95 MPH

94 miles per hour. Tires squealing, fast spinning, and internal bliss at the threat of death. There are lines in life, lines that define our limitations, and the amount of stress we as humans can handle. More often than not, these lines are crossed gradually, without any notice or realization until after the damage is done. Both physically and mentally. For some people, such as myself, these things end up happening a bit quicker, around 94 mph quicker! There was an abundance of built up anger, blinding my sense of judgement, attributing to the ungodly speed of my vehicle as I attempted to take exit 10 off Interstate 270….in the rain. This is not just a memory, neither is it a challenge, but rather a memorable challenge if you will. However, this particular scenario has no ending as of now. It consistently creates new memories, not only to be remembered, but also to be recalled, recognized, and used as a learning tool. There is no specific amount of pressure that causes a mental breakdown. Everyone is different, and everyone has a unique breaking point. Some don't even know they have a breaking point. This was the case for myself. I thought, like most young people, that I had no reason to turn down any opportunity that came my way. Unfortunately, not all people are fortunate enough to have the support or means to take advantage of any available opportunity. In fact, some get specifically stopped from making progress in their passions. Now, I’m not going into full detail, and that is on purpose. I’m not giving a S.O.B story, I’m not dragging names through the mud. Whatever happend, happend, and minute details are unnecessary in order to make my point. What to watch for. How to prevent irreversible mental damage. You watch for the first times you doubt your existence, question why you're driving, or walking, or riding, or working, or whatever the hell else you're doing.Watch for when you stop doubting, stop questioning, and start leading a life of going through the motions. Spending so much time helping others, never helping yourself. Finally, watch for numbness, either physical or mental. It becomes less easy to understand for people who haven’t experienced it. I was blinded by my anger, anger at the situation fate has placed me in, blinded and numb. Paying no regard to anyone or anything, it was just me and my car, going almost 100 miles an hour. I saw my exit, everything became a blur. I remember just feeling like I was floating on air, then the spinning. Like a fun fair ride. I spun, and spun, and spun...then darkness. I looked up from the steering wheel, saw my car was just idling, in park, in the grass off the exit. Without a thought, I put it into gear, and drove back onto the exit. Starting to tremble as I realized how lucky I was to be there, unharmed. I continued on into Lancaster, Ohio, and went on to complete my shift at Burger King, acting as if nothing at all had happend. It wasn’t until almost 3:00 a.m., that I really comprehended what that I went through a mental breakdown, and ignored my way through it. In conclusion to my documentation of my memorable challenge for which the solution has yet to be found. I have gained some valuable knowledge. Much like losing control of a vehicle, some situations in life are out of your hands. Rather than speeding through these situations (at 94 miles an hour). It is sometimes best to slow down, taking everything one step at a time. When you zoom through life, and the challenges it presents you, you have a good chance of flying through one bad predicament, into one that is much, much worse.