Rejected, Mute and Completely Broken

Chapter 12: Going home?

Lana P.O.V

I sat there on the bed, quietly waiting for the nurse to bring me all my belongings. It felt weird that Alexander wasn't here. He usually never leaves my side, but today I haven't even seen him and I was up quite early. I sighed as I stared out of the window. What was my life going to be like when I leave this hospital? I knew Alexander said that I was going to join their pack, but what if I am unable to adjust? What if I can't handle it all? Will I have to become a rogue? So many questions flooded my mind.

A knock on the door soon brought me back to reality. A few seconds later, the doctor walked inside with Alexander hot on her heels. The two of them were chatting away like there was no tomorrow. I looked at them, I saw Alexander had a bag in his hand as well. As he does every day, Alexander walked over to the side of the bed, and smiled down at me. When I returned the smile, he would try to lean in and kiss me on the head, but I would pull away. Alexander just sighed. I knew this was hard on him. Honestly, I wouldn't want to have a weak mate such as myself.

"I got one of the omegas to quickly go to the mall and get you some stuff to wear. I only realized last night that you don't have any belongings that we brought with you. Once you feel better, I can take you to the mall and we can get you some nice stuff" Alexander said, as he nudged at the bag. I just smiled up at him in a way to say thank you before turning my attention back to the doctor, who looked at me with a smile.

"Miss Lana, I am happy to say that I feel comfortable with discharging you. Now, your wrist looks good. If your wolf starts to surface, which I am sure she will soon, the wrist should heal in no time. You might still have some pain from your broken ribs, but not to worry, I will give you some medicine for it. Your lip might take another week or so to fully heal and then, lastly, your head ... I am pleased to say that you are also healing up quite nicely. But, I need to stress the importance of what I am about to tell you. If you have any headaches, dizziness or even nausea, please don't hesitate to come back and see me" the doctor started off before shifting uncomfortably on her feet. I just nodded my head at her, showing her that I understood her instructions.

"Alpha, if possible, could I have a moment alone with Miss. Lana? I need to help her get dressed and all of that" the doctor asked Alexander. Alexander looked wearily about the situation but nodded his head, giving me a reassuring smile and leaving the room, pulling the door closed behind him. The doctor just smiled at me, before putting down the file in her hand and taking a seat right next to me on the bed.

"Lana, I feel like I need to talk to you about some things. I have been observing the whole situation from afar, but I did bring something that could maybe help you to communicate with me" the doctor said, as she pulled out a notepad and pencil from her pocket and handed it over to me. I looked up at her confused before she continued.

"I now know, by all the scans that I saw, that you were severely injured and abused by your previous pack. If I may ask ... why did it go on for so long?" the doctor asked, trying to approach this situation with as much caution as she could. I thought about what I could tell her. I knew nobody would believe the real reason why the abuse had gone on for this long. "I don't even know. I guess I will always be the outsider" I quickly wrote and showed her the piece of paper. The doctor just nodded her head before taking a deep breath.

"Alpha Alexander told me that you were his mate. I saw the surprised look on your face when you found out. Did you know about this?" She asked, tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear. I shook my head in a way to tell her no before paging over and writing down again. "No, I had no idea. I feel the sparks. But I don't know how this could be possible because my mate in my pack rejected me and the next thing I remember was waking up here" I showed her the page.

The doctor just stared at me with a sad smile on her face. I hated it, I hated that everyone else would have to feel sorry for me. "Do ... will you ever accept Alpha Alexander as your mate?" the doctor asked, looking a bit uncomfortable. I didn't know how to answer her, because I didn't even know how to answer that question to myself. I just shrugged before looking away. I knew that if I were to accept him ... that i would be the Luna of this pack and i didn't know if I was ready for that kind of responsibility yet. I just heard the doctor sigh before se placed her hand on mine in a supportive way.

"If I may ask ... why don't you talk?" she asked me. Flashbacks of that night immediately hit me like a train. I tried to pull my knees up to my chest and started crying. I think that might have been the queue for her to stop asking questions. She just sighed and rubbed my arm supportively.

"I am so sorry Lana ... I can promise you one thing.Everything that happened at your old pack will never happen here. You will always be safe here. Alexander will make sure of it. Now, come on, let me help you up and over to the bathroom. Do you need my help getting changed?" the doctor asked me. I just shook my head as she helped me off the bed, and carried the bag in her other hand. We slowly walked over to the bathroom.

I quickly shut the door behind me and locked it. I didn't want any unwanted eyes coming inside. I heard Alexander come back into the room. I tried to push all of those thoughts behind me. I almost passed out as I took a look at myself in the mirror for the first time in a long while. This looked bad. I looked bad.

The scab on my lip was pretty potent. I don't know how the scar was going to look, but it looked gross. My face was skinny and pale. I was skinny. I took the hospital gown off and I was blown away by all the bruising on my side. I wanted to cry when I looked back at myself in the mirror. Why me? Why did my life end up like this? I slowly sat down on the edge of the bath tub in the bathroom and took a few deep breaths, trying to steady myself. I couldn't believe that my whole life ended up like this.

I knew if I didn't come out soon, Alexander would get worried and try to come in. I opened the bag he brought for me and saw there were tracksuit pants with a shirt and some sneakers. I was surprised to see that they got me Puma sneakers. i wanted to tie my hair up, but from where they operated, the scar hurt me, so I opted to keep it down instead. I quickly got dressed and cleaned my face some, trying to look as presentable as possible. I unlocked the door, ready and unwilling to start off.