Invisible Alpha

12

Alex

A car, at this time of night, that's nothing good. "Lu, baby,  I have to go check on that." She's laying next to me, we've just gotten back from the showers. She doesn't like this one bit, I haven't been here for the last couple of days and my Luisa is rather clingy, I love that she needs me but this could be an attack or something worse. She pulls me to her naked body and firmly says, "No." I see she's upset she takes my hand puts it on her breast and says we havn't been intimate for 10 days, 10 days Alex! Send Mac, or Johnny or Eric himself... I don't care who. But you are staying right here, because you promised your wife a good fuck." She rolls on top of me kisses and me fiercely. She starts kissing my neck and I moan when she reaches the place where she marked me. Slowly she starts to go down my stomach planting kisses as she goes, until she reaches my member. She licks the head then puckers her lips and my c**k slips right into her mouth, she then starts sucking and moving her mouth up and down slowy taking me deeper and deeper until I can feel the back of her throat, I moan as she slips her fingers under my balls and start to gently massage them, she continues for several minutes and just when I feel my c****x coming on she pulls away and says, "Not yet ,mister Beta, we still have a night ahead of us."She climbs on top of me and I moan out, her tightness feels so good,  she starts riding me and soon climaxes saying into my ear,"That's one". I smile back up at her, "Why are we counting orgasms?" One for every night I couldn't have one.. Nine to go," She says and she almost looks as sly as a fox I through her down on the bed next to me "Challenge accepted",I say and kiss her fiercely. I'm lost in my mate and forget to mindlink anyone about the car I've heard.

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Alpha

"Eric, wake up something is wrong. I feel it something feels very wrong. Go check on her."  Waking from a very nice nap I look out of the cave, it's dark and I've shifted back into my human form. Letting Dameon take the reign for the whole day was good for him but after tearing a part a wild boar, a deer, mountain goat and an otter I thought it was enough blood for a day so I shifted back into me before he could find another animal to s*******r. 

"Dameon I need to clear my head I can't go to her like this. You know what I've done to her, I don't know how to fix it, how to make our love pure like it should be." I hear him howling and he's almost screaming in my head, "Eric listen to me, I feel it something is wrong I can't sense her anymore,  we have to go check on her NOW" . Dameon is never wrong about something like this. I run out of the cave where I was sleeping and shift mid-air, paws hitting the ground and sprinting towards the camp site. We're 30 minutes away, so I try to mindlink Alex. No,no,no he's blocked everyone off. I try to sense her but it's like Dameon said I can't feel her. I try Mac on the mindlink next , "Mac, are you awake?"  Nothing, I try again "MAC!" It takes a moment, "Alpha, I'm here," I sigh always the one I can count on, "Mac go check on Emmi, something is not right. Hurry!" Nothing, "Mac?" Dameon is pushing himself to get to our mate, I feel him using most of our energy. "Alpha I was there just a while ago she's upset and said that she's confused, she was screaming into her pillow."  My insides turn to know that I'm the cause of all her pain but Dameon is persistent that something is wrong. "Mac, I need you to check on her one more time." "Ofcourse Alpha, right away!"  Dameon is flying through the woods and I sit back letting him take over completely. The closer I get, I try to sense her and smell her but there's nothing there and I start to panic as Dameon howls out sounds of sorrow. "Alpha, uhm you are right, she is gone." Dameon howls out in pain again, "I'll be there in 10 minutes." I feel it now ,too. Something doesn't feel right. I'm trying to keep my mind clear and let Dameon take over until I arrive back at the camp.

