Prologue
You ever just lay down and look up, sometimes at a blank ceiling or a dark sky filled with stars and clouds. It doesn't matter, just sometimes you need to center yourself with everything around you by only looking in one direction, up. Sometimes I get overwhelmed with my thoughts and just need to center myself and I lie down to think and breathe. Laying down and looking up at the evening sky just before sunset is my favorite time to center myself and think. I like to think about my day and any thoughts I'm struggling to process and work through. I remember doing this ever since I was a kid and would get in trouble for breathing too loud. Sometimes I start thinking too much and my head starts to hurt and my chest as well. Yet as soon as I lay down and look up, my head clears and goes as blue as my ceiling or the sky and the pain goes away and I can breathe and think again. Sometimes I wish she weren't there watching me like she's ready to devour me alive and take me away like everyone else she's taken away from me. Other times I'm glad I'm not alone anymore.