A Thousand Wishes.

the feelings I have about you

I saw you and I wanted to be friends

I wanted to know you and to share secrets

To talk to you and learn all the different things

That you liked and that you disliked

So I went up and I said hello

And we talked for a while not friends yet but close

It was enough for the moment

But it continued day after day

Until I could tell you anything but not everything and

Know you would be able to say the same

We were friends for so long so many years

I was so happy to finally know you

Everything was warm and good and

You were what my thoughts drifted to

Whenever I was left to think and the

Way you said words were so perfect and I

Could listen to you speak for hours and days and

And then I realized that this is what a crush feels like

So I hid from it for a while

I had never liked anyone before and it was strange

And I thought it would be more all consuming

Instead it's just there in the background

A backdrop for everything

Nothing so loud or in your face

Something you only see when you look at it

And I wasn't scared of it anymore

But every so often I would look at you

And it would be there so obvious

That it was strange I didn't see it all the time

But it always felt so warm and I was content

And people always say it hurts to be in love

Wanting more is supposed to break you

But it's really not anything more

Only different

And I was content in my warmth

Then you decided I was acting different

And I could see it all come crashing down

Confrontation would mean telling you

I have been in love with you for a while and

I didn't know how you'd take it and I don't know

How you'll take this

And I can see everything soft and warm

That I've built in my head turning

Cold and hard because I don't care if

You aren't in love with me I don't care

Because I love you and you love me

And maybe it's in different ways but one is not

Less than the other and I will never hurt

You in any way that I can help and if this has

Hurt you I am sorry and I am sorry because

I love you and I am in love with you

And I want nothing different from what you

Want to give me