Mac is pacing up and down when we get there,  I shift and I feel Dameon backing down, he's exhausted. "Mac, what do we know." He looks nervous, "You're not going like this Alpha," he points to the tent and I go in the only trace of her is the letter she's written me on a receipt. Her things are gone. I hang my head and sit on the bed, "How did she get off our land?" I ask Mac . He takes a few steps away from me as he feels my anger about to shoot out of my head. "She stole a car, Alpha," I sigh. "Leave now Mac." I'm furious how could they let her get away, how did they not notice that she was even leaving the land, how did not one of my men hear a car start. My claws and fangs come out and I rip the bed and pillows to pieces. Sending feathers flying everywhere. Minutes later I feel strangely calm and I'm sitting in my armchair, Alex comes in and Luisa can be smelled on him a mile away.  Without expression I ask "Luisa being needy again?" He almost seems ashamed but answered "Yeah, you know how she gets this time of year. The blood moon and the dance coming up, it kind of sends her into a s*x crazed phase." I nod and smile at him. He is deserving of a loving mate. My voice is shakey as I say, "She left me. She just left... after ... " Alex sees my sadness and comes closer. "There is no doubt in my mind that she'll return to you Eric, your pull was one of the strongest I've ever seen, she won't make it without you." His words are not empty but I don't believe that he thinks this to be true even for a second. She's human and she won't be affected by the pull and not being with her mate. She just feels drawn to me and might think we have some kind of chemistry, she knows about the mate pull but I know she can't feel it other than an attraction that's stronger than usual. "I've decided to reject her Alex, she's asked me to let her go and I can't keep her here against her will for the rest of her life, she'll never accept me. I've lived this long without a mate, I'll continue to be fine without one." Dameon howls and cries out in pain I can feel how my words have made him weak instantly. Alex seems surprised and takes a few seconds to think before he speaks, "Now, Eric don't act too quickly,  think it through ...there is a definite chance, I felt her need for you and even when you where in a deep sleep she stayed next to you, after all that you've done to her she was still intimate with you, in many ways and more than once. She just needs clarity and time, don't close the door on her yet. She misses her family, she'll come to her senses in one or two days." I let his words sink in, but I know that I felt her uncertainty and the way she was always torn in two, not knowing what to feel. It's hard to tell him this, so I won't. I don't have to. " I've made my decision, there is no other way, Seth and the way I treated her when I found her will always stand between us, Seth was right, our love can never be pure and without baggage, I'm letting her go, because she deserves a real and pure love." Alex tilts his head back eyes closed and says to the skies,"Don't put yourself and Dameon through that kind of thing." He looks down at me and continues, "It's a punishment that might lead to your death, you know how many have died after their mates have been killed or have died, and your pull is so strong,  it will make you very vulnerable, weak and even ill". What he's saying is all true but I can't hear it, I'll have to take it one step at a time when it comes. "Alex, there are things that I can't explain to you and that's all I'm going to say about that. I've made my decision and that's the end of it". He looks at me with sad eyes. "Just think about it for at least one more day before making a decision, Eric". I know he means well so I try to ignore him. "The car she took, I suppose it has a tracker?" He doesn't answer, "She can keep the car, but I want to know where she is. Give her a few days to bond with her family a then I'll send Luisa out there with a letter, that will explain the rejection of a mate. If this is going to work both of us need to reject each other." Alex shruggs,"I'll get right on it, the cars are all tracked and on the system. We should know the location in 30minutes or less." Alex is a very dedicated beta and takes his tasks very seriously but this has time, Emmi hasn't seen her family for weeks and I'd like to give her atleast a few days of normal before she has to deal with a rejection. Plus I know very well that Luisa is waiting for him. I look up at him, "Alex, go home to your Luisa, I'm sure she's waiting for you, probably pouting already. There's plenty of time tomorrow." Alex half smiles, his eyes become sad, "Tomorrow then, try to get some sleep, you look like shit." He jokes. I turn to look at the tent, feathers everywhere and groan. "Alex, I assume my villa was not destroyed in the attack?". "Yes the villa is still intact not a scratch on that baby, the south pack building took the biggest hit". I nod expecting as much. "I'll sleep in the villa tonight and I want you to round up the pregnant women of our pack, I heard have a few after the last moondance, they will stay in the villa until the builders are done. They shouldn't be out here in tents. How many pregnant women are among us?" Alex takes out his phone and makes a short phone call to the pack doctor. "There are 8 pregnant at the moment" he says and starts to tip away in his phone. "Tomorrow, Alex. I do need one more night alone, to gather myself. But first thing in the morning I want you to move them in, Mac Johnny and the others should help with the move. Then you can deal with the tracking and the car." He looks surprised that I'd put the pack first but I know that Emmi is where she wants to be. I follow Alex out of the tent and make my way to the pack buildings, stopping to look at the large buildings and my villa sitting beautifully on the side almost tucked into the mountain. The stone exterior giving it a European feel. I felt proud of the pack buildings that I build for my pack. It was like a diamond hidden away in the mountains.  The pack buildings are large and takes all 300+ of our pack members giving each family an apartment and singles a suite. There are ofcourse those that want to have more privacy and they live in farmstyle houses spread out on our land. My villa is build right next to the pack house where all the warriors live, seperated only by a stone wall. The villa is build to with stand attacks of any kind. The materials laced with irreversible  protective magic, back in the days when witches still helped other creatures. I did a trade to have it done. The villa has 10 bedrooms with ensuite bathrooms. A large kitchen and a dining room with a table that can sit 25 people easily. It includes a theatre room, entertainment room with pool table, tennis table and dart boards. On the roof there is a built in bar and swimming pool with a deck overlooking the mountains. I love my home and I'm always busy updating where ever I can. Entering my home I relaxed for the first time since I've woken. In the kitchen I take out a bottle of scotch and head with it to my study everything is dusty, it's apparent that no one has been here for weeks. I take a swig of the scotch and sit down at my desk. My heart is broken but I intend on sending Emmi a letter when Luisa goes to see her in a few days and the sooner I write it the better. I start tears already building in my eyes .

