Taming Inner Desires

Chapter 7 Answers

You know the feeling you get when your a child and your parents carry you to bed if you've fallen asleep on the couch, the feeling of being weightless for those few minutes. Somehow I felt like that, just for much longer. I also had a feeling like coming home, a sense of wholeness but it was soon gone and so was my brightness feeling replaced by cool softness that seemed to envelope me. I forgot where I was- last I remembered- a blinding pain and then, oh god the things I saw. My eyes slowly opened and I came face to face with-

"Chad?" I was confused and tried sitting up but Chad pushed me down and as his hand touched my shoulder a electric pulse ran through me and I laid back in pleasure. I looked back up at Chad who was grinning like an i***t. Then my memory came rushing back and I looked around. I was in a bedroom, definitely not mine this one was way too big and stylish, it screamed money!

"Where am I?"I asked alarmed. Did Chad kidnap me!? Wow second day here and I'm in trouble, but surprisingly I wasn't afraid.

"You're at my house, in my bed." His grin grew when what he said had more than one meaning."Not like that Ha! If only."He winked but I looked away.

"If you've kidnapped me don't think I'll go down without a fight."I said as Chad began laughing. He tilted his head and it resignated from deep in his chest I took a second to admire it before I reacted.

Rolling to my left off the other side of the bed I pushed my self off the bed and sprinted. I was almost at the door when huge arms encircled me, my self defence classes kicked in.

Push ass out and hips pull forward bend over, yes! His grip slipped and I dropped to the floor. I turned and kicked out but he was faster than me but I knew where to hit. I kicked his shin and he stumbled I grabbed the door and ran. Where the hell was I!! I turned a few corners but got lost immediately.

"Alina!"Chad called and I hid in a room. It was dark so I stumbled around. I was about to turn on a light when his arms grabbed me but in a vice grip. I kicked and pushed but nothing helped, I was however turned on by his touch and the way our chests heaved, but I shook those thoughts off.

Chad took me back to his room and the threw me on the bed and I tried to roll again but his arms came down close next to my face and his legs on mine keeping me in place. I could feel his bulge hard on my thigh. I squirmed trying to move I didn't want to do things like this again -be humiliated -but I just wasn't afraid of Chad.

His face came close to mine and his eyes.....wait a minute.I had that sense of dejavu. I dreamt about this the other night only it was a wolf.

He was looking at me deep in my eyes as if trying to say something but we both kept quiet. I stretched my neck like in my dream and this time I actually wanted to kiss him. I closed my eyes when I was close and waited and on cue his lips connected with mine and I swear sparks burst, my body was alive!

I kissed him back and he so could kiss! I felt his hands go to my cheeks pulling me up. He flipped us over and I was on top. I was new to this....if only Chad knew he was my first real kiss.

His hands travelled down to my thighs where her gripped me hard against him. My breath came out like a soft moan. He reacted by growling and kissing my neck as soon as his lips touched there. Everything came back to me. Jumping from Killians car. Waking up white and fluffy, and a giant black wolf.

"STOP!" I pushed him back. He looked confused, and his eyes were now black orbs he was a wolf!

"Your a wolf!!"I pushed away from him suddenly afraid."You attacked me! Now you bring me here to try and....I dunno! You monster!"I started crying feeling my stiff shoulder and scabs.

I was a wolf too...what the hell was going on!!

"Alina you don't need to be afraid it's a natural thing, you've never been human you were born a wolf you only turn around the ages 16 to about 18. I brought you here because you were wolfing out at school.

When you turn the first few times you shouldn't be allowed out till the transformation is completed, but no one told you so that's why your scared, but please don't be. I mean you no harm."

He looked genuinely sincere.

"Tonighty you will want to shift again, it will hurt in the day for now, but we'll go later tonight. I want to help you. You're not in this alone I will explain everything if you'll let me?

We sat and I let him speak..

After he explained the whole inner wolf thing and me not being a monster unless I was a filthy rogue which is a wolf who abandoned his pack. I asked a lot of questions like diet and if I turn on full moon's, but Chad explained this wasn't teen wolf, or some lycan from underworld. I laughed too hard when he said that.

"Giant wolves really, we look much more natural than Hollywood's versions."He smiled. He also explained the wolf's roles exactly like in the wild there's and alpha male with his beta as second in command he also explained females with alpha blood usually mated with alpha males they were Luna's descendants from the moon godess. He also explained that the moon goddess gave wolves a second half of them selves that they imprint on, it's their mate and apparently it's a wolves one and only true love. I felt myself fade thinking no one would really mate with me people seemed to only love me for alittle while.

Chad looked at me in a way that made my stomach churn. He told me he was alpha and I immediately tried to bow or something and he just laughed at me. I felt my cheeks go red and his eyes had a certain shine to them. I kept blushing, wait a sec I knew this feeling...I was so crushing on my alpha and the guy I thought was an asshole just yesterday.

"Come let's go its' almost dark...."He took my hand and lead me out. We walked down and the lobby was-

"Omg this is your pack house!! This huge mansion?....You own it! wait that means Mr. Lock is one too!! I think I need to sit down before I pass out."My head was spinning and I felt like throwing up.

"I'm sorry, I don't mean to over whelm you Alina. That was never my intention."I got up slowly and we carried on through out the kitchen out the back door. It led out to a huge area obviously used to barbecue and swim and parties.

