Invisible Alpha

5

Emmi

" Mac! Wait up! So we're just going with all this? Not even going to figure out if he is lying?" They are all acting ridiculous, like he is some fallen hero when in fact, he is the devil of his own story and most of theirs. "Mac, Hellooo," I'm waving my hand infront of his face because he's staring into the distance. "Uhm, look Luna I know you don't understand this but I can feel that he is not lying." I feel like I can explode it's like they're blind. "Mac, I don't know what that means." My statement annoys him, he starts tapping his foot and looking past me. "Luna, there's just a way that it all works, we are connected ... all of us in the pack to our Aplha, sometimes if he let's us we can feel some of his emotions and I felt his confusion and how lost he is, weak,too." This pack thing will be the end of me. Question marks must be shooting out of my eyes because Mac takes a steps closer and says angrily, "Bottom line is I believe him, if you don't Luna you could always go to that appointment, those doctors that you've been trying get him to for the past few weeks,you've driven Alex mad, insisting day in and out that he sees a doctor in a hospital, you trust them, no? Then go and hear what they have to say, let them convince you that he is not lying. I know that he is telling the truth because I felt it in our connection." Note to self ask Luisa to explain this pack connection crap to me. Mac is seriously pissed at me for suggesting that the devil might lie? Oh hell no.."Mac, that's not...." before I can finish he interrupts me, "I'm sorry for being rude Luna, but this is not up for discussion anymore. Eric is my Alpha we have fought, lived and loved together for over one hundred years, I know when he is lying, which by the way is not something he does. He might be a vicious warrior and he does not show mercy to those who have wrongend him but a liar is not something he has ever been!" He turns to walk away and shouts over his shoulder. "The car will be leaving in a few minutes, I'd go if I were you." He does have a point, a real medical doctor could prove this? Right? I was so freaked out by Eric's changed behaviour in the tent just now that I just wanted to get out of there. He almost made me want to go with him. His voice flowed over my like silk, the way he said that he needed to be close to me made me feel warm all over, and his eyes were sensual locking with mine and neverlooking away, even when I looked away. He has never looked at me like that, I was drawn to him and had to fight my urges to go over and hug him.He looked so damn good in his jeans and collared t-shirt, why did he have to be so handsome? I think about Mac's words for a second, should I go?  Moments later I find myself at the top of the hill again just as he was leaving the tent. "Forget something?" He smelled so good fresh ocean breeze and musk. He had combed his hair back, put on  a very expensive looking gold watch and a pair of sunglasses that framed his face perfectly. It was hard for me to have these feelings of attraction for a man that I'm also very afraid of. "No, I've decided to come with you after all, if that's still on the table?" His smiled stretched so big and bright over his face that I could see his perfect white teeth for the first time. Smiling looked good him, he'd never done it in the months before, I know what his frown and anger looks like but sadly I've never had the chance to see him happy, or any other emotion for that matter. "You will always be welcome." Alex appears and says the car is ready, I go in the tent to give my hair a quick brush and to put on some lipbalm, as I go to follow them I see that Eric seems to have difficulty walking but Alex is there to help, holding his left arm and letting him rest every few steps. As we get in the back of the big black SUV Eric makes sure that I'm strapped into my seatbelt, bending over to check that I've actually buckled it, some things never change, he is a control freak, by nature. He says something to Alex about having privacy and a big black glass divider comes between Alex in the front and us in the back. I'm frightened, All the other times I've been alone with him was to sleep. "If you are unsure, I can lower it again?" Like he read my mind, I think for a short moment but for some reason I don't want to show him that I'm afraid and I shake my head no. "Just say the word, when ever you feel uncomfortable." It's hard for me to see him like this, I've only ever seen him being cold, hard and angry. He looks out the window and as if something occurs to him he turns to me and says, "This might be ... strange but I'd like to introduce myself," holding his hand toward me he says very soflty, "I'm Eric, Alpha of the Flowing River pack." he looks at me like he's meeting a rock star or a celebrity, holding my hand firm in his. His hand is soft and feels strong, I find myself liking his touch and not pulling away. My cheeks flush and I feel them burning up, the way he is speaking to me is almost sensual. I clear my throat and get myself together. "Did those two put you up to this?" They must have, we just spoke about no one in the pack knowing my name last night this can not be a coincidence. My words seem to upset him, it looks like I stabbed him, his soft and friendly face turning to confusion. His words coming out very softly, "I'm afraid I don't