A Lie So Beautiful

18. Treatment

Mia's Point of View.

The world seems to be swirling, I see the sky as blue as ever. Clouds seems to have abandoned the sky leaving it to its crystal clear beauty.

But all the blueness keeps on spinning making my head hurt, so I redirect my eye a bit downward.

And here I saw the green leafs swirling by in circle. All things seems to be circling round and round.

Or I guess my head is just going round and round. I feels so dizzy and my head seems to be blasting off.

But when I try to massage my head, I found out my head is my last problem as I can't lift up my hand. And Iam no orthopedic but I can sure as hell says its broken.

It was the same wrist I fracture before. It has bend in a weird angle and very swollen and red. And yes, it hurt like a b***h.

I was moving my broken hand with my other hand slowly so it won't be that painful and that is when I suddenly began to realise what is happening.

And as I began to realise what is happening, I remembered how I fell off the cliff and now is somewhere I had no idea about with a broken wrist and scratches all over me.

Well I look fine if I may say so, actually I was expecting a lot worse but i guess I didn't fall that hard.

With that I was about to get up and figure out how to get out of here, but again the worst was yet to be seen.

As I look forward, I saw the bus started to catch fire and a woman and two man rushing to get the kids out of the bus.

There were about twenty little boys and girls outside the bus, some stood there in total fright, while some were hysterically crying.

It seems they were students as they are all in uniforms. All the kids seems to be of seven to eight of age.

But about ten kids were still inside the bus. Some were crying, some just in trance while some were even unconcious. Many of them at one glance were full of bruises and some even bleeding heavily including the adults.

And the three adult were rushing to get the children out of the bus and get them away as far as possible from the bus cause the bus is burning up and some part even bursting into flame.

Seeing this I rush up and run towards the bus to help them in taking out the kids. I was about to lift a small girl who is unconcious out of her seat but my hand seems all limp. No matter how much I try I couldn't move it.

I try to lift her up as much as I can but I couldn't as the seat in front of her has fall backward on her and she was a little stuck in between her seat and the seat above and also my injured hand does not help at all.

After a few try to push the seat up, and seeing that I couldn't, I was about to ask for help but the woman seems to be in a hurry to let all the kids get away as much as possible from the bus, as the bus has now got much more fire than before. And all fear that the oil tank will burn anytime now.

The two guys were also in a hurry running while carrying the unconcious kids out of the bus. They were all running back and forth. The sight make me anxious and more worried so as much as it hurt I just stop thinking for a while and pull the seat with one hand which is the injured one while carefully pulling out the child with the other.

It feels like my wrist is ripped right out of my arm but I couldn't care less. But I did scream out in pure pain.

But that moment did not last long, as; when I was about to pick up the child another part of the bus burst into flame making me shake in anxiety and fear.

So I quickly start rushing out but I saw a small boy laying in the corner. And I pray for strength so that I could carry them both out.

With much difficulty I pick up the boy, and maybe it was andrenaline or rush or just fear but the excruciating pain in my wrist seems to be my last problem in this moment. And as I run out and finally reach the bus door, I saw the man running faster and faster away from the bus while tightly carrying a small crying girl in his arm.

While running he turns back to me and shout "faster, faster" again and again. And with him all the other kids also seems to be rushing forward with the adult assisting them as much as they can.

I look back just to see the bus catching much more fire than before and it seems like it will burst into flame any second now. As soon as as I saw that and feel the heat at my back, I run as fast as I could with all the strength I could gather. I never knew I would say this one day but yes I was literally running for my life.

And after a while of hopefully sprinting, I heard a loud boom and a strong hot wind seems to slap me down from my back making me fall down straight forward.

As I fall, I was trying to shield the kids as much as I could both from the heat and from the fall. I was crouching while trying to embrace the kids fully, trying to shield them from anything I could. After a while of crouching in the same position as I fell, I feel the heat going away just by a little bit, which tell me Iam saved at least from the fire.

With a huge sigh of relieve I turn back only to see the huge bus burning in an angry flame. But that image,in just a mere second switch from a burning bus to a burning house with me sitting in a very fresh and green grass laid down lawn. It seems like the greeness and the freshness of this lawn is mocking the heat of the burning home right in front of it.

And as I look up at the burning house I saw my father lying at the door which is in full flame. He is looking at me straight in the eye and with a tired yet warm eye mouth an I love you but the tears prickling in his eye convey nothing but sadness.

He look at me so lovingly for a while but then slowly his eye close making me frightened in nothing but agony.

But on the other side it seems someone was calling me with so much panic in his voice that I couldn't ignore. So I turn back and as I do, I saw dad running towards me by getting out of a car. He was rushing towards me but I cant seems to see him reach me as my vision is getting cloudy and dark.

I was trying so hard to clear my vision so that I could see my father or even my dad but just then I was roughly shaken and I saw a man who is looking at me with an anxious and a worried face and when I look behind him I could see the bus still burning.

Its seems all the image which were there just a moment ago have been taken away by the wind and had flown away with it.

I feel a very painful throb in my hand so I look down to check, just to realise the kids I was carrying a few minute ago were also gone. How come, I didn't even know they were gone?

The guy: Are you hurt somewhere, can you please speak up.

As he spoke to me I was about to answer but my mind seems like its going blind. I wanted to say Iam okay but it seems Iam really not and it was a bit too overwhelming for me to even say anything in that moment let alone saying that Iam fine.

Cause It's still all dark and gloomy and it still seems like a home, to be exact my home is still burning down in my mind. I seems to remember vividly the eye of my dying father as he look at me taking his last breath.

