Invisible Alpha

7

Beta Alex

I'm about to get up and get bad hospital coffee when she returns, "He can be such an ass," she spits and falls down in the chair next to me. Although I do agree with her, she has to learn to watch her mouth. She could bring out his anger again and we don't want that. "Luna, I know you must feel frustrated but he is still our Alpha, yours too, atleast for the time being... you need to, no have to show him respect. It is our way, even if you secretly hate him, which you have every right to do. Calling him an ass in a public place will aggravate him. Please, hold your tongue." She sighs and sits up a bit. " I guess I just don't get this pack connection,  all of you should be feeling just as I am, angry as hell! But you cried when he woke up, you acted as if he was some fallen hero." This is getting on my nerves, since we let her take on her Luna role, that Eric basically forced on us before he fell into a coma she has caused problems for me. Sure she she helped to sort out a long standing feud, that really helped and she has a way with the people, they look up to her and follow her the way they would a Luna born into the role, but the problem was she was outspoken and often disrespectful, refusing to learn her place. She has a foul mouth and swears often, not knowing what effect it can have on our pack. This was not the way we did things. The biggest problem that she's caused was between my men.  She seems to flirt with them unknowingly, I have had to break up fights between them, thinking one slept with the other's wife only to find out they were going at it hammer and tongs because she smiled sweetly at one but touched another and the jealousy drove them mad. Almost every male was attracted to her and they become play dough in her hands. The worst being Mac and Johnny. She has contact with them often, they've been guarding her day and night since Eric brought her here. They've been close to her and her scent for months now, and even though she is not one of their mates the lust that they are feeling for her is growing daily. That was the main reason I disobeyed Eric's direct oders and let her get out of the tent to help with the physical work, I needed her to get away from those two. The constant contact was not good on them, and I don't think she even knows what effect she has had on them. Johnny took it well and seems to have found another young plaything, but Mac is still very much into her,  I can sense it with every interaction they have. Why must my pack have so many unmated warriors? This problem would of course disappear if Eric marked her, it's just because they can sense her being a free unattached woman that they even feel the right to be attracted to her. Women who have found their mates and are marked and mated don't have that much appeal to unmated wolves. I doubt it very highly that she will him mark her or mate with her, he does carry a lot of hate for him. Her goal was to get away from here and go back home,  what's left of it anyway. She is playing her part hoping he'll gain his memory back and honour his promise. This is going to end badly. I'm not in the mood to play teacher with her today, she refuses to try to understand our way of living and it's draining explaining something that is just felt and makes no sense to a person who striclty seems to believe in logic .. I sigh and try to tell her again,"I've tried to explain as best I can Luna, we are connected we are passionate and loyal and we believe in our Alpha, we are wired this way. To be connected to his feelings and he to ours, we cried because we could feel how lost he felt and we were happy that he was strong enough to survive that fall, it proves that he is infact a true Alpha." She's just staring into the distance and I hope she's listened to what I've said but I'm over it. I get up and ask "Coffee?" She shakes her head no and I leave. When I return I find her crying. This day is too long. I need Luisa, I need her to calm me down so that I can be patient with this human that I'm slowly starting to dislike. "Luna, why the tears?" I say hoping that it come out some what sincere. Sniffing she says,"Alex, I don't think you realise how hard this has been. I've been to hell and back. I'm literally just putting one foot infront of the other. All of this is not normal , I'm an easy going plain girl I had a cat, lived in a tiny beach house, I had a herb garden and painted for fun. I miss my life, I miss not being terrified, not having to learn new life values and "ways of life" but just being, being me I guess." She starts crying again and now I'm more annoyed than ever. She only sees her own needs and can't look at the big picture, she can't see the blessing she's been given to be a Luna to a loyal pack that loves and admires her. Eric hurt her too much for her to see beyond any of it. Luisa is going to have to talk to her. Again. I can't seem to muster up the energy right now.  "Luna I'm..." The doctor arrives and I'm grateful. "Alex, we're done. Listen the results are not what we've hoped for, she should be in there to calm him, he's already worked up from waiting." I wouldn't dream of leaving her out here, Eric would not allow it anyway. "Luna, shall we ?" She jumps up hopeful, and I know the bad news whatever it is, he is about to give us will hit both of them hard. Nervously I enter his office and I pick up on Eric's mood, he is annoyed and looks to be in a mood,  until he lays eyes on her, he smiles almost starry eyed and holds a hand out to her he wants her to sit on his lap. Amazing that she has this effect on him, in seconds he's transformed into a 'nice guy' I'm shocked and I've never seen him smile this much in one day.  I wonder why their mate pull didn't work like this before. She declines his offer of sitting on his lap and takes the seat next to him, he doesn't let go of her hand and as soon as she's seated he pulls the chair closer and puts an arm around her shoulders. She blushes but does not push him away, strange.. she just cried out there basically telling me how she wants her old life back and yet here she is being submissive to him. The mate pull must be working in his favour. I take the far left seat and and wish that Luisa could be here, the doctors face is nothing other than a picture of worry and fear, and I feel for my old friend. He has been through a lot the last few years and it shows. Clutching papers he looks at us and I don't feel hopeful.

