Nightmare

CHAPTER 20

Zayn," he called my name softly as he finally recognized me. I clenched my fist in great annoyance, this jerk is still alive. I knew it, he was immortal. He slowly walked towards me but I aimed the gun at him as a reason to stop him from walking again. "Wait, what are you doing?" he asked in astonishment.

"Stop acting like you don't know everything," I told him emphatically as the gun continued to point at him. "You're really good at that, aren't you? To pretend, you're really a traitor!"

"What are you talking about? Zayn I don't understand you." he complained.

"What kind of game do you want to play this time huh ?" I asked him sarcastically. But instead of speaking, he just frowned as if he didn't really understand what I was saying.

"Look Zayn, I don't know why you're acting like that..I've been looking for you after we get separated earlier so --- "

"Stop fooling me Raze !!" I shouted at him with a gunshot that touched his shoulder. "You tried to kill me many times before. You're a traitor! You made me believe that you were on my side! You made me believe ! You played with my trust, but what did you do? You betrayed me! "I shouted along with a loud sob. I admit that I am hurt, even though my anger at him is more dominant. I am still hurt by the fact that he is a traitor.

"Z-zayn, I don't understand what you're saying. I can't understand you." There was a hint in his voice that he was in pain because he was having difficulty speaking, but despite that, he was still able to step closer to me.

"Don't come near me," I threatened him but he still didn't listen to me so I shot him again in his other arm.

"Zayn please listen to me," he begged me as he continued to step closer to me. He didn't seem to feel the bullet hit his arms.

"Why? Are you going to explain? What are you going to explain? That I was wrong in what I thought? That everything that happened wasn't true? Then what? You want me to trust you again?" I asked him while still crying. It really hurts. My chest tightens, because I don't understand anymore. I don’t know what and who I will believe. "Don't make me a fool Raze! Because I'm a fool for the fact that I trust you!"

"Zayn I don't know what happened, I don't know who you're referring to who betrayed you. But please believe me, it's not me. I won't do that to you." he explained.

I did not speak and I remained staring at him. I wanted to say a lot but not a single word came out of my mouth. I feel like my throat is blocked. No matter how many times I convinced myself not to listen and trust what he has to say, I don’t know why my heart does differently.

"This is your dream Zayn, they were after you. They will do anything to deceive you. They will catch you in a big trap, so don't trust what you see. They're just deceiving you." he continued to convince me but until now I do not know what I should believe.

"Are these also the things you're showing to me part of your plan to deceive me?" I meaningfully question him.

"Of course not, I'm being true to you Zayn. Believe me I'm saying ----"

"I don't believe what you're saying." I told him directly so that he could not continue what he was going to say. There is a mark on his face that he can't do anything because I really won't believe anything else he does.

"Just try me then and see it for yourself." he said then he held out his hand to me as he slowly walked closer to me. I frowned when he said that. What does he mean? He wants me to hold his hand? For what?

"I told you not to come near!" I shouted at him and then shot him again, but it didn't stop him and he continued to approach. I also continued to shoot him. On his chest, shoulders, abdomen and any part of his body.

I didn't do that because I didn't believe in him. I did that, because if he was the real Raze, I knew if all his wounds would disappear when I held his hand. When I lucid dream. He wanted me to hold his hand to prove that he was telling the truth.

I stopped firing when I see that I was running out of bullet in the gun. Raze was feeling weak at this time. He could hardly continue walking because of the excessive number of gunshot wounds to his body.

When I noticed that he was about to fall, I hurried over to hold him by the shoulder and catch him. This time, I tried to control the surroundings, leave wherever we are standing now and get rid of our bodily wounds.

I don't have to close my eyes anymore. I looked up at Raze's face, our eyes met as my heartbeat quickened. I’m not scared, I’m not nervous either. But I could not determine the cause of my rapid throbbing chest.

I remained staring into his eyes, into his familiar eyes. Until now, I still can't determine where I first saw him. At this time, even though I felt intense deprivation I was unable to move my body away from him. We remained staring into each other's eyes. Our faces were so close that I could almost feel the heat of the breath coming out of his mouth.

Now I understand why no matter how many times I convince myself not to listen to what he says before, my heart is doing the opposite. Because the two of them give me a different feeling.

The fake Raze gives so much nervousness and fear to my heart. While the real Raze, he calms the nervousness I feel. He's right, I can't just trust what I see. I have to use my heart to know what and who is really true and being real to me. My chest throbbed even faster when I saw in my peripheral vision that it was as if we were in a hurricane. We spin and feel like we’re being taken somewhere else. Lucid dreaming really works when he's with me, when I'm with him and when we're together. That's why the lucid dream didn't work before because he wasn't the real Raze.

"Are you the one having lucid dreams?" he asked me but instead of speaking I just nodded. I feel like because our faces are so close, we're going to kiss when I speak. "Let me change the direction you want to go Zayn. I'll just show you something, someone's waiting for you. "he added. I frowned after he said that.

Let me change the direction you want to go Zayn.

Let me change the direction you want to go Zayn.

Let me change the direction you want to go Zayn.

That line echoed over and over in my ears. I don't understand why he said that. I also don't understand what he meant by that line.

But instead of asking, I just chose not to speak because I was more curious when he said that someone was waiting for me.

"Can you close your eyes?" he said as a reason for me to close my eyes too.

I felt my heart beat faster when I felt his slight touch on my waist causing a strange electricity to flow through my body.

I can't understand the strange effect of each of his gestures on me. He's making me crazy, s**t.

A few moments later I felt him slightly release me so I quickly opened my eyes. I first saw the look on his face looking in front of us. Surprisingly, I followed the direction he was looking.

Even it it's quite far and a bit dark I could see the person Raze was looking at. I could feel my tears falling when I finally recognize who it was. I covered my mouth with a loud sob.

I felt Raze's hand caressing my back to calm me down. I kept staring at her walking towards us. A woman at my age was holding her hand as if she was helping to her walk easily.

She's alive. I can't believe she's alive.