My dear Emmi, this is the most difficult thing I've ever had to do ....

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My head is throbbing, I feel sick. There's a loud bang on the door. "Eric, I'm coming in". It's Alex.  "Aargh" I turn and flop onto my stomach having the whole bottle of scotch alone last night might have been the wrong thing to do considering the situation I'm in right now. Alex opens the big dark wooden doors "Eric for fucksakes it smells like death in here" He covers his nose and walks to the windows behind me opening them. "What did you get up to last night?" He looks at me raising his eyebrows. "A little scotch goes a long way apparently" My voice is hoarse and I feel it. Alex is pissed he throughs his hands in the air "Eric, I'm not your babysitter and I'm not going to tell you what to do but drinking when you have a brain injury... is that wise?" I sigh as I try to sit up. "I know, I know ... It was a tough night... I felt her, she's sad and confused. It was all I could do to try and drown it all out. Alex drops his arms next to his sides and looks at me with a sad look on his face and I almost get ready for another fight for Emmi speech but he says,"Well, the pregnant women are on their way, you have to get a move on". As he leaves the room he says,"Leave the windows open and take a shower". I wanted to give him one more task and I call after him,"Alex wait, I need you to get a building team togehther. I sent out an email to the city to get the orginal plans for Emmi's house, we're going to rebuild it. I want them to start next Wednesday, please set up a meeting as soon as you have time." He doesn't look at me but nods and disappears. Moments later I hear the bell ring and get up as quick as my head allows to take a shower. 20 minutes later I'm standing in the entrace greeting pregnant women with their mates and some with children. 8 families in total, I'm happy now that I was so full of myself a 150 years ago that I build myself a mansion. Tell them to feel at home and to make use of anything they may need. They are very thankful. And soon it's chaos with suitcases and boxes being carried around. I slip away to my study and sit in the dark musky room. I'd never thought I would have to run away from my own people because I was jealous of them. I decide to jump back into work checking on the beer brewing business which was our main source of income first. The building teams and the leather production was lucrative but not as high. I do however need all three to maintain the income to take care of my people. It is stressful running a pack and three businesses. I already come across a few mistakes that Johnny has made in delivery costs. Writing them down I smell Luisa before she knocks on the study door. "Come in Luisa" my voice still hoarse . She opens the wooden doors and pretends to gag, "Alpha, you smell like you've robbed a liquor store," she just like Alex walks to the nearest window and opens it wide. I roll my eyes at her. "Well good morning to you, too Luisa". She shakes her head and I know from experience that she's about to lay one on me. "So look Alpha, I respect you and dare I say I've grown to love you over the years, I mean look at this taking the pregnant pack memebers into your home and wanting to rebuild Emmi's house. Now don't get me wrong you have your short comings and let's not get started with your anger issues but your heart has always been in the right place, you care for others ... you love your pack. You are not a bad person and the moongoddess has done wrong by you, keeping your mate from you for so long and then making her a human it's not fair and it upsets me." She looks to her feet asif she's gathering some kind of courage, "So just tell me why you are punishing yourself even more by not even trying with Emmi... Rejecting her right off the bat? Really? It's like you want to hurt and before you say a word Emmi is stronger than you think. She just needs someone to explain things to her, she's a curious girl and once she understands she just needs time". She just like Alex means well but I doubt that she really could feel how torn Emmi is and how this would drive her crazy. I have to say something to get her off my back. "Thank you, dear Luisa. I will keep it in mind " and I give her a wink. "Now, tell me Luisa did we track the car she took?" She looks almost annoyed that I had no reaction to her little speech. "Of course I've found it Alpha". Reaching into the back pocket of her jeans she produces a piece of paper, and holds it between her fingers, "It's been standing in the same place since she left here, looks like it's parked in a drive way". She walks to me and holds out the piece of paper with the address written on it. "No,no I don't want it,you keep it". She rolls her eyes at me and puts it back in her pocket. "We'll drive there in two days and I want you to go and speak to her. I'll be in the car a few streets away to speak to you through mindlink". She doesn't like this one bit. "Aplha, I don't want to get in the middle of your.." I interrupt her "Not up for discussion,Luisa" I say in my Alpha voice. She nods and leaves. It takes a long time for me to focus on the tasks at hand but I push through. There are final details I need to iron out and I'm happy for the distraction. Altough I've been at it none stop the whole day I still haven't even touched the pile of paper work that still waits for me.

