Hate And Desire

Tomorrow will be Jordan and Georgina's wedding. Every relatives and invited guests are already checked in in one of the finest resort in the country. It will be a Beach wedding and she's the maid of honor. What do they say about maid of honors? Well, according to minty.com her main responsibilities before the wedding are: plan the bridal shower and the bachelorette party, lead the bridesmaids to collectively assist the bride, help the bride with wedding planning and prepping, and provide her with an ear or shoulder when she needs it. She did none of those! Celestine wiped away the tears from her eyes while looking at the wall clock. It's already twelve midnight. Nagpapahinga na ang lahat para sa magaganap na kasal bukas. She's running out of time. Now is the time... She knocked at Jordan's suite. Bumukas ito sa pangatlong katok. Obviously, hindi din ito makatulog. He must be very excited for his wedding with Georgina, her older sister. "Sweetie...what is it?" He always use that endearment and it pained her even more. And right now, he looked so handsome and so ready for his wedding. Guilt suddenly consumed her, will she really ruin the happiness of this man that she have adored for the longest time? Will she really ruin the life of her beloved sister? But she's already gone under the power curse of the human race--selfishness. She loved Jordan and she vowed to be with him for the rest of her life. "Jordan, I want to show you my wedding gift..." He gave her an amused smile. "Can't wait for tomorrow sweetheart?" He pinched her nose "Alright, show me..." He always do that to her and he has got to stop seeing her like this. Like she is still a little girl. "I-It's inside Ate Georgina's suite..." His brows rose. "And why would you invite me to your sister's suite?" Natatawang tanong nito. "The tanders will not be happy for that, bukas na ang kasal namin ng ate mo at pagsasamahin mo kami sa gabi bago ang kasal?" He shook his head and gave her a naughty grin. "I am so tempted, sweetie..." She giggled. "Stop calling them tanders! My parents will soon be your in laws, so you must start calling them mommy and daddy!" She scolded. It is true that her parents will be his in laws not because of Georgina but because of her! He raised his hands on the air to surrender. "Okay, let's go to your sister's suite then." "So where's Georgina?" Tanong nito na inikot ang paningin sa buong silid nang makapasok na sila sa loob. She's so nervous but she made up her mind. Nothing can stop her plan tonight. "S-She's in the shower..." Tumalikod siya at tinungo ang isang closet. "Can I join her?" Pilyo nitong tanong. "Silly!" Binuksan niya ang drawer at inilabas ang isang maliit na box. Pumunta siya sa harap nito. "Here's my gift...open it." Binuksan nito ang box and he saw a men's unique titanium silver ring inside. He smiled at her ever so sweetly. "Wow!" He rasped in amazement. Trully appreciating her gift. "Thank you sweetheart! I like it very much..."  He hugged her. This is Jordan, he always appreciates anything that comes from her. Tears started to fall from her eyes while she's in the arms of the man she loved. Pinakawalan siya nito nang marinig nitong umiiyak siya. "Hey, hey, hey! Why are you crying?" She had to do this! It's now or never! She bravely tiptoed, cupped his face and kissed him on the lips! "Whew—!" Bagaman nagulat ito at mabilis nitong inilayo ang sarili sa kanya. "I love you Jordan! Please love me back!" She cried Jordan shook his head. He stared at her in disbelief. "For Pete's sake! Do you hear what you're saying?!" "Please don't marry ate Georgina! It will kill me Jordan...please please choose me instead...I can love you more than ate Georgina....I promise!" His hatred finally took over. Tumaas ang boses nito nang muling magsalita. "What the hell are you talking about?!Let's get out of here before anyone sees us!" Hinila siya nito palabas subalit bumangga sila sa kama. Kasama niya itong bumagsak sa kama kaya napadagan ito sa ibabaw niya. She dragged him nearer her body as he tried to pull her up from the bed pero sa halip ay nahaklit nito ang suot niyang nighties at natanggal iyon sa katawan niya. She intentionally wore a silk robe-liked nighties according to her plan tonight. He is surprise to see her naked underneath him.  She took the chance to scream as loud enough for everyone to hear. Agad na bumukas ang pintuan at pumasok ang mommy niyang si Tanya. Nanlaki ang mga mata nito sa nasaksihan.  Nasa ilalim ni Jordan ang walang saplot niyang anak. "Oh my God! what's happening here Jordan? Why is Celestine naked? Get off my daughter! What did you do?!" Agad na tumayo si Jordan at hinarap ang mommy niya. "Tita---I didn't---It's not what you think---" "Mommy! He r***d me!" Sigaw niya at humagulhol  ng iyak.  