Fated Or Doomed

Wrong Night Out

Liv

Days after days, and my home has been this couch and Connie’s bed. Trying to achieve my mission. Trying to accept just one thing I can overcome and take back to my wolf. Just one thing to make my worth valid.

The acceptation was harder than anything.

All I want more than my existent was to go home to them and stay in their arms forever. I hate that I have lost that feeling. I disconnect our bond for the sake of us both. Mainly for them. I hate all of this. In my fault of act I hate how weak I am because of them.

They are my fallen.

“Hey? Want to come on a run?”

I looked up from my brace of mind. Seeing Connie all dress in workout shorts and a small tube top. I rise a high brow at her. “You don’t run Connie.”

“I do if you want to. You got to get out. Come on.” She twirl her hips.

“Why? So I can run into Travis and all the emotions and s**t to explode when we fight. No thanks. I’m good in here.”

Connie’s motive was obvious. And she was right in every way. A run may do some good. But I had a few things line up. And I have this ache that if I leave something will happen.

I’m not ready to face anything.

So I stay indoors. Continuing my flaws until one day I can call Travis and say we can have the life we always wanted without any worries that we may fear. That we will be okay. We can be loved. With one another.

His Little Witch.

My Sweet Wolf.

3 Days Later

I didn’t know what to do anymore. My clear omission is seen doubtful. I have nothing in return for my wolf. And over time I am defeated with the fact that if I return they’ll want nothing to do with me. Finally realizing my collapse state of being a Luna. Fated mates or not them knowing they’re better off. And I’ll be fully broken.

I had one email from a witch in a deep fae realm. He send ambitions and prayers to me. He shares a story that I can’t help but smile to. He says he knew a witch that mated with a human. They kept their love secret. For the fear of what some may say. Soon no one cared. What got me more was the human had a child. It wasn’t the witch’s son. But the connect they had and the family they grew until both human died hit something in me. The witch still lived a lovely life with her mate regardless of anything. And in the end the witch explains that now the witch. His mate now. Name their first son after her stepson in honor. It was a beautiful take away.

With that I thought I take today in joy. Today just felt different. May be the email but the air was feathering around. I even held my phone on the edge of hear my Sweet Wolves voice. But I worry things will fall if I do. So I don’t and stay in the first good mood I had since arrive.

I will hope maybe this is a sign that good is still there. No it doesn’t mean anything about my relationship. But maybe it will give a push to the universe for us. That even if I can’t birth a pup. I can still have my wolf until my dying days. I hold this hope.

I got up and begin cleaning the apartment. I clean the bedding. Vacuum, sweep, dust..etc. The place was spotless. When I looked around. My smile was still there. I can feel it. And I wonder if something like this had happen to my wolf. Did they break out their sad anger to me and begin smiling? Even if it was one time. Just once. Did they come to terms with their answer of us? Did they give up? Or do they still wait?

While music blast in the air. I heard the door slam shut. I poke my head and see Connie had return home from food shopping.

Her jaw drops at the sight. I scrunch around and help her with the bags. “What the hell storm is going on?” She ask.

“I’m cleaning.”

She takes a second before she moves and turns the volume down. Taking her coat off I sigh to her. Only to continue my work. I wanted to keep the mood up. If it goes back down I’m afraid I’ll never have good again.

“Elizabeth?” She sneaked behind me. I jump and smile to her. “What’s going on with you?” I hear her concern slipping through.

“I just wanted to clean up. I’d been a slump, I know. I’m sorry. But today is different. Just today, maybe.” I try not to put too much hope. Goddess know I give too much, the more will be taken.

“Something happen, didn’t it?” Her eyes widen in search. “You spoke to Travis?” She grins.

I try to not to pout. I only shake my head. In respond she pouts. And I explain the email. “I don’t know but it just made me feel like if I act like it’s all good and can be good than maybe it will reflect back. Maybe I’ll get the answers soon. Or maybe I’ll say f**k it and I have the courage to just be with my wolf again. Either way I feel bubbly from the high.”

Connie smiles and hugs me. And slowly my bubble slips from her embrace. I don’t know why. It felt wrong to be touch. But when she pulled back I felt the urge to fake the shives she gave me.

“There is always good. You can be with them regardless of it all. Stop putting all that Elders crap in your head.”