The next two days go by in much the same way. Until it's time to finally go and say goodbye to Emmi. My heart has never been so heavy and I'm thankful that Luisa says nothing when I get in the car and we start the drive.

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Emmi

The ceiling has 5 black dust spots that's driving me insane. I'm laying in my old bedroom at my parent's house staring at it. I have not been able to really sleep since I got here. It migt be because my four smelly brothers insist on sleeping in my room for protection, no matter how much I've protested they are here. Two next to me in bed and two on an inflatable on the floor. Just like when I was little, they think they are protecting me but they are just keeping me from sleeping. It might also be because it feels like I'm incomplete, like I've cut off a limb. I'm pissed, I've never had sleeping problems, ever. I've been awake since 4.30 and now it's 6:00am. Time to go get coffee before they wake up and all hell breaks loose. I've slipped put of my bed while they are all sleeping more times than I could count. I smile as I close the door behind me and start down the hallway to the kitchen, passing the four empty rooms I roll my eyes. Maybe they'll let me sleep alone tonight. I'm a grown woman for goodness sake. The house is quiet and I love the feel of it. The coffee maker is old but it makes the best coffee I've ever tasted. Standing there I wonder how this day will turn out. The three days since I've been here have been very intense. Police officers and detectives, lab techs. It's been very hard for me to tell them the truth,  I mean first off they won't believe me "kidn*pped by the Aplha of a werewolf pack that believes I'm destined to be his forever mate but couldn't bond with me because he killed his brother (who knew I was his forever mate but had a relationship with me and tried to get me pregnant anyway) and then turned evil, keeping me locked up for weeks." Yeah no that's not something I can tell anybody. I've been lying my ass off and I think they know it. I should have thought of a good story before I came back. The coffee maker is done so I take out our big thermo coffee pot and fill it up, then I start the coffee maschine again. 7 people drink a lot of coffee in the morning. I pour myself a cup and look in the bread bin for muffins that my mom always hides there, bingo - carrot muffins. I snatch one and go sit on the back porch on the wooden swing. The house sits at the foot of the mountains making the view marvellous.  The backyard runs slightly down hill until shrubs and bushes start and a few miles further the mountains start. The grass is deliciously green and it's been raining for days,  it almost looks misty out. It's not quite light yet, and the birds are starting to stir. This porch with this view makes my coffee taste even better. I close my eyes and take in the smell, everything so fresh and it feels new, grass mixed with rain gives a perfect smell. The porch door opens and my mom is standing there, she looks sleepy and concerned. "I thought I smelled coffee," she sits next to me. Couldn't sleep again,baby?" I shake my head, "I know they mean well, and I love them for it but they smell so bad and they snore, all four of them. It's impossible to get any proper sleep, but what can I do, right? They love me."  My mom giggles,  "I'll talk go them Em." I blink my eyes at her and say, "there's coffee in the pot already" with a wide smile she gets up "Oh how I love having you home," and minutes later she's back with her own cup and muffin. My mom looks just like me long blonde hair, green eyes, small build and not very tall. She has naturally tanned skin and high cheeks bones. I look at her and think she looks older,worn out, she's gotten more wrinkels in the last few months, baggy eyes. She must have been very worried and my heart hurts at what my family was put through, feeling guilty that I enjoyed the last couple of days being there, being with Eric. We sit in silence for a while and then she gasps out and I jump a little thinking there's some sort of danger but she puts down her coffee and looks at my wrist, "Dear Lord Emmi, what happened to you?" Tears filling up her eyes. I stare at my wrist, there are marks from when I was tied to the bed a few weeks ago. I tried to break free from the ropes and they cut deep into my wrist