When I Look At You

One Fine Day On Wang Yibo's Typical Daily Routine: The Dashing Man In A Suit

'How come I feel so unsettled today? Is there any special reason whatsoever?'

But I can't recall any exciting event that would cause my excitement or any unprecidented incident with my involvement that maybe affected my emotions.

Or maybe something big will happen later and my instict have already detected it earlier causing this undefined feeling. I rarely felt this way and mostly due to projects that interests and excites me.

What an odd morning I have today.

First I woke up just before my alarm started blaring while wet with sweat even with the air condition set to its maximum. My skin prefered cold temprature and I feel comfortable sleeping in cold area so everytime i'm inside my house i'd set it to maximum so me waking up with sweat is odd.

Second, my breathing was tight due to my fast heartbeat and I don't know what caused it to act that way. Normally, I felt so relaxed after a night sleep but this morning is a little different.

Third, my emotions were in haywire. There's a ruckus inside of me and i'm bothered. I drank my usual Oolong tea to calm my nerves but to no avail it's still chaotic inside. So in my attempt to settle my feelings, I went to run on the threadmill followed by my regular gym routine and finished it in a cool shower.

I calmed down a little. It's bothersome but I can manage to ignore it. I need to work so I have no choice but to deal with it.

Hello there! I am Wang Yibo a bouncing 21 year old handsome man and an established artist under Yehua Entertainment. I love dancing and is active in sports specially racing and skate boarding.

Well i'm drawn to motorcycle racing which got me numerous medals and awards. I got addicted to this sport due to the temporary freedom and excitement it gives whenever i'm on the racetrack. I'd forgot everything including my worries and problems when I race and me winning is just a consolation. It's an extreme sport but i'm not Wang Yibo without risk and danger. In fact, i'm spending all my vacant times on my motorcycle. If not on cleaning and conditioning my favorite ride it would be on the racetrack improving my skill in racing.

I've been in a relationship for a year already but somehow I still felt alone and lonely most of the time. Well the feeling of sadness and being alone is not new to me. I felt that way all the time even with people surrounding me. With or without anyone i'm still feeling emptiness so it doesn't bother me anymore as I have learned how to live with it as time goes by. Besides I have already learned my lesson a long time ago making me embrace my loneliness and love being alone.

As I started my career in the showbusiness, there's a lot of adjustments, learning and efforts which required strenous energy that at the end of the day as I go home I'd feel exhausted and drained. Back then I felt the need to talk to my friends to lessen my tiredness and light up my mood. I'd call them every vacant time I had just to greet or ask them about their day and to be able to keep up and stay connected with them.

But not everybody is happy with your success. One by one they started avoiding me until there's no one else left to listen and to converse with, anymore. I felt so heartbroken in those times that I begun doubting my value as a person. My insecurities and self doubt surfaced which I kept thinking that maybe i'm not worthy enough to be their friend or family.

And as if abandoning me is not enough, they got jealous of my success and started backstabing me. Its very upsetting on my part that my so called friends who I deemed to be true started to become my haters and number one bashers. I felt so betrayed which led me to totally cut off any connections left with them and let go of our memories.

I accepted whatever happened ans started anew but from then on I never allowed myself to get attatched to anyone. Im having a hard time warming up and trusting other people. Thus making them think i'm a snob, aloof and a cold person.

I couldn't care less of what people are thinking about me for they don't know that i'm only protecting my traumatic heart from any more disappointments and heartaches from heartless and advantageous people. . I have already learned, that at the end of the day no one cares more about you but yourself.

Me being alone is a gift and compensation to myself from letting it suffer for the wrong people. But only time will tell wether or not i'll allow myself to be with someone and be happy. Trully happy.

Anyway, just like normal days, I drove myself to the location of the photoshoot where i'm one of the few choosen personalities to pose as magazine cover model for this month's issue. My bodyguard and assistant were already there preparing my props. I'm confident driving myself without any bodyguard on some occasion when the project location is within this city only. Most of my out of town commitments, I let my bodyguard drive with my assistant and my own crew. Its safer that way given my lack of rest and sleep after a long extended hours of shooting or recording.

I've been very busy eversince my debut in the intertainment industry. My showbiz career started when Yehua Entertainment signed me an exclusive contract as one of their talent after hailed as the winner in a contest of a famous television reality show here in China.

From tv guestings, few modeling jobs and small roles in movies to major brands' endorser and ambassador, own tv series and movies with me as the lead actor and huge opportunities that was given to me i'd say i've come this far. My showbiz career is flourishing and i'm not stopping here.

