Rejected, Mute and Completely Broken

Chapter 11: Trust

Alexander P.O.V

I sat outside of Lana's room with Dermont, going over everything that happened. I can't understand how badly things must have gone in her previous pack for her to feel this way, to act this way. One thing that stood out the most in all of this that happened ... was that there was no way that she trusted us. It hurt a bit, I couldn't deny that fact. I always envisioned that when I found my mate, it would be sparks and rainbows ... well, not rainbows, but that it would be as if my life was fully complete. Instead, my mate refuses to talk and is scared of me. I can see she is willing to try and meet me halfway and that she listens to me ... but that is where it ends.

"She doesn't trust us ..." Dermont said as he pinched the bridge of his nose. I felt bad for him - internally, he blamed himself for this setback that Lana is currently facing. I just sighed as I gave him a pat on the back. "Don't worry bro, none of this is your fault. I don't know how on earth they got it right to sneak in here, no doubts that they were likely pulling their rank in all of this" I said as I sat back, hoping that the doctor and nurse would finish up quickly. I hated leaving Lana alone for a long period of time.

"I know ... I know, you are right. But still, I am in charge of all the patrols and the security around the pack. There was a failure in our system because otherwise, either you or I would have been notified that they were here. How did they even get past the nurses and doctor here?" Dermont wondered out loud. I knew he blamed himself for the triplet idiots being here, and I didn't want him to. After all, by no means was this incident his fault. I guess we would just urgently need to have a huge ass pack meeting.

"I'm sure that after some time she will learn to trust us, to know that we won't hurt her at all. Not all is lost, because if it was ... then she would have rejected me a long time ago. Even if she couldn't say it, she would surely have written it" I said, as the doctor finally came out of the room, and closed the door behind her.

"Alpha, Beta, Miss Lana is fully calmed down now. I guess there are multiple traumas that happened in her life that might still be hanging over her head. She might need a psychologist to help her or someone she can trust. I think the whole reason behind her not uttering a word is that she is scared. Physically, she is recovering and I can discharge her, however ... mentally, I don't know exactly how long it would take before she would be fine on her own" the doctor said with a sigh. I knew this was going to be one hell of a long journey ahead, but it was a step I was willing to take, for her ... next to her.

"Thanks doctor! Really, thank you for everything that you have done for her. I am sure that Lana appreciates it. I will make sure that we first gain her trust" I said to the doctor before standing up and walking over to her room, leaving Dermont alone with the doctor. I knew that Dermont would at least leave me alone with Lana for a bit.

I slowly opened the door and peaked my head inside. I smiled as I saw her sleeping. I slowly walked inside, making sure to quietly shut the door behind me. I walked over to her bedside and slowly sat down in the chair, staring at her sleeping form. She looked so peaceful. I wondered how on earth all that abuse could have continued like that at her old pack. I made a mental note to at least do some digging and find out how on death the elder in that pack could allow such horrid things to go on right under his nose.

I took her hand in mine, and held it softly, rubbing the pad of my thumb across it. Lana stirred a bit in her sleep, but thankfully it didn't wake her. I sat there, thinking, how on earth I would get it right to have her adjust to our pack life, to trust me, and trust that no one would be out to hurt her. Would she even agree to be my Luna? So many thoughts were running through my mind, causing a massive headache to rise. I closed my eyes and prayed to the Moongoddess that she would give me the strength to get through it.