Taming Inner Desires

PROLOGUE His hand was roaming my body discovering all my hidden pleasures, my moans were soft, as my eyes fluttered open a sharp pain pierced me and my moans turned into screams of agony,I begged him to stop but he kept dragging the blade up and down my body.I was trying to remember how I got here, what happened I realised a heavy fog clouded my mind and I couldn't even remember who I was,what the hell was all this about. "Hush my dear your howls fall on deaf ears no one can hear you and those who can won't help you. It's your own fault you're here, trusting me so easily, believing I would care for you. Oh how dumb humans are...." His laughter was sweet but dripping with venom, how had I thought this man would care for me, love me?? I was naive and stupid! "But why are you hurting me, I've never done anything wrong, never ill treated you?!" I sobbed and the tears fell on my open wounds, the salt burning deep. "True, you never did harm TO me, but your people harmed my loved one took her away from me forever , I only plan to return the favour dear." He smiled and I could see the hate in his eyes no doubt, I was going to die. PRESENT DAY: "almost thought we'd made it home but we don't know this place at all that's enough now dry your tears it's been a long eleven years....... FIRE! FIRE! FIRE!....Fire from the tongues of liars....." I sang along with flyleafs 'firefire' new horizons. It was fitting for my situation and how I was feeling. Once again I'm starting at a new school, my 8th now, and frankly I'm sick of it. My parents are divorced and I'm an only child, so what ever they did affected me and they didn't seem to care, probably because they thought I was okay with it. I was the silent type but that wasn't entirely my fault. My dad remarried after mom and he split, after that my mom went insane, sexually, she had more boyfriends then I had f*******: friends. So after an incident with her current boyfriend Brent Fardie I decided enough was enough and I confronted my mother, she obviously didn't believe me so I swore her, packed my entire life up (again) and told my dad to tell his wife I would be joining his little family. He had asked why and I had said he didn't need to know unless he didn't want his only daughter, he said he couldn't take me in because of his wife Claudia and his son Donovon. I had cursed him so badly he was shell shocked, both my parents tried to reason with me but I had hit 17 and found my voice and gave them a piece of my mind which had shocked them both into submission. I had decided to live with my only other choice, my grandfather, who lived all the way up in Pennsylvania. My parents agreed; reluctantly, and I told them I didn't care if they did or not. I felt abandoned and let down by my parents and had cried the whole drive to the airport. I looked all around me at the sleepy bodies. The air hostess came to me asking if I wanted anything all I did was smile and shake my head. few hours later I woke to the intercom, "please fasten your seatbelts we are about to land." I wiped the sleep out of my eyes and fastened my seatbelt. The wait was agonizing, I had to watch family pick up their children from holiday and other loved ones. My grandfather was running really late. I don't really remember my grandfather since the last time I saw him ,which was at the age of 6 and my parents were still loving and all that happy crap .I remember my grandfather being a big man, a mountain of hard muscles, but kind eyes they were always soft whenever he looked at me. I heard a horn and turned to see an old chevy truck pull up to the parking area. I stood still, glued to my spot with all my luggage. He climbed out the truck his big hands slamming the door of his truck closed, age had done nothing to his build he was still hard from physical labour but I could see heavy creases in his forehead, his warm honey coloured eyes were glowering at me. No softness there either. "Alina" he greeted. "Greg."I greeted back. He looked little upset I had called him by his name but said nothing. He grabbed my stuff and started hauling it onto the back of the truck.I helped with the smaller bags and went to climb in the front.I kept my backpack with me incase I needed my Ipod. Greg climbed in and started the engine. I could feel we weren't going to talk so I took out my Ipod and scrolled down to Crown the Empire-payphone. I closed my eyes and dozed off. I woke up to the sound of a car door being slammed closed and saw my grandad take my bags into his house, I didn't really remember the place but it obviously hasn't changed at all. A two story log house ;with a front porch with a rocking chair by the front window. The moss grew up the side of the house and looked like art that belonged there. I sighed. Looked up to the sky above me it was dark now and everything around me was turning black I shivered for an unknown reason and quickly rushed into the house where the shivering stopped. "You okay kiddo?"my grandad asked. "Yeah just.....not familiar with the scenery." "Are you hungry?" "Nah I'm good thanks I think I'm gonna go shower and go to bed I'm really tired." He nodded and I turned to leave. I took the stairs very slowly looking at the wolf and fishing paintings on the wall, the wolves interested me alot, it looked like they really were looking into your soul. Creepy. I got to my room which was at the end of the hallway. It had a double bed with leather trimmings the roof was slanted and a small window cut into it, I moved to the window that looked out into the back yard and the forest and mountain face in the distance, the view was breath taking, the moon shone off the snow capped mountain.I turned to the bare room and went to unpack, shower and get in bed. When my body hit the soft matress I was lights out before I could conjure up a dream. I woke up to soft rain pelting against the window.nI turned over and snuggled deeper into my bed but not before I heard an earth shattering scream. I jumped out of bed and ran to the window, it was too dark out to see anything so I turned and ran down stairs into the kitchen and out the back door. I stood in the rain trying to see if someone was maybe out there hurt. Lightning cracked near by and I jumped back. I found myself tripping over a log and landed solidly on my ass and bumped my head. I was definately going to have a bump. A faint sound made its way through the rain to my ears, a low growl almost like a Harley idling resignated through my body, I looked to see a dark shadow near the fringe of the woods I started screaming and then heard a gun being c****d. "ALINA! what are you doing out here? It's not safe quickly." I scrambled up and ran into the house soaking. "Ssorry I thought I hheard someone scream."I realised that I had maybe heard a tree scratch against the window or something. "Well you are not to leave this house at night unless I'm with or you have a gun understood?" "Why what's out there?" "How about a few wild bears, wolves, and other animals" I went to bed without another word, my granfather the type of man that put a stop to a conversation. But I felt like there was something there I could feel from a distance...It was strange almost like I knew what it was. Sleep came easy again as the warmth of my bed beckoned me in.