36. Why lie?
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Mia's point of view.
The next day we stay at the same place, as that place provide us with everything we need. The day was just passing us by, with us not able to figure out where to go, or not even knowing how to get help at all. And soon evening comes by again and that was when we saw a chopper flying around our surrounding, that is when we quickly start a big fire to get their attention which thankfully we did and that is how we manage to get out of the place we know nothing of.
But while leaving it was hard to be relieved as we are leaving a family member behind in that cold, dark, foreign place. And that make all of us shed tears in agony and the only thing that we could utter were 'we love you and that we will be back for her'.
Its the next day after Jace and I went to my parents grave. Today dad leave really early cause of an emergency in the hospital. So here Iam, alone and once again deep in thoughts.
I know that it was a crazy idea but I can't seems to shake off the idea of Claire and the camera. Why is this bothering me so much? I don't know. But it really is making me feel iffy.
I keep on thinking about this since last night and I have come to know one more weirder and scarier thought.
No matter how much I think about it or how much I contemplate. Claire was definitely not there when the fire happen.
Even dad was not there, let alone Claire. That time I remember Claire being sick again so she was hospitalised. And my father was busy in the lab doing I don't really know what. But when I think about it now, I think he was doing research on something. But I don't really know what he was researching on.
But what Iam sure of is that Claire was never there when the fire happen and even when dad arrive, I remember him rushing out of the car alone with medics behind but no Claire.
So then when Claire was not even there, how come she died there?
But then if she did not died there then why would dad said otherwise. Why would dad lied about such things?
Thats crazy!
Maybe I remember it wrong? Maybe all my memories are not back yet.
But no matter how much I wanna deny it, I cannot deny the vivid thought that I saw Claire when I was hospitalised. Given that I was heavily medicated and seriously hurt but I swear I saw her sitting there telling me to wake up soon and kissing both my cheeks.
I remember so clearly cause that was the first memory I had after I wake up but even then dad said Claire was already gone so I thought it was all in my mind.
But now, I have started to doubt all kind of things, based on what? I dont really know. But the feeling that Iam missing something keeps on bothering me to the point that I couldn't ignore it even when I try so hard to.
I did remember that Claire was not there with us the day the fire happen and I did saw her in the hospital. But why would dad said she died there if she don't. There is just no reason to lie about that.
Caused however she did died, it does not make a different. She was gone and nothing can change that fact.
I must just be going crazy caused I have been doing nothing for a while now, thinking all this ridiculous thoughts. I should really start doing something before I go complete crazy.
All these are just crazy thoughts I should forget about quickly cause I know for a fact that as much as they sound real and even feel real to me, I know better that Dad will never lie to me about such things and even if he wanna why would he ever lie about this stuff.
With that conclusion I went about doing all kind of things keeping myself busy mainly to distract me from going back to these wild thoughts.
I put on music on speaker in full blast and was cleaning every nook and corner of the house. I even went and clean the garden but it did not take much work cause it was not dirty to begin with. I take a bath after that and just like that my work was finish and once again I was left doing nothing.
Highly willing to disturb myself I decide to call Jace just to kill time for a while. I ring him up and the call was pick up right from the second ring, that was quick.
Mia: Hey Jace.
Lea : Hey Mia.
Well that was not Jace, was that Lea? ( Jace's secretary).
Lea : Iam so sorry Mia, but Jace is in a meeting and seems to have forget his phone in his office. Shall I go inform him?
Ohoh what a lucky meeting that is, it even have Jace attention. Okay, my thoughts are going insane.
Mia: No, No its okay. Its nothing important, I will call back later.
Lea: Okay then, I'll see you later.
And with that she hang up the phone, I would have like to talk even to her if she had not hang up. How pathetic of me. With that I decide to call Justin again cause thats the only people I know. And yes, he did not pick up again. Them scolding me for not picking up my phone is just a joke man. They also never did, but then again they are working and very busily at that. I really feel like Iam unemployed these days.
Even Justin is ignoring me now, I must have too much free time. So with that I tried to be productive and finally switch on the television. I was about to watch Friends once again cause why not?
Iam watching the show keenly but this time I can't seems ro distract myself with this as well.
And the weird weird thoughts keeps on entering my mind.
Another possibility I thought of was if and if, just if dad did lie to me then why?
Did something else happen to Claire that I did not know of? Did something else which is more devastating happen at that devastating moment?
If dad even went to the extend of lying about it then it must have been something worse then just someone passing.
Shall I just ask dad about all this and share what I have been going through this days? Shall I just go and share all that I have been thinking of and ask all the questions I wanna know?
But Iam not even sure with what Iam thinking and just for this, will I be able to question my dad and let him reminisce such a painful memory like that of his own beloved daughter's demise. Just on my baseless theories shall I really doubt on my dad and let my dad go through this?
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