A Lie So Beautiful

10.Facade

Jace's Point Of View.

Mia: And Jace, its not that I make trusting and loving you sounds so easy, its the other way round, you make trusting and loving you so easy for me. So thank you, love you and bye.

As she said those sweet words and sweetly give me a flying kiss. That scene to me look like a scene right out of a movie, a fantasy world.

The bright golden color sunlight glow on her forming like a halo of her own. It seems like she is producing her own spot light.

The bright smile she gave me complimented by her soft and smooth pale skin, with her shiny brown hair flying everywhere and her midnight black eye shining with nothing but mischeive, looks like a gorgeous image right out of my own fairy tale book. It was just beautiful. That I can't help but smile back at her in amazement.

And if I can, I just wanna stand here forever gazing at the beauty in front of me, listening to all the sweet words she breaths out that warms up my dark, ugly and cold heart.

But all too soon, she rush inside the hospital carrying away my fantasy world with her, rushing away from me. Actually, rushing is like her second nature, she always rush wherever she goes to, regardless of whether she is late or not. Thinking about it, I have learn a lot of new things about her, since I met her three years back.

I have come to realize that, she is not someone who tries to hide what she feels, rather she is pretty straight forward. Which make her so simple. When she is unhappy about something she quickly let it be known, or whenever she is happy about something she becomes super excited and is always eager to share it. She is like an open book to me, which make everything much more simpler.

Loyalty, trust, love, generosity, patience, kindness, understanding or anything more. Just name it, she posses it all.

And I also know she loves with all of herself making me feel more scared. Cause for a matter of fact I know, whenever I do something wrong she question thousands of her good qualities thinking where she goes wrong for me to do that. But I guess for that I could do nothing but just put more effort for her not to be in that situation ever again. Cause I'll try everything I can to adapt to her imperfections before I even think of changing her.

But if I continue this, I can just go on and on about her good character all day and there might never be an end to it. But for now I guess I have to take care of something else first.

As I have, like Mia says, a lot of pile up work. So I quickly get in my car and drive away, too eager to finish everything and go home.

But when I reach to park my car and was about to get out. I can see a very lonely figure standing with her heads down, looking as lonely as ever making my heart ache.

I guess I have to take care of some emotional problem first before I get to work. So I ready myself with a deep breath and goes out.

Jace(coldly) : Why are you here Claire?

When I say that she just laugh sarcastically, looking all broken making me question every action of mine.

Claire: You are asking as if you don't know about it!

I know what she is here for, I just don't wanna talk about it so soon. It's because it will be about Mia.

Jace: Claire! How long are you going to disturb her?

Claire(sternly) : As long as you don't let her go.

Jace: I told you everything is over between us. If you are unhappy about it, you can disturb me all you want or make troubles for me. But you can't go to Mia. Don't let me do something I don't wanna.

If she did make troubles for me. Iam fine with that, I deserve it but she can't go for Mia cause simple, she did nothing wrong and does not deserve any hate.

Claire(crying) : How can you do this to me, Jace? Iam okay with it, if you break up with me. I'll find a way to be okay with the fact that you wanna be free from me as well. But why Mia? Must it be her?

Jace(cold) : What I do, Who I love is none of your business.

I wanna shout at her to go away already cause she is only hurting herself more by clinging on me but that words just died down in my throat as I heard her crying out in despair.

Claire: Can't it just not be Mia? Hmm? anyone else and I'll figure a way out to be okay with it. Even if I might never come to accept the fact that you don't love me anymore; I'll figure a way out to be okay with it. But, please don't let it be Mia.

Jace: I don't care whether you like it or not but I love Mia and that's it. Stay away from her. And why does it even matter to you, if its Mia or somebody else? You will always hate the women I love anyway.

Claire: Cause I don't wanna ever hate her. She have dad's love, even though Iam his real daughter. But I have come to term with it, barely making out as human. But if also you comes to love Mia, then Iam afraid I might really come to hate her. I might really forget she is my sweet little sister and hate her even though I know none of it is her fault. You know best what I went through with my family. I really wanna remember her with nothing but love, but you being with her is just making that impossible. So, can it please not be Mia.