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Emmi

I wait for him to speak, trying to ignore Eric next to me. He's acting like we're a full on couple and it's getting to me. My emotions are a ball of confusion. I can't seem to push him away or deny him to touch or even kiss me. This is worrying. Did he brain wash me while I was sleeping? Emmi stop! He was in a semi-coma or deep sleep if you wanna name it correctly in pack talk. I even ENJOYED the little slap on the ass earlier, which is something I hate, usually.  Finally he gets the courage to speak. "Alpha I'm going to get straight to the point," he pulls out some scans of his brain and points to a black dot. "Do you see this small part here? This part of the brain is responsible for memory,  long and short term. He points to the parts. As you can see both of  them are a different color than the rest of your brain. That indicates that you've injured your brain.. especially that part. Meaning you have memory loss, other wise known as amnesia." The good news here is that you've only lost the three months. In most cases with an injury of this kind they loose memory of all abilities. They have to learn to walk and eat and in some cases even talk again. What I'm trying to say is that you should focus on that, that you've come off this lucky. Your injuries were fatal and the only reason you lived is probably because of your wolf blood. All bones in your body were broken and most of them are healed. Organs that were ripped by the fall have also recovered and your head injuries seem to have cured it self, too". I hear myself speak and don't know why I take it upon myself to do so, "So, what's the bad news that's got you looking like that?" Eric squeezes my shoulder and pulls me closer so that my ear is close to his mouth, "Emmi, please let me handle this I will tell you when I need your input." his words are not mean or angry but a clear warning. I understand his reaction, I regretted my words the second they were out. "Sorry" I say embarrassed but he smiles and winks. He turns back to the doctor and gives me a quick peck on the lips. Making me blush even more now. He speaks as if not a care in the world "Doctor, all of this is good news, why on earth do you look so worried?" Beads of sweat drip down his forehead now, "Well, the thing is your injury and with my experience in wolves, is one that could always reoccur, and there is nothing we do to treat it." A long pause, then Eric speaks, "What does that mean, reoccur"? His voice is strong and commanding, I have learned that it is called an Alpha command,  when he orders people in this voice they have to obey, "It means Alpha Eric, that you might be fine one day but wake up the next with no memory of the days that's passed. Essentialy waking up with the same last  memory you've woken to today," he looks around the room as if to plan his escape and then adds, "It could also be that you loose even that memory and that you loose more of your memory..... Nothing is sure it's just a possibility". Eric looks annoyed but not enraged. "So tomorrow I might wake up and not know who I am, what,I am and I'll never have those memories again?" The doctor gulps and looks at Alex and me then at Eric and says "Yes, Alpha. All I can do for you in a form of treatment is to help prepare you for if that does happen at all. We have excellent people here who can help in form of therapy." This is not what I was hoping for, not what any of us hoped for. So this is real. He has no idea of all he has done. The way he is acting is on instinct. Wonder-f*****g-full. I need a new plan. Eric speaks now clearly angry. "So the chances of regaining any memory are?"