Behind it was a row of trees, that's where we went.

We walked alittle, side by side in silence but not the awkward type .

"Here's fine. Go behind the tree and strip down naked then-"

"Your kidding right? "I hoped he was, but he was all business.

"No, your going to tear your clothes if you don't strip. I promise I won't peak." I was about to say he was lying when he was already throwing down his shirt, looking at me with obvious lust in his eyes but when he moved to his pants I turned and walked behind the tree. I took my stockings off and my dress putting all my clothes neatly near the tree stump, standing in my underwear, this felt so strange. I almost put my clothes back on. I stripped down to the bareness of my body and waited. then the feeling of being constricted started again.

"What now?" I was nervous.

"Feel the small tingles in your body concentrate on it and it will turn into ripples then waves it will be painful but concentrate on the sensation of being free, that's your wolf asking you to let her out.

I closed my eyes and did as Chad advised. I felt the warm prickly feeling and concentrated on the heat of it. I could feel it rolling down my spine it came in waves and it pained a little then I felt a huge wave but I bit back a cry trying to be strong, not let the alpha down!

When the final wave rolled over me my bones started breaking and resetting. I closed my eyes and bit my lip to hold back the pain , fur sprouted and then that feeling of release washed over me and I felt my paws hit the ground, I took a huge whiff of air in and felt my lungs expand, I felt my muscles and I looked at my white fur which was strange since I had black hair.

"Finally free, feels good." A voice spoke and I jumped back looking around when no one was there I thought I was mad.

"Nope, not us love!! We are perfect. I'm your wolf we share a conscience ."

"My inner wolf!! I knew it!! and we are gorgeous."

"Good genes I guess."

I liked my inner wolf she was sassy and felt every part of me, like I've known her since birth! I walked around the tree to see a giant black wolf pacing, he turned when he heard me turn, as soon as I saw his black eyes my inner wolf shouted.

"MINE!!" I felt the need to feel his fur on my body so I walked up to him, his huge eyes following me, observing my strange behaviour. I rubbed my head into his neck and felt myself purr.

"He's our mate you know..."

"WHAT!"I was shell shocked.

I hardly understood half of what Chad had explained but the part about mates had stuck and he was my mate...and alpha wolf was my mate!! Wait I didn't pick him, but maybe that's why I didn't walk away, always thinking about him.

I felt a deep growl on my shoulder and I wasn't sure what the sound meant so I jumped back. Chad looked at me with a strange expression, coming closer slowly till he was right infront of me he bent down to be eye level with me.

Then suddenly he pounced on me shoving me onto my back, he was on top and looking like a dog who's tongue was out, almost like a smile. I pushed him with my paws, trying to talk but all that came out was like"mowhooowow"

Chad shook his head.

"I can talk to you silly! Haha, we are linked because I am alpha bit to be able to speak my pack you have to join."

"Sorry I didn't know, thank you for helping it wasn't as painful."

"Really? wow that's the fastest I've ever heard someone become accustomed to it, but you are the colour of an alphas bloodline so I'm confused. Still your beautiful and pure. An angel."

If I could blush I was probably beet red. I pushed at him again and my paws stayed where they were. Chad looked down at them and then at my eyes.

"You are...."

"I need to tell you - My wolf said - that your my ...uhm..."I struggled all of a sudden feeling self conscious.

"Did you finally feel it! Amazing! Yes we're mates I knew the first time I saw your wolf."

"Yes and attacked me!"I teased, my wolf kept sending me naughty thoughts about taking her mate but I shushed her.

"Chad...If I'm your mate, and since your an alpha does that mean you get more than one mate? Or is the bond not as strong with alphas?"

"What? No it's strongest with alphas like a 100 times stronger why??"

"Well you kinda have a girlfriend."

I saw his face drop, he moved away from me.I got up and followed.

"Whats the matter?....you said mates love each other at first site, do...you not want me?" I felt my heart constrict and my wolf growled at the news about her mate having another.

"What? I do want you! She means nothing to me I was only...with her because I was lonely but she means nothing your my everything." He walked up to me.

"Shift back its getting late I need to introduce you to the rest of our pack and denounce my ex and tell everyone your my mate and soon to be Luna!"

Chad told me that a Luna was second in command, aside from the Beta, the mate of an alpha was ranked above a Beta.

My heart skipped a beat at him calling me his.

We had dressed and I walked around the tree to find Chads back to me and the moon glinting off his bare back. I had the urge to feel his bare skin. My legs ached and I felt like being with him, I scolded myself.....I wasn't the slutty type or the flirty type.....and he was still with Kiara.

I silently crept over, I trailed my fingers down his back slowly and softly, he stiffened and I saw goose bumps where my fingers trailed, I heard him sigh and tilt his head back.

It happened in such a blur, I was trailing my fingers next I was on the soft grass on my back with Chad inches from my face. He had a naughty grin and I blushed. I slowly put my hands around his neck pulling him closer. His lips were a whisper away and I needed to feel them.

"Kiss me" I whispered. Chads eyes widened and I heard him growl, so sexy my wolf wanted to jump his bones right then.

He kissed me softly first then pulled away. "Will you Alina Harley be my girlfriend and my mate?" I was glad he was officially asking me. I answered by crashing up into his lips.

He laughed on my lips but kissed back so passionately. He was so gentle, but my wolf wanted him to be more manly about it I just ignored her.....I was in my own happy bliss.