Breaking Barriers

Rage

We return to where we seated and I noticed John is not in good mode. He no longer talk to me and drink too much. Even if he acted like this I just ignored him because I know where is his disappointment came from. So I just ignored him because I don’t want to start a fight. Seems like I am starting to get mad so I get a glass and pour some beer. I made it full because I wanted to get drunk. After I drink one glass I drink another glass. I am getting dizzy right away. I am about to drink another glass but John get it from my hand so I did not able to drink it. I sigh and tell my friends that I need to go home. I runaway because I really get mad with John. Good thing that time is in favor with me. John supposed to chase me but I get a ride right away so he did not able to chase me. I arrived home safely but I need to show Papa that I am not drunk. Good thing that I go home on time. I am lying on my bed now but I heard that my phone keeps on ringing. It is John who called me but I prefer not to answer him. I sleep and when I woke up it is already morning. John keeps on calling me but I did not answer his call. I don’t like how he treated me last night. It is because I don’t agree with him he already act like that.

Today is Kiven’s birthday and I still did not talk to John. I am so excited to attend Kiven’s birthday celebration. I did not tell Jam that I am going because I know it is already a big issue. It is already night time and I am so excited to go there. I just need to make sure that when we pass by Jam’s house she won’t see me because I know that he will tell John. I am lucky that Jam did not see me. I am walking in Kiven’s house now and I can already hear a party noise. When I arrive there I saw my friends are already drunk. When Kiven saw me he hug me tight and I greet him happy birthday. I hand him my birthday gift so he guided me to get food. I eat first and saw my ex Michael seems like he looks good now. Maybe he already moved on. I say hi to him. I am currently eating while my ex is talking to me now. We enjoyed talking like we were before and I am happy on how he look right now. I can see that he already moved on. Noel still the in charge of cocktail drink and I told him that I wanted to drink. I partied with my friends like there’s no tomorrow. I already told Papa that I might be home late and he just understood. Since I seldom drink. I got drunk easily. I am now wasted but I trust my friends. I put my phone on top of the table and it keeps on ringing. I did not notice that John keeps on calling me but Noel tempted to answer. Because I am drunk I did not know that I told Noel to answer the call. He is currently talking to John now and John ask the exact location so that he can pick me up. I enjoyed dancing with my friends because I am already get drunk. I am so wasted right now and enjoying the night. After a few minutes I saw John that holding me now and because I am drunk I thought I am only dreaming. My friend Noel really betrayed me. I don’t know that John pick me up and take me to his home. I thought I am only dreaming. John kiss me wildly that even cause my lips to bleed. I beg him to stop because my lips is already sore. His kiss seems like a punishment. I just let him do what he wants. Even if I know that he is already enjoying my body because I am really so wasted. I woke up early morning and my head is aching. I woke up in a different room and I see that the man beside me is so handsome. I am currently enjoying the view. However I get back from my senses when I remember that I need to cook breakfast. Oh no! I am currently in John’s home and I am n***d. I ask John why I am in his room. He nag at me “ You lady what’s wrong with you? You are so wasted last night good thing that your friend answer the phone so I pick you up. You really wanted to get wasted and put yourself in trouble? I am so mad at you. He kiss me again that my lips almost bleed. Let go of me please. He put a lot of hickeys on me. He seems like wanted to claim authorities. I beg him to stop because I need to go home. Good thing that he did not leave marks on my neck if Papa will saw it I am dead for sure. I ask John to calm down and said sorry for what happened. He still looks mad at me. I know that I did something that made John angry. He said that he won’t let me go home he will let me stay on his room until I get pregnant and decide that we will live together. I know John is so serious right now because I saw it in his eyes. I need to change his decision so that I can go home already. It is 6 in the morning for god’s sake. So I hug him and kiss him while apologizing for what I did. I know John’s weakness. I beg him to send me home so that I will arrive fast. Good thing I convince John and told me to clean myself and change clothes. After that we go downstairs I am lucky because his grandma and Dad is still sleeping. John open the car for me and after that he also sit on the driver’s seat and drive me home.

I already got home now. I knocked on the door and when Papa opens the door he slap me because I go home only early this morning. He thought I will go home late last night. I said sorry to Papa because I know it is my fault. As expected I cannot go out for a month as Papa’s punishment.