Unforgiveable

Secrets Kept

                                                                                  Crissy's Pov :

I decided that I wasn't going to tell my husband about what happened between Marquan and I. I just decided to keep living my life like nothing ever happened. But the fact was it DID happen. Was it wrong that I was having dreams about. Waking up at night wishing it was Marquan in my bed. God I was getting wet just at the thought of him. I knew it was in my best interest to tell Marquan to just forget about the renovations but something in my mind wouldn't let me. Did I actually want Marquan? Did I wan't to have an affair with him and that's why I did what I did to him that night? It wasn't just the liquor some of it had to be me right? I don't know but I need to figure it the f**k out. This was Marquan's weekend to work and I didn't want it to be so awkward. I decided that this time tonight I would make chicken alfredo but without the wine just to lighten the mood.

Knock knock

                                           " Hey I made dinner downstairs if you would like some. It's just chicken alfredo. I know what happened the other week was a little bit too much but I didn't want this weekend to be awkward. I hope we can move on and continue being friends." I said nervously

                                           " No sweat it is what it is. Thanks for dinner though I'll grab some in a bit." said Marquan barely looking at me. I guess he was avoiding me but it was turning me on. I wasn't used to being ignored by any man. It's 11 p.m and I'm laying in bed. I should be thinking about Tavias but I cant stop thinking about Marquan. Like what the f**k am I doing seriously. Maybe I need some water.

                                           " Couldn't sleep?" I hear Marquan whisper from behind me. I couldn't help but notice how much more sexier Marquan was starting to look at me. I mean he looked good always but he was way more appealing to me in this moment. His dark brown skin. His well kept hands and feet. His teeth were so straight and perfect. His eyes showed light into his soul they were so beautiful. He was so beautiful. I wanted him in more ways than one right now. Pushing these thoughts about him were getting more and more difficult. It was becoming a little more than easy to not think about Tavias and I.

                                           " Yeah I just thought I would grab something warm that would help put me to sleep," I said wishing that he would actually put me to sleep if you know what I mean.

                                           " Well I'm gonna head back to bed I just came to make sure that you were okay and I see that you are so I'll just be back on my way." he said as he was backing up to go back to his room

                                           " Wait ummm would you like to play card maybe?" I asked shyly

                                           " Umm sure yeah that's fine." said Marquan

                                            " Okay well there just in my room we can play in there if you want to. " I said knowing that things could lead somewhere else but at this point I was starting not to care anymore.

.........

Damn this boy really sucks at card games. Like I mean really sucks BlackJack 21 is really not his thing. We played almost until 3 a.m I was ready to pass out As Marquan started to leave I couldn't help but to ask him to spend the night with me. No funny business but I just needed the company. Even though Tavias and I were talking on the phone I really just needed a mans touch. I mean we could sleep in the same bed as each other and not have s*x right? No what the f**k was I doing.

                                           " Umm I can but only if your sure. If you want I can sleep at the bottom or on the floor." said Marquan with a slight smile on his face. Maybe he did want me as much as I was wanting him.

                                         " Don't be silly you can sleep at the top with me we can put pillows in between us. I just really want some company right now." I said excitedly more excited than I should have been.

Laying in the bed with Marquan felt good though. Why did it feel this good? Why was I getting the urge to seduce Marquan every 5 minutes. I knew it was wrong but in this moment I was already wrong when I asked him to get into bed with me.

                                        " Hey are you sleep ," I asked Marquan

                                        " No what's up are you okay?" whispered Marquan. Even though he wasn't sleep I could hear tiredness in his voice and I knew just how to wake him up.

                                       " Hey it's your turn to repay me ," I said rubbing my finger up Marquan's thigh. Marquan looked at me quickly with his eyebrow raised.

                                        " You can't be serious. Are you seriously that attracted to me?" asked Marquan with a laugh.

                                        " Have you been drinking again?" said Marquan as he rolled completely over to look at me. I bit my lips, shook my head, and proceeded to slip down my underwear. Marquan raised an eyebrow as he hesitated but he knew I was serious and he knew that he wanted me. 

                                       " Well what about Tavias ?" said Marquan looking shocked as ever.

                                       " Well what about Ana? Besides Tavias isn't here he never f*****g is." I said knowing what I was saying still could not justify cheating. At this moment all I wanted was Marquan inside me and all over me. 

                                        " Lights on or off", said Marquan

                                        " Whatever you like zaddy," I replied seductively. I really wanted Marquan. I don't know why but I did.

Marquan yanked back the covers and proceeded to spread my legs asking me was I sure before proceeding. I shook my head yes and before I knew it Marquan was giving me the best head that I have ever had. He was sucking on my c******s and sticking his fingers in and out of me. It felt like pure heaven. My legs felt like they were going to tremble right off my body. I didn't want this to end. I decided to get on all fours and let him eat it from the back. Mannnnnn this boy was licking my p***y from the front to the back and the part in between my p***y and my butt. I don't know what to call that but it made it so much more intense. All I could do was grind on his face until I nutted all in his mouth. He didn't even stop. This man just licked all that nut up like it was his last meal. He was sucking the soul out of my body. I stopped him and helped him take his clothes off then got back on all fours. Doggy style was my favorite position. I feel like you get all the d**k in that position and right now I wanted every inch Marquan had. Right before we were about to have s*x we heard a knock on the door.

                                       " Open up this f*****g door I know your in there." We looked at each other pale as ever scared as s**t.