Again I hide the emotions that wanted to come. “Right now I can’t focus on that. It seems that when I do it’s all I have and all I can breathe. But now when I just see what I want and hope for. I’m happy and just..”

“A star Liv.” She adds. And I knew what she means.

She throw her purse at the couch and skips to me. Her mood began to bubble up with mine. “Okay, hear me out. I just got a text about a party out by the east. All witches cauldron party. A few classmates are gonna be there and I was gonna ask you anyways. So..”

“Let’s go.” I blurted up.

She smile in disbelieved. “Really?” I nod to her. “Are you sure? Because if you think it’s too much or too soon. I bought pizza for us to eat tonight. We don’t have..”

I go to grab her shoulders before she moms out on me. “I think it’s time I at least try to get some air. Maybe it’ll push me to them in a good way. Goddess knows they fill my head, it’s suffocating me.”

In a good way. I love them. I just don’t feel deserving of them.

Connie lays a hand on mine. “We can call them.”

I shook my head. A pit of guilt hits. “I can only allow myself to think of them. The rest still hurts. But I need this. The party will be good.”

She squeeze my hand. “Okay. But if you get the mood to leave. Just say it.” I nod and we start putting the food away.

As soon as we finish. We decided to take a nap to build some energy for the party tonight. We had to leave early since it’s an hour and 20 minutes out. I shower last since Connie takes forever to doll herself up. Me. I just wanted to smell like I haven’t been living in bed for days.

Before Connie had finish. I took a caution. I stir the spell for my bond and took a potion I made to hide my vampire side. It was an all Witch party and I can’t have anyone finding out who I am. Down fall of the potion, all my vampire powers will go away temporary. So I’ll have to ease on the drinking.

We leave about 9:30 and arrive close to 11 pm. It was crazy. Cars park everywhere and I can see witches all around dancing with little element wisp they make. I’ve never been to an all witch party. The air itself just seemed so different here. The witches seem so free and open. You see everyone showing off their gifts. It was like a witches rave here.

I notice a few people seem very odd. Connie explain how some people here drink this special brew with ayahuasca in it. Giving them an spiritual awakening and stuff. People are also passing around a new drug with coca in it. Another type of drug. She points out the areas to stay away from.

“I’m not doing anything illegal Connie.”

“No, no. Just drinking and dancing. Nothing else. I swear. Beside I get tested in school. Just stay away from the teas and any odd smells.” She warns me. This made me unease but I try to not think about it.

I did notice how each space we pass had different type of music to find your kind of crowd. Beside the unusual cast, everyone was very friendly here. Some were even a little too friendly. I had to hide the urge to choke some guy that tried to grind on me. I looked stupid when I try to bare my fangs that are no longer activated. I looked mental.

It’s like no matter what a guy thinks he can just waltz in and think every girl wants him grinding his little d**k on her. Moving and waving them off did nothing. These parties were just like the clubs.

Either way it was a blast. Until it wasn’t. After about 3 hours in we were getting tired. We went to get some water and Connie got some red juice that was tingly to her. After that a few more hours went by. We were sweating and I can’t remember dancing this much without a break. Slowly my high goes down and I need a break from the crowd.

“What time is it?” I ask.

“Who cares. Dance bitch.” Connie was just swinging her whole body. Hands in the air and all.

I look around. And see everyone is about the same. I didn’t think much into it. But something seem off. I try looking at my phone but my vision was a bit foggy.

“I think we need to go Connie.” I tug her arm. She waves me off. And no matter how much I try to get her to come with me. She just kept dancing. I walk off to try to make sense and soon my legs turn a bit noddles.

“Why do I feel so drain?” My body tingle all around. Like I’m floating.

“Aahh!!”

My head turn to the shrieking all around. Blast of fog covered the air. Everyone ran to get to safety.

“Connie!!”

I had no clue what was going on. I ran through the crowd looking for her. As I became alert now. I hate the fact I can’t use my vampire speed.

“Liv!!”

I stop and turn to hear her. “Connie!!”

“Livvv!!”

As I make my path I’m push to the ground. I see a guy fighting off another witch. Both using their magic. But the two witches seem to not care about the burning flesh.

I push off and keep running off to Connie. People running and bodies flying around. I ignore everything and search for my best friend.