Galit binalingan siya ni Jordan. "You know that's not true!" "What's going on here?" Pumasok si Georgina sa silid kasunod ang daddy nilang si Armando. Sa likod ng mga ito ang ang mga magulang ni Jordan. Napasinghap si Georgie nang makitang duguan ang ibabang bahagi ng katawan ng kapatid. Their father angrily grab Jordan's shirt. "Anong ginawa mo sa anak ko ha?!" "He r***d me dad! He r***d me! He r***d me!" Patuloy siya sa paghagulhol.   "Hush baby..."  Her mom covered her naked body with her warm embrace.   "I didn't do anything! " Nilingon ni Jordan si Georgie sa kabila ng mahigpit na pagkakahawak ni Armando sa poloshit nito. "Georgie...you know I cannot do this--" Jordan uttered helplessly like he just cared for his fiancee's reaction to this. Namuo ang mga luha sa mga mata ni Georgina. "Jordan, this can't be true right?" Napapailing si Georgina. "Why is it even my sister?" "You just don't believe her Georgie. Kilala mo ako? Hindi ko magagawa iyon..." Armando's fist flied to Jordan's face. Sa lakas ng pagkakasuntok nito ay duguan ang mukhang bumagsak si Jordan sa sahig. Napatili si Georgina at agad inalalayan si Jordan. "Dad please!" "Are you telling me na nakuha pang magsinungaling ng anak ko?!"  Ang mga magulang ni Jordan ay agad pumunta sa likuran ni Armando upang awatin ito sa muling pagsugod sa lalake. Tumayo din si Tanya. Nilapitan si Jordan at malakas na sinampal ito sa pisngi. "You of all people? I entrusted my daughter to you because I thought you're seeing her as your little sister! How dare you ruin her future! At sa gabi pa bago ang araw ng kasal mo kay Georgina!" "Mom please stop!" Humahagulhol na ng iyak si Georgie. "Ikakasal na kami bukas Mommy! Please!" "You are NOT going to marry this asshole!!!" "Pare, mare, ilabas niyo na muna si Georgina at Celestine, ako na ang bahala sa anak ko." Matatag na sabi ng ama ni Jordan. "Napakalaking eskandalo nito sa pamilya natin pare." "I know. We'll find a way. Let me handle this. Jordan threw Celestine a look that could break a glass before she went out of that room. NAIWAN silang mag-iina sa loob ng silid. Georgina gave her a kind of look that she never believed her. Naniningkit ang mga mata nito habang nag-iiyak siya sa kandungan ng ina. "You accused my boyfriend of r**e? Akala mo paniniwalaan kita? Kilala ko si Jordan, hindi niya magagawa yang binibintang mo!! Magsabi ka ng totoo!" Nanggagalaiting sigaw nito sa kanya. "Georgina stop it!" Sigaw naman ng mommy nila. "No mom, you stop it! Stop tolerating that brat! For the longest time I tried to understand you and daddy, lahat ng gusto ng babaeng iyan binibigay ninyo! Even if it breaks me! Now, pati ba naman si Jordan? Ang taong mahal ko?! For Pete's sake, Ikakasal na kami bukas mommy!" "Nagsasabi ng totoo ang kapatid mo, we can look at the CCTV!" Her mother said confidently,  Galit na galit na lumabas si Georgina sa suite. "Yeah, believe that liar again! To hell with you all!" JORDAN wanted to laugh hard of what just happened. Celestine had just accused him of r**e? He had love her as his very own sister! Pampered her like a princess, spoiled her like a little kid and...now? That b***h! How could she ruin his life like this? And she even manage to put some chemical on her private part just to make it appear that he forced her! Itinapon niya sa ere ang papel na naglalaman ng complaint ni Celestine laban sa kanya, she added another statement that it was not the first he attempted to take advantage of her, that his first attempted r**e was in Batangas when they went swimming three months ago. And that he tried to force her twice! Such a liar! It is also possible na lahat ng mga sinabi nito sa kanya tungkol sa kaniyang ina ay kasinungaling din?! Nagtagis ang bagang niya. This is a nightmare! How could she do this to him? He tried everything to talk to Georgina pero hindi na niya matawagan ito. All their mediums of communication has been shut off! Malaking purwisyo ang hindi pagkakatuloy ng kanilang kasal. At most of all, his name was greatly damage. "Jordan, you have to marry Celestine...malaking eskandalo to sa pamilya nating pareho...Armando threatens to sue you! They have a strong evidence." "What evidence?" He asked menacingly. An evidence huh? What I great little liar "The CCTV captured the video of you trying to drag Celestine on the bed at hinubad mo ang suot niyang damit." Explained her mother. "That little b***h have planned this! I was trying to drag her out of the room pero sa kama siya bumagsak. I tried to pull her from the bed kaya nahila ko ang damit niya and surprisingly bigla na lang napunit...nagulat ako nang tumili na lang siya bigla...that's when her mother saw us on a very disturbing situation, then she suddenly accused me of forcing her. Why would I