Fated Or Doomed

Brother In Honor

Mason

The drive to the hospital was like a horror maze run. I have no details on what I’m driving into beside the fact both my sisters are in the hospital. Just the fact Liv called pleading I come. It send the most coldest shiver down my spine.

All I wanted more than life was to scream. I wanted to punch myself in the gut for this. I should of fought harder to be at their sides. I should of done something but stand on the side and allow this to happen. This was my worst nightmare come true.

But then Liv needed space from us too. We added on when we came to her that day. Connie barely will answer my calls or text me back. And when she did. It was never good. She had to be away from Liv to just talk to me. It felt terrible to talk in secret but I’m sure Liv knew Connie wouldn’t disappear on me too.

I’m thankful for that. I felt like I didn’t lose her completely. Yet every day that went on. I can feel that missing piece of her. I couldn’t just move on and accept the lost of my best friend. I couldn’t. I just couldn’t do that.

And being around Travis just reminded me of her and all of my failures to them both. All my goals and titles were slowly falling. Sometimes, I didn’t care if I lose it. I just couldn’t lose them. And no matter how hard I try to keep roles stable. They begun to tip over.

I was losing them both.

After hours, I finally got there. My terror got worse and then dropped once I saw Liv. Connie was a whole other story. As I made it through the thick white walls. I got the truth in sight. Donated my blood to one annoying sister. Saving her life. And comforting my other like heaven needed it to live.

During the time we talked and wait for Connie to wake up. My mind drifted to how things have been since the girls went silence.

**

Travis wouldn’t come out the woods. Anyone who came at him, he attack. He has nearly killed his own men. After three days he waltz into the pack house to grab an apple and return. He wouldn’t leave his own pain. He wanted to stay isolated.

I thought he gain some light to come back. But he seem worst when I found him destroying his office. He searched and found all of Liv’s secret emails and letters. People and community’s were threatening her and our people. She hide it all. And he went mad.

Travis never spoke when he return those days from the woods. He will hiss at people in warning. Everyone flinch to the side in his walk way. The house grew gray from him sorrows.

Quickly in grief a hard decision had to be made. After almost ripping a Delta’s throat he was sedated. He was founded once again in the woods. He was triggered back so often. He hardly got out the woods. And when he did..He wasn’t him really. It wasn’t Alpha.

Took about a day and half for him to come out the sedation. Doctor said his mind trapped him and his body in a calm state. That’s why it took so long. And when he did. Malcolm only surface. Saying Travis switch it off and will not return if she doesn’t.

“Nothing has change Beta. My witch will return. I don’t want to hear anything regarding it less.”

I chose my next words wisely. Malcolm only stared at the ceiling. Making me very unease. “As you demand Alpha.”

At this time Malcolm leads. Travis only came out to tell me and Sarah that he’s okay and that’s it. To just follow Malcolm. In Malcolm state I had to take a lead in this case. Sarah and Kan told me about their little pup. And I worry with Sarah around Malcolm.

“Just don’t try to step in. I can take a beating from Malcolm.”

“That’s not the point Beta. This is why I didn’t want anyone knowing so soon. I don’t want to be push back to a desk job or less. I have a high role here.” Sarah argue about her space.

But I knew her and I knew Malcolm. Which is why I had this talk with her mate Kan.

“Remember it’s not just your body anymore. You and the baby need to be safe.” Kan goes to rub her shoulders and she turns to snarl at him. I take a step as I see her roll her fist, ready to punch someone.

“I can protect the baby and do my job. It’s degrading that I have to lower myself.”

Kan holds his hands up. A small space kept them near. “It would make me feel a lot better if you at least try not to be too hands on around Alpha at this time. He is at risk. And you know that.”

She narrow her eyes at him. “I ask this temporary of course. After the baby you can go kick ass again. Goddess knows you’re sexy when you do. Even now.”

He flash a cocky look at her. And oddly it ease her down. Both Oliver and I were in shock. Not ever have I seen someone calm Gamma down in so little time. And without a hit.

Wow.

“Okay.” She gives her mate a kiss and turn back to me. I fix my face quick before she can hammer a nail between my eyes for gawking. “But don’t you dare keep me out of any loop. Or so help me Goddess I will sterilize you.”

Short in we all gather at the training ground. Gamma watch as Travis and I lead the older warriors. Just a few Delta’s help on stand bys. Things were going swell despite minor tension Travis gave in some duels. I cut them short when I can. I make a great mistake when I turn my back to talk to Sarah. A loud thump came to with gasps and whispers around. The Delta had made one good connect to Malcolm. Trigging him. Malcolm beats the Delta until he broke his arm. It twisted a very nasty way. Everyone was scared and afraid he was gonna do worst. Even more since the other day Malcolm attack an Alpha at a meeting. I mean he deserve it after saying some harsh comments. Even Oliver wanted to jump in.

