Destined love

Chapter 3

Zara's POV

As my eyes fluttered open,it was raining and the dirt surrounded me, weakness enveloped my body leaving me totally powerless. I looked at my surroundings and the empty field greeted me. The memories of Mason's rejection replayed, but this time the shork had faded by a heartache. Hours must have passed while I was unconscious, because this it was already dark. to think that I have layed here and covered with dirt, it was a horrible and painful reminder that I had no one on my side, no one who cared whether I was okay or not, but what did I expect because I was definitely a no body to everyone in this pack.

I had harboured a glimmer of hope that my mate at the very least would shield me from the pouring rain and find me some form of shelter but nothing, when I was growing up we were told that mates are our other parts and with them we are complete. someone who will be your everything, who will love you no matter what but what I got was nothing but pain.I remained here defeated,lost ,dirty and shivering. No friends, no family to even come to my aid. I pulled myself up from the muddy ground allowing the rain to clean the dirt from my body, I didn't know where to go as I felt abandoned and left to die out here and the news of my rejection would have filled the place at the moment waiting to torment me more if I show up. So why bother going back?, I had never belonged there anyway.

I don't want to be a rogue there is nothing good about being a rouge, I don't have the will to even start afresh somewhere, I will constantly running around looking over my shoulder and scared for my life, I don't even have the skill to survive on my own, I was never trained not even attempted to because of the way the pack treated me,so the only option that is left for me is to end it all.

I should be the one to to decide how I exit this world. I was suffocating looking for a way to break it out for good not be able to feel it , the more I thought of the way things had ended up for me is like the ground can just swallow me as I yearned to remove the heaviness and the pain in my heart, as I cried heavily and clenched my chest tightly, I feel my wolf's whimpering as she retreat further at the back of my mind whimpering at the pain we both felt, we didn't even have the chance to shift and I would never know how she looks, I sign at the thought . I know she feels the pain of rejection just the way I do but I cannot shield her from all of this heartache,her sad whimpering causing me to be defeated and no longer have the strength to even think about continuing in this life.

I know it may seem foolish but I would choose it a thousand times over the fate that awaited me in the hands of the rouge hunters, or even rogues themselves as I know they will tear my flesh into pieces, without any remorse, so I'd rather end it myself maybe it will be less painful.

I forced myself to stand up moving forward heavily,my legs straining under my weight of my despair. I was determined to reach my destination and nothing was going to stop me from reaching it,the place where it would take place. It was a serene lake outside the pack where I usually go on my off days to find solace and found happiness. I came across this place when I was running away from my troubles hoping to find a place where no one can bully me for a few hours, it's a beautiful lake and it's always peaceful there. It was a place I chose to say my goodbye. Throughout my journey to the lake my mind desperately searched for reasons to stay alive , to think again about the decision I'm about make and desperately try to find a reason worth living for, just to have a bit of hope in me, but nothing, I found absolutely nothing.There was nothing I could live for and to even think about going back to the pack was out of options ,I'd hoped someone would come looking for me but I know it's just a hopeless dream i shouldn't dwell on it. Finally, I reached the lake and settled on a big rock near the cliff , I sat there absorbing the beauty of the scene for one last time its beauty and peacefulness taunting me, it somehow calms the storm inside me ,allowing the tears to flow freely as no one is here to mock me if I cried.

" I'm sorry fire I don't see any other reason and I'm sorry for being the reason you are hurting please forgive me for what I'm about to do" she whimpered before she responds.

" I understand Zara, we are not wanted and it's painful right now." She goes deeper in the back of my mind , hoping that will shield her from another pain of killing myself.Standing up from the rock, I made my way to the edge of the cliff, finding an easier path to end this miserable life.

No one was around which was a relief , I didn't wish to be stopped by anyone in the act of ending my own life, besides no one in this pack would be out in the pouring rain . I refused to think about it any longer determined to take action but when I was preparing to jump, a loud voice boomed as it called out to me, I wondered who that could be as there was no one on site but unfortunately it was too late as I was already dropping into the lake.