Life of a university student.

Have you all gotten to the point where you don't even know whether you are doing the right thing or not ? Well, come along with me as I take you through my journey of being a student. My name is Desire Smith.19 years old. Short, kindhearted and passionate. I'm studying for a Bachelor of Social Work at the University of Pretoria. Day 1 of 1 I arrived at campus for orientation. I got lost as I did not know the Humanities building, but they helped me. After the first session, I made a few friends, and we all navigated the campus together and that was when I saw the handsome white guy whom I made eye contact with, and I smiled and blushed and continued walking. After orientation was over, I went back to my res Varsity Studios smilling because of the crush I had on the guy and when I got to res, I was happy. Even my roommate noticed and asked what made me happy, but I said nothing. As I was walking, I bumped into this tall darkskinned guy with locks. He was handsome. Don't want to lie. Day 2 of 2 The lectures started, and I happily enjoyed the lectures. My modules are SLK, KRM, ALL, AIM, MWT, MWP, SOC and that's it I thought it was going to be easy, but as time went on I saw that I needed to put more effort into my studies than my personal life. Yes, you can give yourself breaks, which is a must and I will. As I was still thinking about my life, the guy from res sat next to me and said hi. I responded back. He even asked me a few questions about myself, and we talked for a while. Later on, I ran to class. Later that I was doing my laundry in the laundry room, he came again and guess what he was previously studying, the course I'm studying now. He gave me a few tips on how I could tackle it, and we even went to his room to chill, trap right!!!!! We talked, and I enjoyed every single moment I spent with him. We were both tired and we napped. Cuddles were flowing, and he is a tight holder. That is what I loved about him, and he kept on asking if I was comfortable. His voice God !!!! We both slept, and I had to go back to my room to fold my laundry. But I couldn't stop smiling, so I called my friend Tania, and she was so shocked because that was surprising as I had just met the guy. Besides that, he was just too handsome to resist. Day 3 of 3 He texted me, asking if I had snacks and I said yes I did, and he asked me to bring them. I did not want to go as I knew somethng might happen and yes, it happened. We were watching a movie and cuddling. When he pulled me close, we kissed, and he lifted my dress up, and he went from my neck to my boobs. He was doing something I enjoyed, and I didn't want him to stop. But, he stopped me doing what I wanted. I said I didn't know, but I knew very well deep down. I wanted him, and he asked to be in a situationship with him and that was when my heart broke into a million pieces as I did not expect this from him, but I did not agree with that, because a situationship means you will both just see each other when you are both craving each other, not being in a relationship together. So I stood up, holding my head high as I knew I deserved better than that. I arrived in my room and Icried my lungs out as I loved him and still do, but it is okay, I will just focus on my studies. That is it.