My projects were piling up just the way I like it. While others were complaining of stress and of being tired I, on the other hand, enjoys work more than ever. The more tired I am at the end of every project the better. Working is my escape from my own burdens that has been with me for the longest time already.

It's odd and impossible for others but my job is my therapy. It makes me feel more alive and human-y. Working is my way of giving my mind a break and my body an energy to keep going and continue being alive.

It's weird but it works for me. It is my purpose in life.

"Good morning, Yibo. Let's go! Everyone's waiting for us inside." Yuno said as I entered the hotel's lobby. Yuno is my friend and workmate, on some ocassions.

"Are you, perhaps waiting for me? That's very odd of you." Just like me, Yuno never like waiting. We both believe that waiting means wasting our precious time on uneccessary things.

Four years ago, Yuno was a newbie on the entertainment industry and it so happened that i'm just starting my hosting career in the same tv show he's currently guesting as a performer. We had a showdown and we both enjoyed that.

Yuno bravely approached me first despite being intimadated, as he confessed later in our frienship. I hate his guts at first but with his perseverance and sincerity I learned to just tolerate him as he's the only one who's brave enough to talk to me whenever we meet each other. But as time goes by slowly I eventually accepted the friendship he's offering.

We got along well so its safe to say he earned my trust.

"There's a notice from the director stating that a meeting will be held this morning and the shoot will resume after lunch." as expected he tolerated waiting due to important reasons. He hates waiting except when an urgent matter came up which directly or indirectly involve me. I'm lucky to be one of his few trusted friends.

"Why are you the one to inform me? Where's the memo?" No call from my assistant regarding the changes on the schedule so maybe its an abrupt decision. "You arrived early, huh?!."

"I booked my three day stay here in this hotel and it so happened that I bump into the director's assistant which informed me of this." He countered. "And we're running late so let's go."

I nodded and followed him inside. I don't know the reason of this sudden meeting but I got this weird rumbling inside me. It's like a signal that something would happen later.

I just shrugged my shoulder and walk by Yuno's side as we continued entering a spacious conference hall of the hotel where the urgent meeting will take place. I surveyed the area and took my time in appreciation of the interior. The director chose this Venezuelan hotel due to its elegance and beauty appropriate for the magazine's demand. Well, besides the fact that the owner of this hotel is the brother of the owner of the publishing house responsible for the magazine.

This hotel is majestic, no doubt about that. Its not even my first time in here but i'm still in awe everytime. It had bewitched me that I would love my future wedding to be held in this very hotel.

I shook my head in disbelief. Hiw could I dream of a wedding when I cannot even see myself in front of the altar waiting for my bride. In fact, it never occured to me that someday I would be settled with somebody and make myself my own family.

What a shame!

I heard series of exagerated gasps and complementing stares from the female guests. What can I say? I'm that handsome and the most prefered handsome to be by most females and even to those who belong to the beautiful rainbow gender according to the survey conducted by the company. I felt awkward inthebeginning but got used to all of that even the sneering, cursing and envious glances from those guys who can't accept that their girlfriends and special someone were all drawn to my charisma.

Truthfuly, it's not my fault that i'm born more good looking than most of the male population. And it is most appreciated by myself.

Then murmurs were heard mostly from the females. It's normal whenever famous idols would grace their presence in a room or program with lots of people.

"He's so handsome!"

"I wish I can work with him."

"I'd take mychance later. I must have a selfie with him."

"I wish he'd notice us. Too bad he's not my partner here."

"I envy Shiqi. She has Yibo."

'Nobody owns me, Tssk!.' I thought. I would only let myself be committed to the person who can make me happy and contented without the feeling of being lonely and leftout.

Well, ShiQi and I is another story. All I can say is that ShiQi is never that person.

I ignored all those whisperings and followed Yuko to the seat intended for us. A few minutes later, the director took the stage and started the meeting. With my head lowered I listened half heartedly to the blabbering of the person in front. I have no intension in participating at all. I'm easily get bored when things is not as exciting as my usual day.

"So as I was saying, there will be changes with our plans. Yibo will still be the model but this time Shiqi will partner him." We are now on the main agenda of this gathering.

'Yeah. Whatever!'

"Clothes, props and backdrops are to be personally attended by our new designer and illustrator. I personally appointed him so trust me on this."

Hearing this, I got disappointed. A photoshoot was disrupted and moved just for this trivial matter. Really?!

Normally, if there are changes and modifications that should be done the director would just ask his assistant to notify the involve individuals thru email or memo directly. So I thought something urgent and major issue should be adressed which require our personal opinions and aproval thus this meeting.

