Seeing Gabi leave so disappointed only shows me that I don't deserve her, and even though I'm grateful for everything she's done for me, I also feel very guilty because she doesn't deserve anything that has happened while being by my side.
I've been a very selfish person, and I think what I'm experiencing is karma. I couldn't respond to anything because I'm still in shock. God, I think my brain disconnected from my body just by looking at her swollen belly. I feel like s**t. The guilt is so overwhelming that now I only feel it would have been best for Gabi if I had died right there in that house where Mafer had me. Even though it would have been painful, she wouldn't have had to deal with everything.
I destroyed such a perfect relationship, and the result of that is on its way. God, my s