It wasn’t until next training that day Malcolm went off the wheels again. I was unaware he called an early class. I had to stop him from beating the new warriors. Travis wasn’t even suppose to spar with them. Especially not without Sarah. She was taking lead with the young ones. Just in time I grab Malcolm’s arm. His eyes were widen and dark. Now with his rage to me he wraps his claws around my throat. I don’t flinch but call the class a break for now.

Once again Malcolm threaten me. I know I’ve been over stepping my boundaries as Beta. And I try being lean with Malcolm. But he wasn’t sane. I was doing my best as his Beta. As the packs Beta.

“You’re Alpha Malcolm. I’m just doing what any Beta would.” His eyes kept its hold on me. After looking me up and down he lets me go with a shove.

“You won’t be able to rescue everyone Beta. We all gotta learn. At least we do now.” He huffed.

“Killing our men isn’t ideal in our strength.”

“Are you questioning my leadership?” His tongue spat another warning my way.

“Look man, I know you’re heart broken. But..”

“Heart broken!” His back tightens as he turn his figure back at me. “There’s not a word to describe what the hell happen. My mate left me! Just like I thought she would. Regretted meeting us at those woods.”

“Liv is just..”

“But you had to keep stepping in. You put your f*****g snout where it doesn’t belong. I was getting him to find her the right way. The better way where none of this would of happen. But you kept getting between us. Even now.”

I hold my breath.

“Maybe he was right from the beginning. I should of let him hold off longer when we were better. We aren’t s**t. Now..” His chest rumble in an air. It frighten me. “Elizabeth knew and warn us before hand and God damn it when we had her we could just let her the f**k go and now she made the call to get as far away from us. So I f*****g lost her!” He shouted at me.

“It hurts man. I see it clearly. I do. I love her too. We j..”

“Love has a greater meaning. We needed to prove to her we are worth it. And I haven’t own her love. Not properly.” His eyes shrink and lace back to its dark brown.

“You know her. She’s gone but..”

“She left us. Not you.” His eyes drops to the ground. As did his shoulders.

I took a step towards him. He was calmer. “After that night she left me too.”

“You lied about her!” He snap right back at me. Danger read all over again.

“No. Connie called during the search and I went alone. She was bad. But after that Connie said she couldn’t come to me. And when you showed up..” I tried pleading my reason but he wouldn’t listen.

“I did everything for her and she still left! I couldn’t give her a life. She wasn’t safe here. I couldn’t love her the way she needed. She left me just like I thought my mate would. We won’t meant for this! And Travis told us over and over again! You and Sarah said we needed to and now we did. I..fuck it up aside him. We f****d it up.”

My empathy hit with him. I knew his was greater. “She left all of us because we pushed her. She was afraid of all of this. Even herself. She won’t be back in weeks. This was too much and she’s not heal enough to see herself with us. She was still fixing things before the party.” The party was just suppose to get her started. Yet it jumped her to a whole new thing.

Malcolm nod at me. I hear his teeth grinding along each other. “So how long do I have to wait alone without her? How long do I walk this Earth without my mate who lays else where?”

“I can’t say. But we wait. No one can push her to us. She’ll run.” I admit.

The world grew dark for them two. Nothing anyone do will help. It’s on them.

“Connie said the same thing. What if we are different. What if I go and I can..”

I shook my head quick in defense. “No Alpha. Malcolm?” Malcolm looks up to me. “We can’t take that chance. She’s not herself right now.”

“Well neither am I.” Malcolm leaves the training ground without another word. I could never forget the unfazed look with pain written in his eyes. It was all I see now. His pain.

In wrong timing. I had just finish ending the lesson from this morning. My phone rings nonstop. It was papá’s but I ignore with a respectful text. But then mamma had to call and after her 2nd missed call I bite the bullet and answer.

“Ciao mamma?”

“Ciao Piccolino. Sta andando tutto bene?” (Hi baby boy. Is everything going well?) She ask.

Right away I hear papá yelling in the back. I compose myself to get ready for his ear full.

“Mamma, ho capito tutto. Non devi chiamare.” (I got it all handle. You don’t have to call.)

“È vero? È diventato selvaggio?” (Is it true? Has he gone feral?) I know my parents worry they’re following their fellow Alphas rage.

“No, no. It’s not like that.”

“Sono preoccupato quanto tuo padre. Se Travis è andato oltre il limite, bisogna fare qualcosa.” (I’m just as concern as your dad. If Travis has gone off the edge, something must be done.)

I scratch my temple. “Sta bene. Stiamo bene. Smettila di preoccuparti. E dì a papà che non sono appari suoi..” (He’s fine. We’re fine. Stop worrying. And tell papá it’s not his concern.)

“Ragazzino. Conosci tuo padre.” (Baby boy. You know your dad.)

Mom sigh and I hear a growl through the phone. Dad yell that I have no understanding of fine.

“Non è quello che sento. Questo è blasfemo nei confronti della nostra specie. Devi tenere l’alfa sotto controllo prima...” (It is not what I hear. This is blaspheming of our kind. You need to get Alpha under control before.) He demanded of me. After all these years he still thinks he can run as my Beta.

