Not So Ordinary Girl

Although I've been in love with other people in the past, there is something different about this relationship. I feel in my heart that she's my one true love, and I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with her. There's a certain indescribable feeling that I experience when I think about the one I'm waiting for. Masaya 'yung unang pagkikita namin, even the first... kiss that we shared, even the first touch. The first grasp, the first scream, the first intimate time together—it was perfect, so majestic. We're fortunate to have a strong support system in our family and friends who have been extremely encouraging and accepting of our relationship, walang humadlang, walang kumontra, walang epal, walang kulang sa arugang inggeterang frog. Gustung-gusto siya ng family ko at gano'n din 'yung family niya sa'kin. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, even after seven years of being together, our love remains as strong as it was when we first fell in love. Naging understanding at supportive ako sa mga ganap niya sa buhay and so was she. Medyo nagsasalubong lang kami sa isang bagay. We both have jealous asses. Kahit walang malisya, magseselos pa din kami, kahit may karelasyon 'yung kausap namin, magseselos pa din kami, kahit wala silang ginagawang kababalaghan, magseselos pa din kami. Four days before our 8th anniversary, I wanted to elevate our relationship to a new level. I felt it was the perfect time to take this important step forward in our journey together. In my first proposal, I thought of something simple yet romantic for me. Romantic FOR ME, ha. I have the four words syempre 'yung 'Will you marry me?' Tapos pinacustomized ko as ref magnets, kaso waley, hindi niya napansin. So plan B tayo. I called our friends and told them I wanted to play a game, parang dedicating a song to someone o kaya song charades mga gano'n. I rent the entire resort para kami lang talaga nando'n. Sinama ko na din 'yung mga close friends namin. Fast forward, she said yes and we got engaged. But after our 8th anniversary, I... I don't know what happened. I don't know what I did wrong. I don't know if I said something wrong. Nagsawa din ba siya sa'kin? May mali ba sa sarili ko? Nafell out of love kaya siya? May iba kaya? Am I too boring like what everyone says? She left me with no answers to my questions. Nakipagbreak siya through text message. Sakit 'no? Tangina. My world fell apart. I thought we were fine. I thought we were having the best time of our lives. I thought she couldn't live without me. I thought... I was her life. Turns out I'm not. Frankly, I don't know what to do. Sobrang sakit. Sobra. Hindi ko alam kung makakaya ko ba na wala na siya. Ilang araw nga lang hirap na hirap na ako. I can't move on, to be honest. I don't want to. I f*****g love her so much. I just want her. Just her. 1, 2, 3 months passed. Never siyang sumagot sa mga tawag ko. Never siyang nagreply sa mga text messages ko. She even blocked me on her social media accounts. After a seemingly endless stretch of eight months without catching a glimpse of or exchanging words with each other, I finally saw her again. Nakabalik na pala siya? Kailan pa? Bakit walang nagsabi sa akin? She's happy. She's laughing. That kind of happiness na akala ko ako lang ang makakapagbigay sakanya. Watching her laugh, I can't help but feel a rush of nostalgia as memories of us sharing the same laughter flood my mind. We're currently standing in a spacious and well-equipped photo studio. An establishment that has dedicated its services to capturing the perfect pre-wedding photoshoot. Unfortunately, She's engaged. To someone else.