All this make me breathless and so overwhelmed that I just could not function properly as I would have hope. Sadness crush me from within but I could not seems to be able to express that either and I look and feel blank.

All these emotion were crushing me down and I don't seems to know how to stand up against it.

I miss dad, I really hope he could find me soon. If only he was here.

My thoughts seems to be just deepening, when suddenly I heard a cry of pain and when I look over, a small boy is crying in pain with blood all over his leg.

And it suddenly hit me that this was no time for me to cry or mourn. And as much as I wanna cry and hide in a corner and as much as I want to shout to be comforted as I just saw or remember how my parents pass, I couldn't.

As all of these little kids are shedding tears in agony and pain and me I could help in making some of them feels better. And if I chose to ignore that in the bubble of my pain, the weight of that selfishness is something I could not carry.

So with a deep breath I swallow my tears and keep away my pain in a deep corner of my heart, hoping it wont open up just for a while. I take a deep breath again and ready myself. I look at the guy who is looking at me worriedly and finally decide to say.

Mia: Iam alright, I just injured my wrist, thats all. Please help the children first.

When I say that he sigh in relieve and went to one of the crying kids trying to do everything he could to ease their pain, even if its just a little bit.

I stood up and bandaged my broken wrist as good as I can with a piece of cloth from my torn blazer acting as a temporary cast.

But as I look around, I don't seems to know where to start and how to start with the treatment.

There were just too many of them. But nonetheless, taking another deep breath, I rush to a small boy whose leg is filled with blood. And I rush to him and see his leg, luckily there was no big injury. His skin were scrap off but beyond that nothing seems to be injured. So to stop the bleeding, I once again tore my blazer and use it as a bandaged to covered up the wound as a temporary solution cause no first aid was there.

The girl who was standing with him look at me intendly and curiously. I guess I never said any introduction.

Mia: Hello, Iam Mia. And yes, Iam a doctor so ill treat them as much as I could with what I have. If you could please help me, ill be very gratefull.

The girl: Oh thank god, at least we have a doctor here. Iam Lexy and Iam a teacher here. If you need anything, please feel free to ask me and them. The one in black Jacket is Dave, a teacher as well and the other is Dean, he is the driver.

I gave her a little smile and a nod, and once again tore my blazer to use it as a bandage for covering a wound in a little girls arms.

Mia: Sweetie, I know it hurt a lot right now, and Iam trying to stop the pain but for me to do that you have to keep your hand still, can you do that for me please?

When I say that she look at me with her sadly frowned face but nod her head slowly and obediently sit still.

Mia: Good girl, it will not hurt anymore in a while okay.

She again give me another nod.

After that I continue treating some fractures which I can handle. I may not be an orthopedic but I can still handle some small fracture and stuff.

But unfortunately a small kid has his ribs broken and I was not very confident about it. Cause I have never treat anything like it, since my residency, but I try to treat him with my best and I did succeed but he still need treatment though.

Slowly slowly some kids who have fell unconcious started to gain conciousness. Luckily none had a critical injury and most of them faint due to shock. But of course to be sure, extra test and procedures need to be done.

After I was done giving first aid treatment to everyone, I try to help in searching for a way out or to figure out where we are along with the teachers and the driver. Fortunately none of the adult have any big injury and all were fine.

But as relieving as that is, we still havent figure out anything as to where we are and the sun has started to fall. But the worst thing is that, the whether is not clear and has started to become cloudy which means rain. So we were trying to find shelter or any way out but no luck this time. So all of us were just sitting in the ground with the kids who were looking so tired.

Apparently they were going for a field trip but unluckily something went wrong with the brake of the bus and they collide with me. And the rest is history.

Right now we are just waiting and hoping that someone is searching for us. And, yes, all of their phone has been crushed and burned with the bus. While mine is in a situation where half the screen is broken so I cant make calls but I can pick up calls yet no one is calling me. And that is probably because Iam using my dad's phone. I must have mistakenly taken his. So here Iam, hopelessly praying someone really call dad.

I should really pay more attention to my phone man. All the scolding Iam gonna get for this is unimaginably huge.

But thinking about scolding, all of them must be worried sick by now. What do I do? They really will be really worried by now.

But even if I keeps on thinking about it, there is nothing else I can do other than sighing in fear, pain and helplessness.

My hand is killing me, it has started to hurt more and more, my head hurts like crazy and I could hardly focus on anything and feel faint. But most importantly, the thing that is making me out of control is the memories I got back which I have forsaken for more than twenty years and that scared be to my core.

I dont know how to confront myself, cause even if I remember or I dont, I know that these peice of memories are gonna have a painfull end at the end of the day. Just thinking about all this make me weak physically and emotionally so I keep trying to focus on other things cause for now, I cant affort being weak. I have many people to protect here and I can't let myself be weak at such a critical moment.

So I just keep on telling myself to be strong and not to cry. I keep on saying the word "don't cry" to myself again and again hoping that will help me a bit.

I miss Jace, dad and even Justin. I really hope they could come to me soon.

But as I seat there, I feel more and more tired each minute, and it feels like I'll faint anytime now but I just keep on telling myself dad, Jace and Justin will find me soon and I just need to hold on a little bit longer. Just to stay awake upto that much time and ill be fine. I keep on telling myself to stay concious and awake but between those moment, I remember hearing a loud ringing sound of a phone which make my heart fill in relief.

Someone has finally called dad but when I try to go and pick up the phone, I couldn't. Iam just too tired to move and I dont know whether Iam falling asleep or fainting but this time I close my eyes with another hope that when I wake up Jace, Dad and even Justin will already be by my side.