My 2021

★ ★ —The clock finally hit 12am and just like that 2020 is finally over. Yes! It's finally over! I can start my life all over again and hope that this year would be any better than last year. 2020 may have been the worst and the most stressful year for most of us but it has its advantages... Because of 2020 I met a lot of amazing people online, I made online friends tho I have never even met them before but they cared for me and they're actually fun to talk with, especially the online friends I met on i********: we share the same interest—Harry Potter. And not only did they make me feel not lonely but also very very happy, unlike my so called 'friends' in school. They only talk to me when they need something as to I noticed months ago. But that didn't matter anymore tho, I accepted the fact that they don't like me. And because of 2020 I learned alot of interesting things about myself that I haven't noticed before. But I am still trying to understand myself more because even I myself is confused of my own personality sometimes. Last year, I discovered that I was bisexual because I started to get blushy-blush around girls when they get near me, and most of my crushes are girls and I am also still attracted to boys. And I remember one time that I met my ex's new girlfriend and she did not know that I was her boyfriend's ex so I agreed to become friends with her and we eventually started hanging out like going out doing girl stuff and that's where I realized I have fallen for the girl—the girl who replaced me. But sadly tho our friendship has to end in a month when she discovered I am her bf's ex. Lol that b***h never talked to me again but I hope she approaches me soon. But right now I'm Pan curious— meaning curious about being Pansexual. So yes... I'm still confused of my sexuality or maybe I'm just not sure of it. I also learned new hobbies, I started drawing in 2020 and I can say that I need more practice HAHAHA and I didn't know that I am also good in annoying and being a disappointment to my family :). Yes all of that happened last year. But today, as I was watching the fireworks explode, people welcoming 2021 I was crying tears of joy as if a huge weight was lifted in my heart. But after 30 minutes of celebrating new year with my family I went back to the room and cried myself to sleep with my head full of thoughts that my beloved grandfather didn't live to see 2021's fireworks. He died on Dec, 8 2020. He was a great man and forever be in my heart. And yup! That's it for today...I hope 2021 won't be like 2020, I wouldn't want to see aliens flying around so I do hope 2021 is normal. ★ ★