Unforgiveable

Hangover

                                                                               Crissy's Pov :

My head was pounding and the bathroom had became my new friend this morning. f**k what the f**k was I thinking last night. I could only remember bits and pieces. I definitely remembered kissing Marquan but did it go any further than that? After I finish puking and get the smell out of my mouth I'm damn sure gonna find out. If he knew I was drunk would he continue to have s*x with me. That would shatter me and I would never ever be able to be around Marquan again.

                                          " Hey good morning," I said softly afraid talking any louder would make my head pound worse.

                                          " Got any remedies for a hangover?" I said chuckling a little just to lighten the mood.

                                          " Yeah I have some but they all include a raw egg. Do you think you could stomach that?" said Marquan as he was making sure not to even look at me.

                                          " Look umm I'm sorry about last night. I got a little too wasted and I took things a little bit too far. I remember kissing you and I noticed that I wasn't in the dress that I wore to dinner last night. Did we do anything further than just kiss?" I asked nervously and scared as hell that he was going to say that we had s*x. Marquan took a deep breath before getting up to stand in front of me like he had bad news.

                                          " Listen I was hoping that you wouldn't remember but I don't think that I can keep this from you. Last night you were completely trashed. Although we didn't have s*x you did ummm," Marquan paused.

                                         " We did what?" I said angrily

                                        " You gave me oral!" Marquan said with his eyes tightly closed and his hands balled into a fist on both sides of his head.

                                          " What the f**k Marquan. Why didn't you stop me if you knew that I couldn't control what I was doing? You took advantage of me! Couldn't help yourself after you got that little peep show in the parking garage at work. I can't believe that you would let that happen!" I yelled as I threw a glass cup at his head barely missing him by a couple of inches.

                                        " Whoa whoa whoa ! Now you wait a damn minute. I stopped us from having s*x. I just didn't get a chance to stop you from sucking my d**k because in the middle of me telling you we couldn't do it you yanked my damn pants down. At the end of the day I'm a f*****g man but I did stop you before it went any further than that. I wasn't gonna do that to you. Give me some f*****g credit this wasn't all my fault and how was I suppose to f*****g know that you couldn't hold your liquor!" he said with anger in every word.

                                         " Look your right I'm sorry I didn't know it went down like that. I guess I can give you some credit for not having s*x with me I appreciate that. Now I just have to figure out how to tell my husband that I f*****g cheated on him. Maybe we should just cancel the f*****g renovations. We need time apart." I said holding back tears. I mean what the f**k had I just did to my marriage. I know what it feels like to be cheated on why the hell would I do that to my own husband. It doesn't matter that he's cheated before it isn't right. I have to come clean this time

                                       " Listen we don't have to stop the renovations. You already paid me. I'll just stay on one side of the house and when I have to do your side we'll just switch sides. It will be ok. I'm not saying that you should lie but we didn't have s*x you don't have to tell Marquan. I won't say anything I swear." said Marquan with sadness and also care in his voice.

                                     " Look you just finish up for the day and we'll see about next weekend. I don't know what I'm going to do but I do know that I at least need a break from you Marquan." I said as I walked to my room trying to decide on what I was going to do. I knew that I should tell him but I also knew that if I did he would leave me. I love Tavias I didn't know that drinking would make me horny like that.