Darkness in my mind

Chapter 3

Chapter 3 ~ The survival

I sat down there vividly holding my little baby sister while watching our mother's corpse laying down on the floor. The ambulance came out in no time and our mother was taken away to where only God knows and ever since that day henceforth we never saw her again...Our father was arrested and he spent 5years of his life in prison before he could finally get released. I never wished to move back with him because of the fear that he might kill me and my sister one day, just like he did to our mother but we had no choice than to choose to move back in with him after he gained custody because no one else was willing to help. It was a very bad decision to make wasn't it but we still had to live. I started living back with my dad and my sister was taken back to Nigeria, I would have love to go back there with her but I refuse to do so because Nigeria will only make things worse. I prefer living and struggling right here in Los Angeles than to go back to Nigeria where everything would get messed up. I have to live to revenge my mother death from my dad. I Started working per-timely everyday and night saving enough money to feed myself and pay my school fees because my dad doesn’t care about those things. He only cares about himself and his reputation. I kept on living like a slave in my father house and my hatred for my dad kept on growing more and more and still I never like people, I kept on living with the memories of the past and my major aim was to seek revenge from my father and to show him how it feels like to be treated like trash or like an animal, to achieve this I have decided to be a lawyer. One day while I was getting ready to go to my working place I heard an heavy knock on the door "That should be my dad I guessed, I ran up quickly to open the door "h-he-hey dad" I stammered "What took you so long to answer? he asked" And why is your door always locked? Is there someone in there? Can’t you talk? Or don't you have mouth? he questioned everything without even giving me a chance to speak but I managed to apologize quickly "I am very sorry dad, I promise It won't happen again" I muttered "Better" he said as he used his hand to push me aside as he entered saying "I know you ladies can be very cunning at times and I won't tolerate a daughter of mine seeing or talking to anyone else at this moment and not even a boy will I allow" he turned to face me, and you see that school and work you are still going to, We might even need to stop those with time “he said” As he struggles to sit down on a wooden white chair near my bed which was covered with so many stickers and quotes which almost Tripped him away as it was too small for him to sit on. Even I myself sit down on floor sometimes. He continued his speech telling me not to ever do or try whatever he doesn't like and what does not please him because when he finds out he is surely going to make me pay for it "he muttered" as his big eyes sighted a weird note book on my shelf with a big Text written on it "How my father killed my mum" he was shocked, he glanced at it for a while before moving close to check it out. I tried to stop him but it was already late, he threw my hands away as He went closer to check it. He took it immediately and read, I was breaking down already. He opened the first page and saw a lot things written on it and he flipped and flipped over again until he got to a point where he stopped "My dad is a very bad person and I am going to make him pay for it" he muttered, as he was very shocked and surprised at the same time, his eyes were already turning red, his breathe was already increasing, his blood pressure was already getting high and I could read in between the lines that he was ready to do anything he can to me but instead He controlled it. I was so damn scared and I was getting more nervous. Even though he could not read at all, he still manage to read and understand everything that was written on the book, immediately after he read it. He started turning back slowly and he shouted "Angel, what is the meaning of these rubbish?? he shouted" as I stood there looking down to the ground with tears running down to my cheeks, I couldn't utter a single word, I was so scared, I just stood there crying and regretting at the same time. He then moved closer to me and he gave me a harsh slap which was immediately used to reset my brain and even gave me a bad headache. He then said instantly "Don't you ever dare in your life cry or shed any stupid tears whenever am talking to you again, is that clear? And this rubbish you tried here today don't you ever do it again till you die, do you understand?? Because I hate weak people and your weakness will only let me hate you more I hope you understand?? We shall talk about this next time…

He turns to leave and said "One more thing before I forget, my sister is coming here tomorrow morning so you should be of your best behavior, He said as he took the book and turned to leave "Never let me repeat myself again, he said and he left the room, I moved down to the bed and sat down there as tears continue dropping out of my eyes, I cried and cried and cried uncontrollably blaming myself for what just happened, how could I have been so dumb, how could I have let my daddy find out what I was keeping, I kept on crying until I heard a knock again on the door "Who is that?? I stood up quickly to open the door while cleaning up my face so that I won't get into trouble again and guess who I found, it was our nanny grace.

Grace pov;

I feel really sorry for her, I heard everything that's going on with her from her father. He is such a nice man but I wonder why miss angel always have a problem with him. He does not even seems harsh so how could he have killed his own wife. I guess miss angel was just imagining things. Even though I am a new worker here, I think am starting to fall in love with my boss...

Angel pov; 

Once again, My naive Nanny who will always teach me how to speak, she claims and believe my daddy is a gentle man mean while she does not even know our story…

I just hope she is not starting to fall in love with my dad yet. God knows what she’s up to this time “Nanny grace broke the silence and said “Miss Angel, I got this for you” What is that?? Angel asked “It a necklace, with a pendant on it “she said” Where did you get that from?? Angel asked” I found it in the store while cleaning this morning and I thought you might need it "she said" while trying to act nice “Thank you, you can just put it on the shelf "I glanced" She kept it on the shelf and then turned to leave "One more thing" she uttered “I am so sorry to say this but your father said there's no school for the week" She said and left almost Immediately, she ran out quickly and closed the door "What on earth have gotten into her?? I said as I ran up to stop her while hearing the door lock sound but it was damn late, she was gone "Did my father also ask her to lock me in, or she did It out of her own accord" I knocked and knocked and knocked but no one came to rescue, I tried to open it up again but it wasn't working. What do I do now?? I thought for a seconds, I have to go to school tomorrow, I have to go to work right now, and I also have sell some flyers and lemonade in the evening, I still have so many things to do out there. I can't stay here and do nothing, I kept on thinking moving from one place to another. I went closer to the gift my Nanny brought in for me and I threw it into the trash bin “To hell with her and her gift” I said to myself. I gathered a lot of clothes and tie them together. I went by to my window, threw the cloth down like a rope to the other side of the window, making it so strong, tight and trusted and then I jumped off at Last, Thank God there was no iron steel on the window, at least I won't lose my job today and I will be able to pay some debts

The next day was Monday, Angel was still sleeping from the heavy night since she won't be able to go to school, She planned on sleeping so well and waking up late but then she heard a knock on the door, she didn't even bother to answer since the key was not even with her. She could hear the key being smashed and installed while someone was trying to open it. I quickly stood up to sit so as to avoid any form of unnecessary drama. I stood up and sat down on the bed while my dad came in "he shouted” Angel, are you just waking up?? Since morning?? Are you not a woman? aren’t you?? you will have to get your children ready for school and also feed your husband “I am very sorry dad “I muttered” Anyway, I only came here to ask you to get dressed very well and beautiful because Aunty Anne will be here soon, get ready and come outside “Okay dad, I said” as I quickly rushed to the bathroom to take my bath and brush my teeth. I came out in no minute and I was asked to wear the most beautiful cloth I have. At first I was so confused but then I did as I was told to and I was asked to come downstairs for breakfast. I was so happy, it have been long since I last had a normal food and am going to eat one today.