It is said that turning a blind eye to something is better than giving them false hope. So Iam gonna do just that cause even if I understand her, I can do nothing to help her out. I don't wanna give her anymore false hope. She is suffering enough as she is.

Jace(coldly) : If you do anything to Mia, don't tell me I don't warn you. Cause I won't stay still.

Claire: Hah! Mia is the only thing in your mind, even when Iam begging you like this. Mia is really such a lucky girl, dad chose her and now even you, you chose her again. I wonder what did I ever do so wrong that I have to be always abandoned? You guys are really the worse, always as cold as ice to me yet becomes as warm as the fire during a cold winter for her.

With that I see a single teardrop of her eye. Her eye shows nothing but just how broken she is. She tries to walk away taking a baby steps, but couldn't even do it as she is wobbling and barely standing.

Looking at her lonely back , make me clench my jaw and fist, frustrated at our own hopelessness.

But I quickly snap out of my daze and text mike.

'Come pick up Claire, she is in the parking lot of my office. Be quick.'

And to stop Claire from walking away I shout out.

Jace: Hating Mia will just make you suffer more. Drop that idea for your own self. And I know you are curious about this, Mia have an amnesia due to some incident, that's why she was so excited when she remember your face before. She really do loves you and is always bragging about you whenever she talks about you.

When I say that she stop, and turn back with face full of tears looking as broken as ever. She is literally sobbing making me lose eye contact. Its just too painful for me to look at what I have made of her, then how must she feel.

Claire: Jace, please help me in protecting Mia from myself. I really don't want to be hated, at least not by Mia.

The look of despair she give me really make me want to give her a shoulder at least for her to cry on but I remember, no false hope. So I just said nothing and get in the elevator as I can see Mike running towards her.

As soon as the door of the elevator closes, a tear drop down my eye.

I wonder why must we go through all this pain and whether it was really worth it.

Even when I hide the truth, the people who I care for suffer. And even when I tell the truth the people who I care for will suffer.

If only I can take away all the pain and disappear with it, that will be best . At least, if that's the case Mia will be fine.

I also really wanna tell Claire, that even me I always question why must it be Mia. Out of all the people it can be, why must it be Mia.

Why must I meet someone as good as Mia, who always prioritize my happiness , that Mia who loves me enough to know that something is wrong even when I look at her with a bright smile, that Mia who make me feel like a human and that Mia who is an angel herself. Why must it be Mia.

Can't it be somebody else, anyone else will have been fine. Thats the complain I always have too.

I also think all of this is unfair, but I guess Iam not even in a position to complain about anything.

I wanna comfort you too Claire, even if its just as a friend but it seems like Iam just taking a thousand step back from reaching that moment. It seems like the more I try to make things better, the more I ended up hurting you and the people you hold precious. Iam so sorry for everything I have done and everything I'll probably do in the future.

But, more than that and more than what I feel for you. I am committing a grave sin on my own and might end up hurting a very innocent soul.

I might end up hurting someone who trust me blindly, someone whose happiness depends on my happiness, someone who will give everything up for me , someone who love me very dearly, just for my selfish reason. So even if damage is guaranteed, I want to prepare her on how to solve the damage even if its just by a little bit, I really wanna help.

Cause that someone is a very dear person to me, she is someone very precious to me. She is my own personal angel. And I know its inevitable for her to find out what Iam doing someday. But until that day comes, just till that day. I wanna give her all the love I have for her and shower her with nothing but happiness, so that when sadness surround her a little window of hope may open up for her too.

I know that once she knows what's going on, she will really be broken with no one to turn to. She is a sweet angel so she won't even know who to blame.

And will probably think it's her fault again. So before I solve that, before I make sure she will be fine, before I make sure she knows she is not to be blame for anything and the one she trust the most is the one hurting her. I can't take even half a step to help you.

So till then Claire, please be fine. Please find a way to stay healthy

and fit, and not to look so pale and distraught the next time we meet, please try to stay strong and hold on. Please wait for me till then my Claire.