But this is not a matter that needed our participation. They already made the decision so why not just send us the summary if it is just for formality.

What a waste of time and effort!

Due to boredom I decided to play with my phone. It's more entertaining than to listen to nonsense blabberings. I'm a gamer too, you know and mobile games were much more entertaining than most of the hapenings around me.

Someone gently nodge my elbow in the middle of my game so I tilted my head to that direction and saw Yuno pointing in front using his pouted lips. He's funny whenever he do that. I would have already laughed if not for his disruption. I lost my game because of that.

"Upfront! What can you say, Yibo?" Yuno grinned while his eyes were directed infront. "Maybe he is the new actor that the management have scouted."

If I know Yuno also didn't bother listening but just paid attention because of that someone he's now pointing that i'm sure is a lady. Typical of Yuno, the lady's man.

Boy! Was I mistaken for standing beside the director is a man, a very dashing man in a black and red formal attire. I was so drawn to the beautiful scenery on the stage I forgot that Yuno was just beside me giggling.

"I know you'd be as surprise as me upon seeing him. Isn't he pretty? The director hadn't said anything to introduced him, yet. Maybe he's the one who's taking over the prop department." So he did listen to the meeting.

I kept my mouth shut and feasted on the dashing figure. I'm sure he's a man but why is he more beautiful than any other females i've met before?

"Let's meet this controvesial man, shall we?." He suggested.

"No. I'm too lazy." I faked my disinterest and maintained a stoic face.

I his hand slap my arm. "C'mon. Isn't it natural to know the person who'll going to work with? Don't be a snob, brother dear." His persuation has gone a bit too far.

"I don't care! When will this meeting be over, anyway. I have an appointment this evening. I just want to finish the pictorial to rest a bit before that evening schedule." I avoided looking on the stage while talking with Yuno.

Though its true that I have an appointment this 8 pm but I have to get out of here right now to breath. I feel suffocated for whatever reason i'm not yet aware.

"Grumpy! It's just 10 am a long way for your evening shoot, dumb ass." Yuno complained but still remain seated.

"It's 10 am right now but what time should this project finish? Maybe late besides I'm hungry, Yuno. I haven't eaten a decent breakfast this morning. " I just grab an apple to eat along the way.

"Meeting has already ended. Everybody's just waiting for the introduction of the guest. And you're not getting away, Yibo. Look somebody's coming this way."

True to his word, I saw the director walking directly at our way together with the man. My heart is now beating erratically and i'm aftaid it would jump out of my ribcage in any moment.

"Hey, guys. Looking handsome always, I see." I have previously worked with Director TanQi, twice or thrice already so he knew me well.

"Hey, Direct. Nice meeting you again." Yuno shook hands with him. "And who's this with you, if I may ask?."

I remained silent amidst Yuno's greetings and inquiry. But I can't help giving the man side glances while observing him discreetly.

He's much more alluring in closer distance. He has a natural dark brown hair styled in wavy side bangs which highlighted his high and prominent cheek bones. He has thick eyebrows that complemented his phoenix like eyes, a nose size fit for his face and supple red lips with permanent curve, a smile.

I must have spaced out that I lost track of their conversation and was startled when somebody elbowed my side with the culprit none other than Yuno himself. I glared at him after.

"Hey! What's up with you, man? The man's talking to you." He whispered with emphasis while nodging me to do whatever he's saying.

I'm shock to see a hand extended in front of me asking for a handshake. And when I raise my head I saw the director shaking his head in amusement while the owner of the hand is still smiling awkwardly.

"Hi again. I'm Xiao Zhan and nice meeting you." He's probably waiting for my response earlier but because i'm lost in my own thoughts, I didn't aknowledge him.

"Yibo. Wang Yibo." Shaking his hand, i'm very please to know that his hand perfectly fitted with mine like it was meant for us to hold hands like this. "Nice meeting you, too."

I let go and inserted my hand inside my pocket. It was a quick contact but it sure is the best feeling I ever had this day.

"Would you like to join us for brunch before we proceed?." Director TanQi offered.

It's a very tempting offer because right now i'm very much aware of how my stomach badly wanted to have a fill.

"Yeah, sure. As long as it's your treat, direct." Yuno teased.

"How about you, Yibo? Would you eat with us?." I nodded for confirmation. "Okay let's go."

We followed his assistant to the hotel's restaurant. Food here is great as I already tested it a few times already. Their fine dining restaurant is one of the reasons the hotel became well known to both locals and tourists.

And this brunch is one of the most interesting I had so far.