Love is not lust

I have lust no love in my whole life I tried to find love but the end of the day I end up with lust ,what's is exactly love ,I lost important people in my life because of lust what is lust ?and how to overcome it . Stared. ———— I'm from Africa I'm from Africa and when I arrived in America was in 2021. I didn't know how to communicate with people I didn't know how to read or write . it was the year two thousand and twenty one 2021 ,when I was growing up in Henry clay high school and I had not yet developed in reading and writing and my English teacher was insisting that I can read and write I really loved that teacher Mrs. Lyon at Henry Clay High School. As the days went by and I became more educated in reading and writing, I took a trip from Lexington Kentucky to Vermont, that's where everything started. when i arrive at the airport in Vermont was at Burlington International airport . I was welcomed by my friend Omar who lives in Vermont and I went to stay with them for a while, he had a sister named pascaline and that sister was the first time I met her. When I met her, she was beautiful in every way, she looked very beautiful, she caught my eyes, at that time I did not talk to her much because I was a stranger to them because it was the first time I met her. When I spent time with them, I stayed with them for all the days I stayed at their house, and after a while I met hers friends whose names are these, one was called Apoline and the other Elizabeth. all of them caught my eye, but the most was Apoline, because this girl attracted me very much and I thought I was in love with her, although I did not understand whether it was lust or love. So when I was dating that woman, I got permission from her and she gave me the chance to love her even though I didn't understand what I was doing at that time. After a while, I fell in love with pascaline, who is Omar's sister, but her brother didn't know that I was in love with his sister, because what I was doing was so secret that no one knew what was going on. then I fell in love with pascalini also when I was with her friend Apolina also in a relationship but secretly I loved them both and I didn't want to hurt anyone in both of them but I didn't know that what was bothering me was lust and it was not love because if it was love then I would choose only one to be with . then my desire rose more and more inside me and I found myself going on with both of them secretly without anyone knowing and there I was with another woman who was the first before them secretly who was called Marie but she was not from Vermont she was from Pennsylvania. then it came to a point where I want to go back home. Those girls that I was in a relationship knew that I was in love with them for once. They cried a lot with sadness and pain in their hearts, anger rose in them because of me, so I traveled back to our place but their hearts were sad. too much for me. that's the effects of lust when a person is lustful then he leaves pain in people's hearts because love makes a person free, and a lot of peace in him and this is because people don't know how to grieve because of lust many cry and feel sad thinking they are suffering because of love but it is the desire they have in them . then those days were very painful but in the end when she was satisfied with all the women she forgave me and was more than determined to be with me then I saw the love she showed and then I believed that lust is not love and love is not lust because love tolerates and respects a person and love makes a person forgive others mistakes and in those burning I realized that others didn't love me but were only feelings and desires that were inside them because if they loved me then they wouldn't have seen my mistakes without looking at them because in the end Apolina also explained to me her mistakes that she loved me because of the man she fell in love with in the beginning He didn't care and then he came to be in a relationship with me, I heard that I was hurt but because she was honest with me, I forgave her because I also made similar mistakes, so we forgave each other and our love lasted until now. My mistakes were many because I was considered a traitor, and she had also entered into a relationship with me, not because she loved me, but because of her ex did not love her or care about her. So people because of desire or evil don't lose your partner,forgive and forget,because love is stronger than all those things. This was a story that I was telling my colleagues about the life of lust and lo