M A L L O R Y
It will always be quite humiliating for me to talk to someone about receiving an anxiety and depression diagnosis in the past, going through months of therapy, and being admitted to the hospital for it. I was feeling tons of emotions inside me about it and I did not want to be labeled as someone with that diagnosis. I was afraid that telling Alistair about my prior diagnosis of depression and anxiety would make a difference in how I felt about myself and I was scared that perhaps his feelings for me would actually change.
I was so terrified that he would think I was ‘excessively sensitive’, ‘problematic’, ‘difficult to handle’ or that I was frail and devoid of fortitude and toughness. I believed that my mental health diagnoses were a part of who I was that I did not want t