and ankels. Eric said I was over reacting, that he just wanted to be close to me and wouldn't hurt me, but I fought I wanted to be untied. He didn't care and fell asleep right next to my screams. I move my feet under the swing quick so she doesn't see but her eyes are quick, "Emmi, my sweet baby," she says, her voice is sad and breaks, tears running down her face. I need to say something to make her feel better,"Mom," I take her hands in mine, "I know what all this looks like, but I promise you that apart from this," I hold up my hands, "I wasn't hurt in anyway, I promise you." She doesn't look convinced she takes my hands in hers again, "But why won't you tell us more then,Emmi, it doesn't make sense," she looks at me with a worrying look, "the police officer will be coming over again today, and they are bringing their therapist for a check up." I groan loudly, "Mom, I've told you countless times that I have my own therapist that I trust, I've made an appointment for next week," she's looking sidewides at the mountains, "I know baby, they just have procedures that they need to follow." I know she's lying, but I cannot blame them for wanting me to get help. In their minds I was taken and abused,  they probably think I'm lying to seem strong or they think I'm trying to hide any signs of trauma. I do need to talk about some of it but I could never tell any of them the truth. "When will they be here?" She looks at her watch, "8:30 am," she gets up and gestures for me to follow, "come on let's fix those snoring bears breakfast." An hour later we were sitting at the dining room table having pancakes chatting about what I'd missed, which wasn't really anything. After breakfast I shower and get ready quickly. They leave for work leaving mom and me to wait for the Police to come. I put on the coffee maker again and hear the bell ring, sighing I make way to the door, my eyes growing big , "Luisa?" This can't be good I take a step back questions flooding my head, "w-wha...", she cuts me off ,"Hello Emmi, relax I'm just here to talk, explain a few things. Is there somewhere we could talk?" I stare at her shocked not knowing what to say. My feelings split once more, delighted that they've come for me but scared shitless about how he could be if I go back. Luisa doesn't look happy to be here, "Emmi,did you hear me?" I blink oh s**t I see a police car parking down the street  "Uhm, Luisa right now is a terrible time, the cops are here to talk about my-my uhm, k********g," I open my eyes wide so she gets it "it'll take an hour or so I reckon." Luisa is visibly annoyed with this, she closes her eyes and then asks, "Where can I get decent coffee around here?" My mind is blank she's going to wait it out somewhere in town? That's very unlike her. She hates towns and coffeeshops and humans . "Fine, be a b***h. I'll find it on my own." She's gone before I have time to react. Minutes later two officers and two people with name tags 'Sarah and 'Jill' come up the stairs toward the front door where I'm watching Luisa get into a similar SUV that I stole to get home, the windows are tinted but I feel him there, he's in that car, I know it. I stare behind them and all four of them turn watching Luisa speed away around the corner. Officer Martin looks at me, alarmed and with urgency asks, "Emmi who was that?" My heart aches for Eric, why did he come with her? What did they want. Do they want to take me again? Finally I snap out of it, "Erm Hi-helloo officer Martin, that was Lu, an old friend of mine. She didn't get news of the situatuon and came by to see me" I try to look "normal" and force a smile. The other officer had a very sceptical look on his face, "We spoke to every one of your friends after you went missing, I've never seen that woman before,Emmi," great now what? Suddenly I'm enraged ... I just wanted them to drop this whole investigation I'm so tired of them asking so many questions. "She was with me in college and lived in my dorm, we've lost touch over the years and like I said she just came by to say hello, I told her that I've got other plans." Please come in, the coffee should be done any minute." I hate every second if this. All I want is to talk to Luisa to hear what she's doing here and what she has to say. They all sit down in our livingroom as I put cups and the coffee pot on a tray with some muffins and biscuits. On the way to