my life as a teenager

When I was a kid I can't understand anything. Literally everything is amazing I always feel like I am in heaven . But now people think that you should dress like a girl, you should behave properly, you should have to meet people, become talkative in front of others, etc. I think you all can understand how I feel . I want to go foreign . But everyone think no you can't do that . why they can't understand that's my dream. They just want me as a girl who always study and do housework that's all. That's too hard for me to express my feelings in front of them sometimes. They think just do government job after that get married. Can you ever think how does it feel when someone say that? I think maybe you guys know that. I always think I will run away but after that I think how and where I will go after that? I know that's sounds funny but that's real. I want to make some boyfriend in my life like a teenager does. But my parents never allow me to do that kind of think. I know now you are thinking then why are you telling about that to your parents? But they will know after some time if someone tell me it's hard to hide something for me specially. It's too hard to live like this. If you use phone people think they just chatting with some or a boy. I just want to tell them "oh come on! can't I study in my phone or just reading memes or anything else." Literally I think my life as a kid is pretty much good. Everyone loves you. They all just want to make you happy. But now People taunt me whenever I go somewhere. I think that's it for today Don't forgot to like Actually that's my first book so please forgot my mistakes