Alpha Dax - My mate has a son!

Chapter 10

Alpha Dax's POV

It was the first time in a long time since a while that I had ever thought of getting anyone a gift. But I actually gave her a gift and u bought it by myself. I didn't send any guards but she still hesitated to take a gift from me.

I didn't even know why I got it but I felt so excited to give it to her and I couldn't wait to see the expression on her face.

When did this start?

When did I start losing my mind about someone's expression of my actions?

So many things have changed about me ever since Becca and Kade came here. It's like there were the two things I needed in my life. Because I smile a lot nowadays and I did so many good things I knew I would have never done.

It was like I was a totally different person.

And it was just because of Becca's presence.

"Thank you so much for the gift although I don't want to collect it because it looks expensive," she said, dropping the box on the table.

But she just said she would take it.

I wasn't used to begging people to take gifts from me. I never even gave gifts to anyone but I gave her for down reasons I don't even know. Maybe because she bore my child I just felt I actually owe for everything. Quiet everything.

"But you already said you were going to take it, you literally said 'okay' so nothing is stopping you from taking a gift from me I just feel like giving it to you," I said picking it from the table to give her.

She hesitated again saying she doesn't really need it.

"You are the mother of my son and I have put you through so many things all these years and you have done a lot for me by bearing me a child. I'm happy about it and you deserve anything I have to give you. " I found myself saying. I never knew I was going to say that. I only meant to persuade her to take the gift but my mouth had a mind of itself and it blurted out what I didn't want to say.

"Well just because I bore you a child doesn't really mean anything because he was a gift the moon goddess gave it to me through you and I am actually very grateful. Really grateful to have a beautiful son and you were the item. So I don't really blame you for anything that happened because what has happened has happened and I don't want you to think you offended me or so, you didn't so clear that off your mind. And I don't really want you to be making reference to that incident again. Let's just take it as our past and find a way to make the future better." She said out with her eyes portraying an unsaid emotion. I didn't know what was going to through her mind and I wasn't quite sure if she had put all that behind her because it was a lot to forget and her eyes were not helping either. I could sense she was hurt but it seemed she was better and she really wanted to give me a second chance.

"Okay, I am so glad we can finally close that chapter because I am really sorry and I want us to give it another try for the sake of Kade because I want him to grow up in the presence of both of his parents. I want him to be happy. To feel he has both of us to rely on. I don't want him to go through anything thinking his father doesn't love him because I do, I really do." I said in a down voice. I never actually wanted him to feel bad because if anything at all. I actually didn't mean to tell her all of these as she looked at me with a comfortable look. Wondering a cold Alpha like me could be a good father. She looked at me with that I trust you look. I didn't want to look weak. And I wanted to say all these without it being dramatic so I wouldn't look touchy feely but my emotions failed me and I even said more than I actually wanted to. I actually told her everything the way I saw it. Things I normally say to myself begin with closed doors. I said it to her looking at her with emotions filled in my eyes. For the first time in a long time, I have actually said something the way we actually feel. I was used to keeping my feelings to myself and acting like nothing hurts me especially when I lost my pack and family but I know how hurtful it was but I didn't dare say it out loud.

"I never really know you felt this way, I also want us to give the best to Kade and to be a good parent to him and apparently I can't do that without his father. I need you to make our son happy, I want you to always be there for him because I can't play the role of both the mother and the father because it's going to take the both of us to make this work." She said pulling my hands in hers. Giving me a very different feeling. One I only felt years ago when I was with her. Her hands were soft like a flower peddle and it's been ages since someone held me with a lot of affection. It was like I was in another world entirely. My mind races through different beautiful feelings.

Gosh, just a single touch from her and I was already going crazy. What was happening to me?

I was losing my mind to her, I didn't want to believe in love and anything that had to do with it but it was going to be very hard with her around because her beauty and her voice could send someone away to another dimension. Not to talk of her light and energetic smile. She was beautiful in every way possible. Maybe she was just exactly what I needed in my life. Someone to give me a different perspective. She was the one, the only one capable of doing that.

"What are you thinking about that you are so lost in thought?" She noticed how absent-minded I was.

"It's nothing, I just... I don't know actually, I was thinking about you I guess. You have such a beautiful and energetic smile. I hope you know this?" I found myself saying out loud. That was supposed to be in my head. The voice in my head was louder than I thought. I didn't mean to say it out to her not that it wasn't true but it was weird.

"Thank you so much, you have a very nice smile too." She said smiling again and I didn't know when I also started smiling too.

Her smile was highly contagious.

"There's something I want to tell you, actually I need to tell you, and I am sorry it's coming late but u just decided to tell you when it was all settled because we weren't actually on talking terms before but now I think you deserve to know." She stared at me with an uncertain look and I couldn't help but be curious about whatever she had to say. I really wanted to know and I didn't know since when u started becoming curious. So many things about me were really changing and it felt like I was reborn.

At this point what she did didn't really matter as it would always be right to me

"I have gotten a job at the central hospital in the state district. And I would be in charge of the pandemic. I know you think you can't do this and it's above my head but I am not a quitter and I have never been known as someone who would give up at a single go. I would always keep on trying till I finally got a hang of it." She said with every word full of bravery and determination. She was really different and the most determined person I had seen yet. I actually didn't mean she couldn't do it. I was actually just pulling her legs.

"I actually didn't mean whatever I said. I was just pulling your legs because I actually think you can do this because you are the most determined lady I ever know because you are very bold and brave so I actually think you would get the hang of this. You might actually be the only one to help us solve this life claiming pandemic because many have actually tried and failed but I believe you would succeed in this because you will always keep on trying. I know you would find a way." I said encouraging her because the pandemic was life threatening and it was a threat to everyone here and I believe she could do it because she said she would keep on trying till she got it right. That was the type of motivation we actually needed to solve this.

"So that's just one thing about what I want us to discuss. I have something else and this is more important and actually I really wanted us to discuss it priorly." She said looking at me with a look I didn't understand again. Again with that look.

"What's so important you want to talk abou" I asked, playing with a Rolex box o found on the table.

"Hmm it's about the mate…." She tried to say but I interrupted her..

"What about it?"I interrupted her abruptly.

"Nothing really, I just feel we should talk about it urgently." She said with a nervous look on her face.

"What do we need to discuss about it? You like someone else?" I asked with a smirk on my face teasing her.

"Eww no that's not what I meant we just need to talk and it's not going to be here we are going to talk about something like that but that doesn't mean I like someone else. We just need to discuss it." She said buldging my shoulder for teasing her. She said, leading me over to the veranda to talk.