r**e her when I was about to marry her sister! dammit!" "Whatever you say Jordan, that video still show that you tried to r**e her." Wika ni Arnold. "See? She accused me of r**e but that video only shows that alleged attempt of r**e. Do we have blind policemen here? They could surely make multiple reviews on that video! Hindi ba nila nakita that she was not even wearing an underwear nang mahubad ang damit niya?! At wala pa akong ginagawa eh nagdugo na kaagad siya? Obviously, she planned for this! This is ridiculous...you cannot force me to marry someone I don't love...ikakasal na dapat kami ni Georgina kundi lang sa kagagawan ng babaeng yon!" "But Jordan, you knew how powerful Armando is...ipapakulong ka niya anak...." His mother is now crying and it hurts him like hell. He instantly judged his mom just because of Celestine's ugly lies. "What about Georgina? I'm sure she will be on my side." He said hopefully. But he already felt so nervous, Georgina haven't talk to him after what happened. "Georgina is no longer in the country Jordan..." His mom revealed. "What?!" Seriously? without even listening to him? Not even a word? Did she believe her sister against him? Of course, blood is thicker than water ... "Where did she go?" Pakiramdam niya ay gumuho ang mundo niya. "She went to Paris..." It feels like millions of spears stabbed his whole body.  Paris... Georgina was offered a modeling career in Paris, everything has been taken care of, the modelling company just waited for Georgina's 'go signal'. She rejected it because she's about to marry him. But now? How? Why so fast? A lot of questions played his mind. His whole being protested violently. Impossible! Jordan had never been this angry all his life. He hated Georgina for leaving him alone when he needed her the most. Itinapon lang nito basta ang anim na taon nilang relasyon dahil sa kasinungalingan ng kapatid nito? He wanted to kill Celestine for betraying him. Oh well, he could! He freakin' could! She will pay the damage she caused him. His nose flared and his eyes blazed with anger. Tumalikod siya at ikinuyom ang dalawang palad. "Tell Armando that I'll marry her b***h daughter as soon as possible!" Nagtatagis ang bagang niya sa galit. CELESTINE IS ONLY SIXTEEN YEARS OLD. But because of her father's connection, she got married to Jordan without any difficulty. Her mission has been fully accomplished. Her only problem was Jordan, alam niyang galit ito sa kanya but it's just easy to resolve...he love her like his own sister, it would be easier to make him fall inlove with her now that they're married.  Proof? he's romantically dancing with her in their wedding reception as of the moment. "Jordan..." She called. There was no answer. His arms still wrap around her waist while they're dancing slowly. "A-are you still mad at me?" "I want you to tell the truth to Georgina." Malamig nitong sabi. It hurts. Until now she's still thinking of her. "She's gone now Jordan...ako na ngayon ang asawa mo." "Did you plan this?" "Can you blame me? I hurt every time I see you with her. I don't want to feel that pain anymore. I have to have you...please Jordan, let's make this work, please forgive me. " "Selfish bitch." Mahina ngunit mapanganib nitong sabi She gasped at the cruelty of his words. He's always been so gentle with her. "And you expect that everything will be alright between us after what you did? You didn't just ruin my life, you also ruined my trust with my own mother, you lying b***h! Let us put it this way, sweetheart, the worst wound, the deadliest of them, isn't the one people see on the outside...it is the one that bleeds and suffers internally, and you know what can heal that broken piece? You know what can make it forgive? It is to turn back time, can you do that?" Niyuko siya nito.  She swallowed hard and meet the fire in his eyes that almost burn her. "I-I can not do that Jordan, it's impossible." "And now, you're asking for my forgiveness? That's the answer to your question. It's impossible! Alam mo ba kung ano ang gusto kong gawin sa'yo ngayon? I want to wring your neck until you run out of breath!" Namuo ang luha niya at nakita iyon ni Jordan. Dati kapag naiiyak na siya, lumalambot na ang puso nito. Jordan's younger sister died a long time ago kaya tinuring siya nitong tunay na kapatid, sa kanya nito ibinuhos ang pagmamahal dahil sa pangungulila nito sa kapatid, she enjoyed that attention before, only if she hadn't woke up one day realizing that she don't want to be treated like his sister, because she's falling inlove with him. "Don't use that old trick to me again, don't make me turn into being physical because, right now, I wanted so much to hurt you!" "Jordan..." She's already sobbing in the middle of the dance floor. "You can't hate me