“Connie! Connie!!”

I make it close to the end. Seeing a blonde holding herself up. I notice someone sneaking behind her. I run fast and my hand flick down. I call on a light and have a ball of lighting thrown to the man. He become paralyze from the shock and the woman’s head turn.

“Connie!”

“Liv?” I run to her. Helping her up. She looks me up will shallow eyes. And I see her wounded. “I’m hurt?”

I nod and try to compose my face “Yes, but we are getting out of here.”

“Good idea. Party’s a bust.”

We make our way quickly to the car. Everything behind seems to ease but Connie was my concern. I grab the keys and started to drive. I had no clue where I was at but Connie needed help.

“I’ll look for a hospital.” I tell her.

“Take exit 6.” She wheezed.

Slowly her head turns and I begin to worry. It was so much blood. It seep through her clothes and makes its way down the floor.

Keeping a look out for her wound, a loud horn beep and I turn to a bright light. I turn the car quick and next thing I know we are stuck in a ditch. Our bodies swing up and I feel my head oozing blood.

“Connie, you okay?” I try to reach her but my reach was shorten. I can’t see her as the blood drips down my eye.

The car that almost hit us stop on the other side. I turn to see someone running towards us. I call out. In quick sight they help me get Connie out. Lucky their car was fine and they drove us to the hospital.

I was so scared. I didn’t know what to do. The people argue to stay and wait with me, I assure them it’s fine. I thank them and filled out paperwork. A nurse ask what happen and tons of other questions. I didn’t know how to answer. And when she asked if she was on drugs. I quickly said no. And then I remember I felt odd before the attack.

“I think so. Maybe. Someone dose our drinks without us knowing. Please just help her. Please.” I feel useless right now.

The nurse squeeze my hand and tried to assure me it’ll be okay. That their do everything they can for Connie.

I sat in the waiting room for so long. Clenching my nerves. My tears just steam down. What’s worst was when a doctor came to tell me Connie’s update. I wanted to shout and punch the wall. I quickly fist my anger and let him finish talking.

“It’s taking quit some time. We’re not sure why there’s clots. Lot of them. Your friend’s injuries seems unique. We’re working fast to get her back.” He left after that and said he was called back. This didn’t help my worries one bit.

A bit later and a tall dark skin woman walks up to me. “Excuse me are you here for miss Connie?”

I jump from my seat. “Yes. I’m her family. Liv. Is she okay? Can I see her?”

The woman smile. “Come have a seat.” I nicely say no thank you. But again she suggested. “Please seat miss Liv.” I exhale all my worries and sit aside the woman.

“If you’re gonna tell me she’s dead th..”

“Ohh no, no, no she’s alive miss.” The woman quickly says. I look up holding my breath.

“You see. The other doctor was human so her case was given to me. I’m her teacher and I know about her kind. As are a few of my other students are too.” My eyes widen to her. “You see. Connie is family here. During clinics she stays here because of the drive and long shifts.” She explains to me.

“I didn’t know that.” I smile in joy she has people who care for her here.

“Miss Liv. I do need to tell you that Connie’s injuries are severe. It was magically compromise and has made its way to her lungs. Now due to the toxin she ingested. It is making it hard to heal. We have done everything and it’s good.”

I look in her eyes and see there’s more. “If she’s good then why does your eyes say she isn’t? What else is wrong.”

“Connie is right about you. A very wise and smart person you are.” A quick curl fades from my lips. “Because of the injuries and large amount of blood has been lost. It took too long to help her. And we are low on blood to keep her stable. And if her body heals from everything. But..”

“But?” I tighten my hands together.

“She needs blood and soon. She’s rare and I’m making the calls. So far the nearest transporter is 5 hours out and she doesn’t have that long.

“I can help. Take my blood. I’m here.” I stood and the woman grabs my arm. Telling me to sit.

“I’m aware of your unique state. But if things go wrong. With your blood. Is her transition a consequence? Do you know her will on it? Otherwise I can’t do it without her call?”

I try to think quick. And ask for a minute to think. “Of course. There’s time. But it’s short.”

My stomach is in turns. I walk down a hall. I find myself alone and jump inside a closet. I cry my eyes out and try to think on what the hell I should do. I fall back and lean my head back. “f**k. I’m gonna have to call him. He can help her.”