know what you mean?" Still holding my hand his eyes shift down to our hands and he puts his fingers through mine, his touch feels so good I can't pull away. Almost as if I'm in a trance I say,"Mac and Johnny did they tell you to introduce yourself to me?" Now he seems upset, he closes his eyes and sighs, letting go of my hand. I stare down at my empty fingers and something inside wants his hand back in mine. He turns away from me looking out the window, eyes still closed. And almost whispers into the window. "I simply wanted to introduce myself and get to know you, I know you are my mate but I know nothing about you so I thought the easiest place to start would be to know each others names." The way he said it made me feel bad instantly. I don't know what to say but memories of the day I was taken out of my home flush through my mind and I feel so much anger. Words leave my mouth before I can control them. "Look, Eric, this might be an easy reset for you but I assure you, your actions left a very deep and hurtful imprint on me. It's not as easy for me to treat you with kindness and respect as it is for your men." He makes a sound and runs his hand through his hair rubbing the top of his head slightly, but stays silent.  I don't know what's come over me and where my bravery comes from but I open my mouth and the raw emotions seem to fly out toward him, "The reason I brought up Mac and Johnny is because they only recently learned my name, yesterday to be specific and they are the first people in this pack.... including YOU to know what my name is, but I'm pretty sure you know that already.". A tear I didn't know was building rolls down my cheek and I stare out of my window, realising that I've no idea where I am. Wiping my tear away I feel his eyes burning on me and turn around. He is looking at me curiously now, " You mean to tell me that you've been living among my pack for weeks and weeks and not one of them knows your name?" I see him look surprised then an emotion that I've not seen on him before, embarrassed.  His staring makes me uncomfortable and I shake my head no. Finally I croak out, "You commanded them to call me Luna and that's what they did." He seems far away again and it's almost as if he is having a conversation with himself moving his lips slightly and making gestures with his head, I've seen it when the others do it they are not very good at hiding it, he must be talking to Alex in their mindlink. "If you're going to be talking about me at least do it so I can hear." He half grins at me. "You picked up that we were talking?" He thinks I'm some kind of moron. "Uhm yes, now what were you two talking about?" wagging my finger between him and the black glass divider. "I was asking him if what you were saying is true, and how it has come that the pack was never officially introduced to you." He seems genuine and that bothers me, like a wolf in sheeps clothing, I've to be careful trusting him now would be a mistake. "I see you trust me as little as I trust you." I manage to say and his answers with sadness, "That does seem to be the case my Luna." The words give me goosebumps it felt romantic and I felt emotion coming from every word he spoke. He took my hand in his once more and turned my face towards his with a finger, "I am at a horrible disadvantage, you know so much about me, it seems you've even gotten to know my bad side, but I know nothing about you. The last few weeks must have been like a nightmare... I don't know what happened to all of us but I will get my memory back and try to win your trust once more." He raises my hand and kisses it softly, making me feel warm and fuzzy inside. I'm disappointed in myself, how can I feel so drawn to him, so excited by his touch? Eric scoots closer to me on the backseat, our knees touching, he looks into my eyes and comes closer until his face is just inches from mine, my brain is telling me to push him away, but I don't move not an inch, I feel trapped under some spell. His breath smells sweet and I'm staring at his perfect lips. He comes closer still, being careful not to touch me."Let's try that again, I'm Eric,  Alpha of the Flowing River pack, it is so very nice to meet you."  All I can think of is his touch, he starts to put his fingers through mine and I answer with a smile, "Hello, Eric , I'm afraid you're going to have to work a little harder to learn my name, I'm not going to make it easy for you." I thought he would back down, feel rejected even but he stays right where he is and a mischievous smile creeps slowly over his mouth, "Oh,Luna I do love a challenge!" He presses his lips on mine, slowly and it's like fireworks. Our first kiss, his tongue pressing my mouth open and dancing with mine. All the while never letting go of my hand. He presses me back into my seat still kissing me and strokes my cheek with his other hand slowly letting his fingers trace from my cheek to my neck and down to my n****e, he rubs in circular motions giving me goosebumps and making both my n*****s go hard. I give in to him completely and kiss him back, a rush of lust coming over me. He traces his fingers down my stomach and down to my knee, very slowly his fingers trace up until his hand rests between my legs. He kisses me with more passion and then two fingers press down through my shorts on my sweet spot, I moan out in pleasure and I can feel him smiling. I