THE GIRL THAT I LOVED TRULY

mia aka my first love I met her in group from f*******: she was soo weird but whatever. in that group we used to fangirl over kpop groups she used to post a lot about her ships and her gayness tbh I dont mind that but at that time I wasn't into girls ..... soo yeah my name is rita and the story started in 2015 this girl was my age 16y and I like her posts on f*******: and the way she speaks Japanese ,her style and everything she was PERFECT I thought about a lot of ways to approach her because she is really nice and I wanted to be a friend but no way .. soo I added her directly and started talking to her and she was extremely nice with me and talked a lot about her favourite ship ( yoonmin) I was a hardcore vkooker soo the Yoonmin is my cup if tea we talked daily for more thn 2 months and once she told me about her sexuality and she loves girls and back at tha time I didnt know anything about sexuality and why ppl are attracted to the same gender soo iwas like that's weird but whatever later in I read a lot about that subject and I was curious about it soo I kept on talking in to her till one day when she was not in f*******: anymore she is the kind of ppl who go on hiatus became she is done with life i was soo sad because i didnt hv her number or anything soo i added her bestie and told her that i need her number and she gave it to me and we talked and she confessed via the phone that she likes me and blabla .. i was shocked when she said date me but I told myself it's okay to do that since I dont have feelings for her or anything is just something to satisfy her