“Non ordinarmi gli atti del mio Alpha. La Dea sa che hai lasciato che il tuo faccia molto peggio.” (Don’t you order me on my Alpha’s acts. Goddess know you let yours done far worst.)

“Fai il tuo cazzo di lavoro e non lasciare che Alpha faccia uccidere tutti. Il branco è già noto per i suoi capannoni spietati.” (Just do your f*****g job and don’t let Alpha get everyone kill. The pack is already known for its ruthless sheds.) Oliver sneaks a growl at papá.

“Alpha va bene, papà. Sto prendendo precauzioni. Non ho bisogno del tuo consiglio per essere Beta.” (Alpha is fine papá. I’m taking precautions. I don’t need your advice on being Beta.) I tighten my tone to him. I am not a pup.

La sua ferocia è aumentata. Ho avuto una notizia. Questo non può diffondersi.” (His savagery has gone high. I gotten word. This can’t spread.)

I make a low mocking sound. Annoy of him taunting of my title. Papá hated when I do that. And he always seem to know when I do it.

“Non farmi andare laggiù, ragazzino!” (Don’t make me go down there!) He only calls me that in a child way. Like I’m not a man.

“Nice to chat with you too.” I hang up before he continues another ear full.

Just then Gamma mind-link me of a small gather inside. Making my walk way in. I see and feel everyones glare at me. I bite my tongue for lashing out. Goddess knows we don’t need an Alpha and Beta off the rails.

I make it to a small foyer off by the library. Gamma and a few Deltas and staff members gather together. I can only assume it’s about Alpha’s behavior lately. And I’m sure with Luna gone. It has set some words around.

“What do we do? Alpha Travis is not in his right mind.” A Delta says.

“Everyone keep to yourself. Gamma and I will deal with Alpha.” I say with my shoulders held back.

I look around and see they all make faces. They were concern for their Alpha. And their own well being.

“We need to call the Elders! Former Alpha can retreat!” A Delta who guards the walls suggested.

“Beta you can take over. The chall..” A male staff from the kitchen suggested but I stop him. Knowing what he proposal.

“No!”

Sarah grabs my arms. Whispering in my ear. “Not them. Not now Beta. It’s been enough now.”

I regain my control and speak straight forward with the group. “Listen folks. No one talks to Alpha. Don’t tempt him. Keep your head low and obey. Alpha will be fine in soon time.”

“How long?” Everyone ask at once. No one answer. My words fail to come out.

I know everyone is concern. They ask nonstop of their Luna’s return. I say little as I can. Hoping she does return soon. Everyone is unease from her time far since the former Luna. The former Alpha blamed us all in a feral way. It shown a lot when Liv left that first time. They all care for her more than she thinks. Plus they’re aware of her affect on Alpha. So for him to act this way is bad. It’s all I think of when I can’t give them answers. And I know they think of it too. I feel a fail upon them all.

Thankfully Sarah thinks quick. “For your safety and anyone else. Do not speak of Luna’s name around him. It’s triggering.” Sarah adds on.

We all agree. And dismiss. We all had to just follow and keep our distances. In time Travis will surface and things won’t be so bad. He’s just going through something. And hopefully, soon. Liv makes it back to us.

She can fix this. We can’t lose her on top of this.

**

Time slows down as we wait. My terror grew in thinning patiences. Soon we saw the lashes of Connie’s open up. Seeing them both okay in my own two eyes made me get on my hands and knees to pray to Moon Goddess. Thanking her I never had to see the day I bury either of them.

I took no time but to make it very clear to them both that they can’t just kick me out like a stray. Beside that, they feed me too much over the years and I’ll just keep coming back. This lucky put a smile on their faces. Especially when Connie woke up.

“Haha.” Connie pokes me with her limp arm. “You like me enough to save my life Mason boy.” She coughs and I hold my restrain to roll my eyes.

“I kinda had no choice. I wasn’t gonna let you die.”

Her hand grip my shirt and look up to me weakly. I’d never seen such a look in Connie’s eyes. Her head tilt to me. “Thank you Mason. The bottom of my heart. Thank you. For all of it. Thank you.”

I don’t know what it was but the way she said it seem like she knew she might of not make it. Like she thought her last moment of life was already done.

“I’m just gonna hold it up to you for now on. Just know that.” I smirk to her with a cocky tone.

She drops her hand and looks to Liv. “Get this dog a bone and he’ll be okay.”

We all laugh and enjoy the time we have. I stay as long as I can. I return until I got the news from the doctor herself that Connie will be okay. And when we did. I made a choice on mine and Alpha’s order. That they both make it safety home. I left them in the care of Connie’s mother.

Shity enough. After this nightmare in view. I was still not able to visit until Liv has made her decision in returning to her mate.

I wanted to yell and shake the s**t out of her. There was so much I wanted to say but Oliver and I just got them back. We just got Liv back. I didn’t want to screw it up and lose them again. But at least when I text they respond back to me.

That at least ease our mind and heart a bit.