can feel my underwear completely soaked, he lets go of the hand that he was holding to unbotton my shorts and when he is done he pulls my underwear and shorts down in one pull so that they sit on my knees. His fingers go up und down exploring every part between my legs and finally he touches the spot that has been waiting to be caressed, I let out a moan and feel him move in circular motions with his thumb, suddenly I feel two fingers entering me and arch my back, giving into his touch completely now. And releasing yet another moan. He presses into me even deeper and I feel that I'm not far from c****x, my body moving in sync with his movements. He keeps kissing me passionately looking into my eyes like he's ready devour me any moment. He presses even deeper speeding up his movements now and I feel myself give into pleasure. My c****x is intense and lasts longer than I'm used to, I feel pleasure eveywhere from my head to toes I moan loudly as I feel the waves go through me. He stops kissing me but never takes his eyes off mine, slowy he removes his hand from me, wipes it clean on my underwear and pulls both underwear and shorts up in one movement ,while I sit there panthing and catching my breath, still very unsure of what just happened. I never pulled away or said no, because I wanted him , I needed him. He comes close plants a small kiss on my mouth and says. "Does that earn me the right to know my Luna's name?" He is very chuffed with himself. I'm still catching my breath. Great now he has the upper hand. What is wrong with me letting him finger me in the first 2 hours after he's woken up out if a coma.  Wonderful way to show him boundaries and sending him and myself serious mixed signals. I close my eyes and say in between breaths. "Fine, this time you win. My name is Emmi, but that's all you get." He chuckles, "Emmi, what a pleasure it is to meet you, may I say you are beautiful and so is your name." He kisses me again and says, "Luckily for me there's a whole car ride home to find out more about my secretive Luna." and then he winks,crap I had forgotten that we were in a car,  Alex must have heard the whole thing. Just great! Note to self, sit in the front passenger seat on the way back! He seems to notice my embarrassment because he taps on the black glass and says, "Sound proof, don't worry. He didn't hear a thing," my cheeks flush again and I sit up. He sits back in his seat and starts to look for something in the side of his door, he pulls out wet wipes and hand sanitizer. "Not that I want to remove your smell from me ever, but I don't want it to be on anybody else either." I get a warm feeling when he says that. What is happening to me? Why am I not fighting any of this? I feel like my s****l side has let me down.  It must be because I've been s*x-deprived for over three months. When I don't reply he stops cleaning his hands, "Unless you want others to smell you on me?" He really has some weird issues. "Eric please, clean your hands. We'll be in a doctor's office and you'll probably be scanned and who knows what else." He holds them up, "Consider them cleaned" and gives me a smile and a wink. I decide to clear the air with him in an effort to regain some high ground. "Listen, Eric that....that can't happen again. I don't know what came over me but it's better if we stay platonic until...." His lips are crushing mine and here I am granting access and giving in to him. Again. "I think you'll find that, that will be happening very often my Emmi, that and much more." His voice is sensual and soft like he's trying to mesmerize me. I try to speak but he's kissing me again and when he pulls away I'm disappointed in myself again. How can he have this effect on me, it's impossible. Looking into my eyes his hands on my cheeks he says, this is the very beginning do yourself a favour and enjoy it instead of fighting against it. The mate pull is strong and we can't do anything to stop fate, Luna." I raise an eyebrow, but I've got nothing to say. First I need to find a way to be strong and resist him. He burries his nose in my neck and sniffs,then looks at me again,"You must be the most devine creature I've ever met," aaand I'm wet, again. Just fab. So much for "resisting" him! He checks his watch nods and says,"Emmi, Alex just informed me that we are about 40minutes away. I'm going to close my eyes until we get there, I suddenly feel very tired!" Of course he is tired he JUST got out of a coma a few hours ago and what is the first thing he does? Preforms s****l acts on someone he claims he's never met before. Men. "I think I'll take a little nap myself" I say. He smiles his perfect smile and opens his arm for me to come to him. "I think a little distance..." but he's pulling me to him and and yet again I can't fight the feeling of wanting to go into his embrace. He puts my head on his chest, lays back and puts his arm around my shoulder his hand falling on my lap. "Close your eyes, my Luna. I'll wake you when we arrive." All I can do is obey him for some reason. My eyes close as I try to drift away to the sound of his heart beating and I swear I can feel him smile. I try to comprehend what just happened, what's still happening. Have I lost the plot? Spending time with all these people must be rubbing off on me. My heart is pounding in my chest, It's like I'm split in two, hating him but needing him just as much.