feels like he could come in a matter of time but then I thought, maybe this is happening due to those dreams.

But no Leo my beast is behaving way too worse today than earlier whenever I used to have these dreams.

Again my mind wander off to those eyes from my dreams. 'Is there any way to make her feel better' I thought. I just wanna comfort her and see her happy my beast said inside me head. I sighed and answered him, 'maybe someday we could erase her grieving and sufferings'.

"Let's move Chris, we'll be late!" Ashton said.

I looked at him and gave him a small smile. He stale faced me like I'm hie worst enemy and then grinned like a creep. God how could a guy like him be my best friend. I muttered to myself. Maybe I said that too high for him to listen clearly. "I heard that baby boy!" He said. I groaned," Form which side I look like a boy, could you please explain?" I said with a tight lip smile. He laughed and waved the matter with his hand and screeched "Let's go!"

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