Destined love

Chapter 11

Greyson's POV

despite being mad at her for throwing me out of my room, I found myself not blaming her for any of it, with everything that is happening I would also behave like that. It has been hard for me and though I know it's not easy for her as well, she has just found out that she has a second chance mate whom she doesn't even feel the mate bond for, I just don't know how that is possible but I have a feeling the rejection that she had probably hurt her wolf because I can definitely feel her but I just can't reach out, Sky has tried countless time but nothing.

If anything, Sky was happy to have her around, he can be very picky with his type of woman and he hasn't had any liking to any women since forever, but there seems to be an exception when it comes to her.

There was something about her that made me want to keep her close, maybe it is her lavender and mint scent that just kind of relaxed you when you are close to her. my thoughts have been occupied by her and I know it will continue to be so because my wolf is on her case every second.

Davon came to my side as we both walked to my office and I sat on my chair while he stood to address me about the pack business my mind slowly drifted to the girl. I couldn't even understand why I was so fascinated with her.She seems to intrigue me in a way I never thought would be possible but yet it's happening. I cant seem to focus on what my Beta is saying to me and it clear as I only focused on the girl that has occupied my mind recently.

Davon mildly cleared his throat indicating he was done talking and was waiting for my response. But since I wasn't exactly listening to what he was saying, I decided to ask him a question that would help me summaries all that he was saying.

"So what do you suggest?" I asked him hoping to get more information on what he was busy talking about.

"I think the patrol should be increased to avoid the rogue attacks and also communicate with the Alpha of the Crescent moon pack about the passing of the Alpha position to his son "

" I don't think that boy is ready to be the Alpha but what can I say his father knows what he is doing."

" Even myself I feel like he is going to over use his power just boost around, I have seen how he carries himself at the last Alpha camp, he was acting childish anche was spouting something about his Luna being strong and that he won't accept anything lesser than Alpha daughter."

"we need to check on him or else he will weaken this territory and I can't have weak packs on my territory." I replied feeling a surge of anger and my Beta must have felt it too as he suggested what needs to be done next

" I think monitoring him will do but before he can even take the Alpha role he needs to be tutored on how to lead I think the Alpha school did not do justice to him and the current Alpha might feel offended if we refuse his son be the next Alpha because by the birth right he is supposed to be next in line.

" fine you are right but will have to look into it more."

"I agree with you Alpha, is there anything else that you need to discuss perhaps what is in your mind"

" what makes you think there is something ob my mind?" I asked him with furrowed brows.

" you seem to be distracted and knowing you, you are all about pack business and today it seems something else is taking priority in your mind "

he responded looking at me as if he has caught a thief, I knew what he was trying to do unfortunately it will not work. he was trying to get information by looking at me like that.

" you are speaking nonsense, nothing is distracting me, I just gave a lot to do and with limited time. right now we can focus on the patrol schedule."

" okay if you say so,Alpha" he replied with a smirk on his face.

"Okay, we will do that first thing in the morning, why don't you start with the arrangement of the patrol along side with Amon and we shall decide on the trip to crescent moon pack."

"Yes Alpha" He replied.

" you seem to be attracted to our mate"

my wolf said right after Davon left

" I haven't said I was attracted to her, maybe it's you because I'm not sure of my feelings." I said defensively.

" yes but she is always on your mind"

he responded.

" That doesn't mean anything." I refused.

"Is that the lie you have been telling yourself to keep yourself from having a connection with her ? , you need to move on from from the past and appreciate the things that are happening around you, you can't keep hanging in the past, the moon Goddess has blessed you once more."

":But what if you are constantly reminded of it, Neema was my mate and I couldn't even protect her, what are the chances of me protecting someone else."

" You need to forgive yourself, there was nothing you could have done to protect her, mistakes are made so we learn new ways of not doing things over and over again, forgive yourself, Greyson."

He said before shutting me out. I signed deeply as I was once again left with my thoughts until Laura knocked on my door and telling me that she hasn't eaten the food she had brought to her and that made me mad, without waiting more time I decided to head to her room and force her to eat.But upon arriving at her door she just looked at me and all the things I wanted to say to her vanished as our eyes connected, I felt like I couldn't breath and asking myself how she have so much effect in me , so much that I didn't feel like this when Neema was still alive.

when I asked her why she didn't eat she just kept her eyes down and not responding until I asked her what she wants,I didn't expect her reply and the fact that she told me she wants to leave this place broke my heart into pieces, I don't want her to leave. Something in me tells me that I need her but I'm afraid of hurting her, or even putting her in danger.

" she won't be in danger as long as we are with her , we will make sure that she is safe. Remember you are not alone this time."

My wolf said.

But I didn't believe in him ,thinking that he only says this because he wants his mate near.

" I don't think I have it in me, I will constantly worry about her and I know that the mate bond it's not helping."

" Then you need to mate with her, accept her as your mate and trust in moon Goddess for she knows why she had paired the both of you together."

He was right though and I knew that it was going to take a while before she can trust me, I have already made a mess and I don't want to grow it further but I just can't help it but be mad with the fact that she wants to leave me it's not helping in any way.

I found myself walking towards her and trapping her between the wall and I couldn't resist to sniff her scent just to calm me down but it ended up arousing me making me wants to take her right there, with her eyes closed I felt my wolf coming forward and I scrapped her marking spot with my canine and when she pushed me I knew that my wolf has taken over a bit and he was going to win if I don't move and I end up marking her without her permission which will worsen things between us, bringing back the control I uttered stupid words telling her that I wasn't going to baby sit her and if she wants to end her life she should do it outside the packhouse.

How can I say such stupid words to her, I'm just an i***t, I'm busy rumbling nonsense yet I tell myself that I don't want to hurt her but I keep on doing just that. I don't want her gone but I don't know what to do because I know that she can never have my heart. why is it so difficult for her to understand and yet I thought it would be much better with her not feeling the mate bond.