Teenage Love or Is It

Hell on Wheels

Drake

    When we got home today, my mom was home already. This is not good or so I think to myself. When we walked inside our mom was sitting on the couch with a man beside her. Mind you he was not our father. He looked at us and then my mom spoke. "Welcome home boys how was school?" None of us answered. She cleared her throat and began to talk again. "I want you to meet Anthony. He is my boyfriend. And we have been talking for sometime now. This is the real reason we moved here. He wants to marry me and we are going to be a real family now." I couldn't understand what she was saying how could she lie to us like that. Make us move halfway across the world for what I just don't get it. She is suppose to think about us but no she was only thinking of herself. I couldn't stand there any longer. I ran out the door and jumped in my truck. I drove off in a hurry not knowing where exactly to go. Just knowing I had to go somewhere other than there. 

    Once I got off the street that we lived on. I just drove around blasting my music as loud as I could. It wasn't long before the police blue lighted me and made me pull over. The officer walked up to my window and said "Son that music is mighty loud don't you think. Can you turn it down please? And watch out up ahead the bridge is out, might want to go back the other way. You have a good day sir and take this as a warning." I didn't say anything. I was so confused at how my mother could do us that way. I drove to the nearest driveway and turned around. Driving back towards my house I came to the conclusion that I had to protect my brothers at any cost possible. So when I got home I immediately ran inside to check on them. After all I did storm out without any words said. When I stepped inside, they were all around the table about to have dinner. 

    My mom looked at me and just nodded. I knew she wanted me to sit down at the table. I obliged but I really didn't want to. I knew what was coming and her face said everything. I was going to get a lecture whether I wanted it or not. I just sat there waiting for the food to be placed on the table while my brothers just looked at me with wonder. I gave them a simple nod letting them know I was okay and that there was no need to worry. They both smiled at me and began to eat. When mom put my food in front of me, she said "How could you just run off like that? You made me feel horrible. I wanted to tell you for months but the way you have been acting makes me wonder if you are really doing better. Drake, I am afaird for you that you will go back to drinking really bad again. You have to understand I have a life to and it is not just about you boys.Please give him a chance." I couldn't say anything. 

    Yes she had a reason to be worried. I used to drink and drink a lot of alcohol but no one understood my pain. They can not fix me because they do not know how. My life is over and has been over since my dad left and started a new family. Like we did not exist to him. We are nothing to him. And it hurts. I have tried to be good and make the feels go away but they don't and I just don't know if i can still control the urge to drink or not. It is like an itch you can't scratch and yet I want to everyday. I haven't drank in two years but that don't mean I don't want to. My mom is just paranoid all the time. 

    Did she really think she was going to just bring us here and we would say nothing about it. If she did she was wrong. I finally couldn't take it any longer and left the table. I went up to my room and laid on the bed to think about my angel from today. Wonder what she is doing now?