The doctor is now basically wet, sweat dripping, he is scared I look to my side to Eric's fangs out his eyes pitch black and veins popping up in his face and neck, I jump instinctively,  I've seen this face and the man that's behind it before, I try to move out of his embrace but he won't let me. Alex stares at me eyes big like he's expecting me to do something, I don't know what he wants from me, I want to run, he puts his hand on his neck and makes a sniffing motion then points to Eric. Oh yes, right I'm supposed to calm him down with my smell or something,  what if he bites me? Alex rolls his eyes at me and as if acting on instinct I move closer to Eric, lifting my chin and almost forcefully put his angry face to my neck. "Eric, c-calm down please, he is just telling us what he has found and he is not responsible for any of this." I pause wanting to add you are but I don't. I'm still shaking and wonder if he notices. He closes his eyes takes me in his arms while rubbing his nose on my neck and within seconds the fangs,veins and black eyes disappear. All three of us give a sigh of relief and the doctor wipes his head with a towel. "Thank you, my Luna." he whispers into my neck and then lets go. "My apologies doctor, of course I know that you are only the messenger of my bad news," he seems to still be biting back some anger. The doctor nervously dares to speak again, "I do have one mor..." Eric interrupts him abruptly holding a finger in the air,"Just a second,  before you continue" he turns to me his hands on my shoulders, "Emmi, my Luna,  stop shaking please I would never hurt you, it's hard for me to hear anything else than the beating of your heart, I sense your fear." He catches me off guard and I don't know what I can say that won't fuel his anger again. Fear is not an emotion that I can influence. His eyes are on me almost desperate now but I have nothing to say other than that I am scared of this side of him. The doctor seems to have grown a pair because I interrupts us coming to my rescue, "Alpha, the next thing that I have to share with you is better said in privacy, I..I don't know if this information is to be discussed with anyone other than just you." I thought Eric would pop a fuse in his head, he smelled my neck again and swiftly looked to Alex, "Please take her to get some food, stay close,  I'll be right out." We get up and I'm so glad to be free from his hold, not because I don't want to feel his touch but because I didn't know how to tell him that I was infact scared to death of this side of him. Alex obeys showing me out of the office. Once outside he says, "We'll get food after, ok. I don't trust the doctor,  he was acting very odd." I sit down in defeat, I am starving, it's been a long day, I sit down in the chairs next to the door and wait as Alex stands up straight and I see him looking very tense. How did this become my life?

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Alpha

"So, Doctor out with it. What is so sensitive that only I should hear?" I smell fear on him. He is gathering the courage to speak and I let him. "Well, while you were in the last scan something strange happened, my team noticed that well at first I thought the machine was broken but everytime you answered certain questions you uhm seemed to ... to disappear and then appear again." He's looking at me now like I'm some kind of creature. s**t. Not.good. "I've never seen anything like it,  I've managed to convince my team that it was just a glitch and that the is machine broken but I've seen it with my own eyes. Your body disappeared just like that!" I rub my chin and feel angry, mostly at myself,  I didn't even notice that it was happening. I've been so pre-occupied with Emmi that she's all that's been on my mind. Rubbing my chin I don't know what to say to this man. "D-don't kill me, I'm helping my father take care of our pack, he needs me and my wife is pregnant with our first pup, please have mercy. I don't know what you are but don't don't kill me." My mind is spinning. Finally I come to a conclusion, "I'm going to need you to be calm. Collect yourself." He nods but I see he is shitting himself.  "I've been able to do that for a long time.  It happens when my emotions are too much to handle. I didn't know it was happening, the confusion of all of this must have triggered it unknowing to me. Doctor you are the first person to know my secret. I havn't told a single soul." I watch as his eyes grow big and then he starts to sweat again. "No,no,no. I,I ... I can't know secrets like this about the most vicious Alpha ever known." Well atleast he has some respect for me. "Ok. STOP. Let's get one thing straight. I'm not going to kill you. But I do expect you to keep this secret, and I know how these things work. The factory, the one that burned down it was owned by your pack? You produced some sort of shoes, right?" He reminds me of a scared little rat , I find being in his presence more than frustrating.  "Well? ". "Y-yes, we produced for two big brands, mainly sport shoes, but what does that have to do with.." I have to cut him off and get to the point I'm tired and need to rest. "Let's say I finance the recovery of your factory and put it in a condition that will assure revenue,  will that be enough for you to keep my secret?" He is staring at me now with big, unbelieving eyes. "I -I don't know what to say" I get up to go "Have your father contact me or Alex and make sure to tell him it is not a loan, see it as our kind helping each other" He get's up and shakes his head, comes over from behind his desk and gives me his sweaty hand to shake, I hesitate but know I have to. I look him square in the eyes, "Remember that I do expect you to take this to your grave." Squeezing his hand more than firmly, just to make sure the message hits home. He nods his head nervously, "Yes, Alpha ofcourse." I look at him once more and wonder if he can be trusted. Just for good measure I add, "If I find that you can not be trusted, there will be hell to pay, just to be clear." He is terrified and keeps nodding his head, how this little man is a wolf is beyond me, wolves are usually strong, big and fearless."Good, so we have an understanding then, you keep my secret and I help your pack out of financal ruin." With that I leave the office to find Alex right outside the door mouth gaping open shock on his face. Ah great. This is turning into a day.