In Too Deep

Let the River Run.

Tara POV

I decided to head back inside with Bishop and Liz on my tail. The silence from them leads me to believe they are expecting me to come inside and black out on Nick, but I decided that I needed to talk to Nick and get a clear understanding of what's going on inside his head, and as Liz had made me realize it's been a long time since we have seen each other and feelings do re-surface, especially ones we haven't really dealt with. I enter the room to see a sad looking Nick and TJ eyeing me carefully. I take my seat and Liz and Bishop do the same. I looked at Nick and took some deep breaths. "We really need to talk".

Nick nodded in response. TJ asks me if we need someone to mediate, and I declined since this started with me and him, we need to talk without an audience and get some clarity and really get everything out in the open. It's the only way we can fix this and salvage this friendship.

I took his hand and lead the way into the spare bedroom to my right. We both sit on the edge of the bed and I steal a glance at him. He looks so sad and deep in thought and I can't help but feel my heart melt. I clear my throat and Nick looks up at me. I start by looking him in the eyes and saying "Nick, I'm not mad anymore. Honestly, I'm just confused and disappointed that you decided not to tell me the truth. I mean I would never have gone down this road with you had I known. I really don't understand why you decided not to tell me about her. To be clear, I really can't imagine how you must feel either. Nick we have a lot of history between the two of us and it feels like there is still unfinished business. There is a lot of s****l tension, and clearly, there are things we both feel for one another. This is complicated and messy; like when I saw you Nick, a lot of old feelings I thought were gone came rushing back. Honestly, I wanted you to kiss me more than I care to admit. You're not going to like hearing this, but when I saw you It was like I was looking at Amanda all over again. It made me feel like my heart was breaking. I felt happy, I felt so many emotions I can hardly explain half of them, it was overwhelming, but in a good way.

Nick interrupts me by saying '' Tara, I never meant to keep it from you. It's just when i saw you my brain went blank other than the thought of wanting to kiss you. I feel you, when you say you felt a lot of things rushing through you because I did too. This is a situation I didn't mean to create, but Tara, you have to understand that it wasn't intentional to keep information from you and I never, I mean NEVER meant to hurt you. I truly just followed my heart at the moment and I know I definitely screwed things up, but you can't tell me you didn't feel the spark when our lips touched, the way the hairs on your arms stood up and the racing heart. The un-describable desire I felt in that moment for you was undeniable; quite frankly, it still is! I'm gonna just say it, I don't regret it, I regret not giving you the whole truth but Tara, there is still something here between us and I know it's complicated and murky here because of the third party in this situation, but I want you, and I'm going to go out of a limb here and say you want me too.

I need to know if there is something still here for us, a future, or if it's really just feelings of lust, but I feel in my heart there is so much more than lust and I can understand if you're unwilling to oblige and engage in this with me. I promise I'll let it go if you say not, but Tara, I want you. I want to give this a shot and figure it out. I need some time to figure things out with her, how I'm going to tell her and how I'm going to gently let her down. Things with her haven't been great for a while, and she said many times things are different and shes right they are. But I mean, Tara, look at me and tell me you don't feel it. To me, it feels like old times before things went wrong between us. Please tell me you want me in the same way I want you!

I looked down at my hands that were turning white from the way I had been squeezing them. I stood up and stood in front of him. I looked down at this man that had captivated my heart in the most passionate way only Amanda could. We stare in each other's eyes and I tell him, We will figure it out Nick. I think we owe it to ourselves to figure these feelings out, and I'm more than willing to give you the time to talk to her, but Nick, no more lies, no more withholding information from me. I want to kiss you so badly right now.

Nick stood up and grabbed my waist without breaking eye contact, my breath hitched in my chest. I feel so many emotions in this moment. I leaned in and kissed his soft lips. The moment our lips touch, I feel those tingles again. Every place his hands touch is filled with tingles and I know he feels them too, from the way his body reacts to me. He moans into the kiss and in that moment, I decide to steal the opportunity to slip my tongue into his mouth, which clearly catches him off guard, but he recovers quickly. His reaction and the depth of this passionate make-out session causes my body to react in such an intense way, I feel this warmth within me and I can't help but crave for more. Nick picks me up by the waist and puts me onto the bed. He climbs on top of me, he breaks the kiss and removes his shirt. I take the moment to admire his body, he then begins to unbutton mine. This time I didn't stop him. I want this as badly as he does. He sits me up to unsnap my braw, which he does with one hand with such ease. He trails kisses from my lips to my neck, then down my chest and to my breasts that are on display. My n*****s hardened. He took my n****e in his mouth and began to lick and suck them. The flicking of his tongue causes me to moan, he kneeds my other breast with his hand, rolling my n****e between his fingers and lightly squeezing, the feeling alone had me on edge. He switches to the other, putting my n****e in his mouth, ensuring they have even attention. The pleasure he gave my body had my mind in a haze. He slowly moved his head down my chest, to my stomach and further below, trailing kisses down my body and began to unbutton my jeans. He quickly removed them, kissing my thighs and slid his tongue down my folds. I shuddered at the sudden contact, he began to devour me, licking and sucking on my c**t, I moaned, gripping his hair in my fists, pushing his head closer, as I felt the build up in my stomach. My body clenches and I see stars as my orgasm erupts through my body, leaving me shaking. He removes his head and looks up at me with a grin...