that much." "Yeah? Then look at this!" Hinaklit nito ang isa niyang braso habang itinataas nito ang nakakuyom na kamao. She was frightened to see how angry he was. He had turned into a different man. Will he really hit her? "Jordan!" Called Jordan's father immediately at agad inilayo si Jordan sa kanya. Napatingin sa kanila ang mga bisita. She felt so ashamed and humiliated. Everyone knows na napilitan lang magpakasal sa kanya ni Jordan. That's why everybody expected that they are not in good terms. Jordan walked out from the dance floor. His parents called him many times pero diri-diretso lang itong naglakad palabas. After that incident, he was nowhere to be found. He didn't show for almost a week causing so much trouble to everybody. Until she found out that Jordan was already in Paris. Probably looking for Georgina. AFTER TWO YEARS, Georgina came home for her 18th birthday celebration. She even hope that Jordan came home with her. She was dismayed when she brought another guy. "Wazzup sis? I have something for you." She stared at her sister. She's a picture of sophistication and elegance. She will never beat her beauty...and her place to Jordan's heart. "Hindi ka ba sinundan ni Jordan sa Paris?" Lakas loob niyang tanong She smiled at her and showed her a dress from her travelling bag...the dress was familiar...it was the one she used to model in Paris. "Look at this, ito ang bagay na isuot mo mamaya!" Masiglang sabi nito. Obviously, there's still that unbearable tension between them but Georgina managed to wiped it out. She stared at the dress and it's so beautiful. "I-I like it, pero may damit na'ko for the party, you know, mommy prepared for everything." She answered. "It's okay sis, you can use this as your second dress, please?" Pakiusap nito. Tumango na lang siya. What is a small request from her sister compared to the pain she caused her by stealing Jordan? "G-Georgie, I was asking if nagkita kayo ni Jordan? He went to Paris after our wedding..." Georgina sighed before she answered. "Yeah, but that was two years ago after your wedding right?Jordan is currently dating my fellow model." Napalunok si Celestine. That hurt even more. Mas matatanggap niya pa kung ang kapatid parin niya ang pinili nitong balikan dahil sa ayaw at sa gusto nito, magtatagpo parin ang landas nila. But he's dating another woman she didn't even know? "I'm sorry sis." Pinisil ni Georgina ang palad niya. "I tried to talk to him, you know, we're in good terms now, we have moved on and found another love, I advise him to make it right, he's married to you, if he wants out, he needs to be legally separated with you before dating another women, but he wouldn't listen." Hindi niya alam kung totoong nakikisimpatiya ba talaga sa kanya si Georgina at kung totoo nga bang magkaibigan na lang ang turingan ng dalawa...because she also saw the pain in her eyes when she told her that Jordan is dating another woman, they shared the same feelings! "Oh by the way this is Toren." Pakilala nito sa kasamang lalake. They guy was very handsome. "Nice to met you Celestine, I heard a lot about you." Nakangiting sabi ni Toren. She just gave him a faint smile. After her debut celebration, Georgina went back to Paris with her current boyfriend. She cried everynight at the thought na may iba ng dini-date si Jordan. And she cried for hurting her sister, nakita niya ang pait at sakit sa mga mata ni Georgina. Toren was not the only man she's currently dating, she kept on changing boyfriends after Jordan at alam niyang nagmamahalan parin ang dalawa at siya ang malaking tinik sa pagmamahalan ng mga ito. And yet her sister managed to be calm and nice to her despite of what happened. She came out with a strong decision. She will make it right for both of them. She will free Jordan from her selfish love so he will be happy with Georgina...for they really meant each other. She will move on and find true love in the arms of someone else.  She sadly open her drawer para ilabas mamahaling binder na regalo sa kanya noon ni Jordan. She starting writing...the more words she writes, more tears from falling... I know that no matter what I do You would never ever love me like the way I do So I should let you go And I should have a change of heart And teach myself to learn how to forget you And I know that someday There will be someone's right for me So today I'll change my world To make plans on my way You'll see I'll reach my dreams In the arms of someone else I would find someone who would be there to love me More than what my heart desires.. More than what my heart desires... Celestine felt as if her heart was bleeding while she's writing that song. It was full of emotion...an emotion coming from the very depth of her entire being...her wounded heart and soul...