I take my phone out and call the only person I can. “Mason?”

“Hey? How are you sis?” Just the sound of his voice sent me to tears. f**k I miss his voice so much. It felt like a hug just hearing him.

I quickly tell him we’d been in an accident and need him to come. I’ll explain later but he needs to hurry now. “Okay I’m coming. Wait for me Liv. I’m coming to you both now.”

Finally Mason makes it here. He rushes to my arms and I peel him off quick. He frowns at me and search my face. And body. “Are you okay. Are you hurt? What happen?”

“I’m fine now.”

“Now! You’re in the hospital in a different city.”

I nod my head low at him. “I was hurt from the accident but I heal myself.” Thankfully my vampire side activated just in time. The doctor wanted to get me checked but I decline. I made up a lie.

“Connie was hurt from the attack..”

“Attack!”

“Yes Mason but..” Brother mood active and I quickly pull him aside. Getting him to listen. “We were drugged and some witches attack the party. Connie got hurt and the crash didn’t help. I told the doctor and they say they need blood if she’s gonna have a chance to make it”

“Then why the hell don’t they give her blood?”

I swallow hard. “This is a low cut hospital. Their blood supply is low. I offer to help but they said if she doesn’t heal proper from my blood she’ll turn. And I can’t take that chance. On top of that the nearest blood is too far and she won’t live. You’re only person with her blood type. I know you hate us right now but please Mason help her.” I beg.

Mason pulls me in and hugs me for life. Combing my hair down. “I can never hate you two.” He pulls back and lock eyes to me. His brace felt just like Connie’s. What had me wanting his more was the scent of Travis on him.

“Where’s the nurse with the needles. I have blood to give.”

I quickly wave down a nurse. And he shows us to Connie’s room. They quickly made a place to take his blood. Telling us it’ll be a bit. I stand and watch each drop come out his vein. I can smell it. I hold myself down as a I get a need.

“So you wanna start or should..”

Ring Ring

I quickly turn it off.

“So why ..”

Ring Ring

“It’s just Perry.” I sigh. He has been calling nonstop. I turn my phone off when he didn’t get the hint. I just turn it back on and I guess he’s still at it.

Ring Ring

“Ugh.” Before I can click decline Mason grabs the phone out my hand and picks it up.

“Can’t you tell she doesn’t want to talk to your ass! Stop calling!” You can see the vein poking out his hands.

“Of course she’s with you if not Travis.” He says.

“Who else do you think she’ll be with? Not you.”

I can practically hear Perry rolling his eyes. “I’m concern about her silent treatment. I won’t stop until I hear from herself that she is fine.”

Annoy, I grab the phone to address Perry’s need. Mason scowl but with a needle in his arm he couldn’t fight me.

“Je vais bien, Perry. Arrête d’appeler.” (I’m fine Perry. Stop calling.”

“C’est toujours agréable d’entendre votre voix.” (It is aways lovely to hear your voice.) He chuckles a smirk.

“Arrête. Je suis aux prises avec un problème sérieux en ce moment.” (Just stop. I’m dealing with a serious matter right now.) I kept my voice low but firm so he gets the hint.

“Je suis là en Pétard. un e as besoin de moi ou d’un endroit où t’enfuir. Quelqu’un avec qui parler et écouter vos paroles douces. Je suis là.” (I’m here firecracker. If you need me or a place to run off to. Someone to just talk and listen to your sweet words. I’m here. And I’ll stay here for you.) I’m aware of Perry’s concern and I do hear a actual concern in his tone. With a bit slugness behind it.

“Merci de votre arrivée. Rentrez chez vous.” (Thank you for checking in. Go home.)

“Dis-moi juste que tu n'as pas mal. Que je n'ai pas à aller faire un manteau de peau de qui que ce soit.” (Just tell me you’re not in any pain. That I don’t have to go and make a skin coat of anyone.) I roll my eyes at his assumption.

“Je vais bien et je suis vivant. Maintenant, au revoir Perry.” (I’m well and alive. Now goodbye Perry.) I sigh through the phone.

“Adieu Pétard.”

After taking just enough blood from Mason. They hook Connie up. “This is perfect. We’re still in the window. Her chances are still high.”