the living room I hear them grilling my mom about Luisa. I put down the tray angrily. My mom looks at me with a warning look, "Emmi?" I can not contain my anger and frustration any longer, rubbing my temples I look at them, "Officers, I thank you for your diligent work and for not giving up on me, I feel safe knowing that you are out there protecting all of us. As you can imagine I've been through a lot and I'm focusing on me right now. I've told you all I could and I don't wish to have any more interviews," taking a deep breath I look at officer Martin, "I have a therapist that I've been working with for a few years, I've made weekly appointments with her and she's willing to work with the department." I give both the women a sympathetic look, "She's someone I know and trust, I feel comfortable sharing with her, I hope you understand." Officer Martin doesn't like this at all, he wants to take control of the situation,  force me to do what he thinks is best, but I won't have it. "Emmi," he says clearly pissed off now, "I'm trying to understand what happened to you and I'm trying to prevent it from happening again, not only to you, but to other girls,too. Refusing to talk about what happened will not help any of us, do you understand?" Before I can speak he adds "Let me level with you here, we know for a fact that you were taken, eye witnesses confirm your exact story, physical evidence shows that you fought and tried to escape, your family reports that you are without a doubt traumatised,  screaming or talking about being afraid in your sleep even. The only thing I do not for the life of me understand is why you don't want to cooperate in finding and punishing the person or people that did this to you?" My brothers are dead, how dare they, report on me like this. This is one big mess. I have to get this man to back off, "I've been asking myself, officer Martin, how to explain something that I don't understand. I am more confused than you are, that I can assure you. I've told you countless times in the last three days that I don't know why they took me, chose me and kept me only to let me go. Other than tying me to my bed at night I was never harmed. They withheld food when I acted out or screamed, too much. Other than that I can not tell you what happened, as I don't know." The woman named Sarah moves in her seat, "That's why we're here, the brain works in mysterious ways sometimes it wipes the memory to protect us from what has happened and we need certain tools to regain that memory, Emmi, we want to help you, there might be small details that could help us, it's so important for the investigation." They are determined and I feel bad for not being truthful, but I can't tell them. I sigh and look back to officer Martin, "I don't want to press charges and I don't want to be apart of the investigation, please don't come here again and don't bother my family,  they've been through enough and so have I." I get up and leave the room going straight to the porch swing out the back. I feel terrible, they are good cops trying to do their jobs and once again I'm torn in two and both sides are pulling at me furiously.  Minutes later my mom comes out with a cup of coffee, "Baby, if that's what you really want we'll leave it, it just seems like there should be justice, even if all they did was keep you in a room. You've lost a lot, you know." Finally someone heard me. "Thank you for listening mom. That is what I want. I'm going to drive out to my house and see what I can do to get onto my feet again. Maybe see if I can have a meeting with Mr. Holmes at the Uni, I have to work again at some point." This is cleary too much for her as she almost starts hyperventilating, "Oh, Emmi stop! You've been kidn*pped for godsakes and kept for three months! You've been back with us for barely 4days, how can you act as if nothing has happened?" I know where she's coming from and I see her logic, "Mom, calm down, when I said before that nothing bad happened to me I did not lie, I remember every single second of every day, it was almost like they kept me in that room to protect me, but I can't say that without looking like a crazy person. Now please, please I beg you can we drop this?" She looks at me curiously for a while and then says, "I will drop it if you promise to go see your therapist." I hug her and plant a kiss on her cheek, "Promise." I say.