“Thank you doctor so much. Thank you.” I was so relief.

“I should thank you two. Connie is my star student here.” I bet. She has been studying even before she got in.

As soon as the doctor leaves. Mason demands what happen in more detail. I explain everything to him. He was mad even with a calm voice. Every time he leans his head down. I saw Oliver trying to surface. “I’m glad you two are okay now.”

“Me too. I’ll never forgive myself if she didn’t make it.” I begin to fidget with my fingers.

“Well it would had been worst if she went alone.” I look up to him. He sat next to me. I hold Connie’s hand. “Look I’m not mad you cut me off. I’m hurt that you did it. It hurt more when I knew I couldn’t be there for you the one time in my life.”

I look up in water eyes. Unable to control them. “I’m sorry Mason. With everything I really thought you’ll be better off. Honesty.”

Mason moves closer and stretch his neck out to me. His eyes narrow me hard. “You don’t ever do that again. After everything. After 10 years you don’t ever make the choice of kicking me out your life in any aspect. I don’t care the reason. You don’t make that choice for us. You don’t get to break my promise to you. It was my promise to myself too. So never again. Okay.” A flicker of Oliver’s eyes narrow deep to me.

I nod and he wraps his arms over me. “Okay Mason. Never again. I swear.”

“I need you in my life no matter what. You don’t break that promise again.” I lean myself to him. A small wall let down for now.

“Travis needed you. You both had each other. It was just easier.”

He shook his head. Grab my hand. “None of this has been easy. Just no more between us okay.” I nod in responds.

Right away Mason’s expression got long and serious. “Liv. Travis knows everything and the fought I did to get him to let only me come. You have to call him.” I shook my head no. Turning my head away from him now. “What if it was him. You’ll want him to at least call you. Just say you’re fine. That’s all I’m asking you. No, it’s what I’m telling you. Call Travis and say you’re fine. Now!” He said with so much tension. My heart flutter at the idea of hearing my mate’s voice.

I bottle it all up. Knowing Mason is most likely right. It would kill me to not get his call. I took my phone out and left the room. I see the hall empty. With knifes in my heart. I make the call.

The phone didn’t ring more than once. A longing of ache swell to his rag voice. “Elizabeth. Are you two okay? Are you okay baby, talk to me please. Don’t shut me out!”

“I’m fine.” I replied quickly. “Mason gave Connie his blood and she will live.”

“Thank Goddess. Are you hurt? What happen Little Witch?” The sound of his nickname brought sorrow to me. I open my mouth but couldn’t replied. We stay in silence for a few seconds. “Elizabeth just come hom..”

I hang up the phone. Crashing any feelings that strikes to build up. Any selfish emotions was quickly demolished. I held my cell tight to my chest. Chin down and sobbing softly in slow breaths.

I wipe my tears away and turn to see Mason leaning against the door shaking his head in disappointment at me.

“What?!”

“Really Liv! You’re not gonna talk to him. Give him something other than drive himself mad.”

I try to raise my chin and act like I was okay. I doubt it work on him. “You said to just tell him I’m fine. I did. And it’s not easy for me either, okay. I can’t leave the apartment without..I just can’t!” I spat out in pain.

“You knew what I meant.”

I try to enter the room. Not wanting this talk now. But Mason closed me out. His huge wolf body covered the whole door. I scowl him hard and God damn it he scowl me harder.

My ego fell through the tension. “I can’t Mason.” My eyes drip to a wondering question I may not have the honor to ask. “How is he anyways?”

“You were just on the phone. Could of asked.” He puff his chest out. But I didn’t care.

“No. No I couldn’t.”

Mason dropped his arms and sucked his teeth in. I didn’t like the way he responded. His body language sat wrong when it took him a while to speak. “It’s bad Liv, really bad. He’s not on a killing spring, yet. But his anger is a new high, the doctor had to sedate him.”

“What! Why?”

“That’s how bad he was. When he got out. He finally talked. But Malcom took over mainly. No one but Gamma and I have seen Travis. Which is rare. It’s just a minute then it’s Malcom all over again.”

Just hearing this made my heart crack its last fray of pieces. I hate myself even more now. How on Earth will he every take me back after what I’ve done to them now. Goddess knows I wouldn’t take myself back.