A Very Special Alpha She-Wolf

Chapter 1

At the age of 9 I was involved in a car accident with my mother, all that I remember is hanging upside down in the car and this dog was licking my face, an whining. My eyes were closed an I heard groaning, growling, and crackling, there was also this warm feeling I wasn't scared anymore. It was comforting I knew I was safe, and I'd be okay. It smelled like after a nice summer rain had finished with a warm breeze. I was being carried by someone. They were saying, "Don't worry Lily I have you." Two days later I woke up in the hospital.

7 years later……

It's my birthday today, my 18th birthday to be more precise. My name's "Lilith Jane Moriarty" Yes, that Moriarty, that household name everyone buys, So what. Those who know me best call me “Lily”. I live in Phoenix, Arizona. We live in a fairly decent house, we have a bunch of cars, pool, Gated Community etc. Okay, who am I kidding we're rich. Well my "Father” is rich I just happen to live here. My father owns some big company he inherited from his father, after his father passed away an so on. I'm my parents only child. Also the first girl born in over 150 years in our family. My mother passed away in a horrible car accident when I was 9 years old. So they tell me, I suffered complete memory loss from the accident. I almost didn't survive myself but that was many years ago. It’s still hard for my father to talk about my mother’s death. Of course, its even harder for me. Cause I still haven’t fully regained my memories from that day. So it’s one of those things we both just avoid talking about.

My morning started out almost like any other day. Got up early, did my normal routine gym, coffee with the girls, some light shopping. My party was planned to the T by this famous party planner my father hired. I was ready for this! Right!? Or at least I thought I was, till it was time to blow out my candles. I was bending over my cake with my eyes closed contemplating my wish. When our front door opens, the warm wind slowly blowing in as this gorgeous guy, walks through my front door that I've never seen before, following an older gentleman that's shaking hands with my father. As the warm wind reaches my nose it twitches, sending this extreme warming sensation throughout my body making my eyes shoot open to see, they all disappeared down the hallway. My party continued on, I had a great time. As my party guest's were leaving, my father came to my bedroom, knocked on my door an asked me to join him in his office. The older gentleman from earlier that had shook my father's hand was there. He was smiling at me an reached out to shake my hand. As I walked through the door I saw the young man from earlier as well. He was sitting quietly in the corner accompanied by two other men, as if they were waiting for something. Bodyguards maybe I thought. He had on a fully black Giorgio Armani suit, with designer shoes, he was also very clean cut, not even 5 o’clock shadow in site. From what I could see he looked very fit and you could see he takes great pride in his appearance.

The older gentleman spoke softly to me and asked me to sit down in the chair across from him, my father sat at his desk. The older gentleman sat down in the other chair opposite my father next to me. My father looked at me and said "Now that your old enough, it's time we told you. You should have known sooner but we were respecting your mother's last wishes that you have a normal childhood, Goddess rest her soul."... The room fell silent for a moment, he took a deep breath, than continued on speaking. "This is Mr. McMorrow. He is our personal family attorney, Besides the head attorney for the corporation. He is here to notarize your marriage certificate, an to answer any questions you have about the contract. This happened once before but you were too young to remember. To be more precise, it happened the day of the accident. Your mother negotiated terms that you would grow up normally without any of our family heritage teaching being in place." Just at that very moment of hearing my “marriage certificate” I was struggling to follow along, a “contract”!!?? Like is this a parallel universe. I went to stand up quickly, before I knew it there was a hand on my shoulder. I turned to look and it was him, touching me. The warmth of his hand rushed through my entire body. Yet it was extremely calming an alluring at the same time. My body began to relax an sit back down. My father spoke again, "This is William James Canna, he is to be your mate. An to take my place as CEO in the company after our companies merger. But you both must first proved a healthy pup so the lineage is safe guarded. Just as the contract states." The young man reached into his left pocket removing a small light blue box with a silver satin bow wrapped around it onto the desk in front of me. Confusion ran through me again! And I said "Mate!?" Shaking my head, raising my hands in disbelief.

Then it all went dark. I passed out.

I woke up outside by the pool with a light blanket around me so I thought. It was early evening still but I could hear the crickets, the pool, along with some birds settling in for the night. That feeling again was back, just like the night of the car accident. That warm feeling, of being safe. I opened my eyes an there he was holding me.. cradling me close to him. His jacket wrapped around me, this gorgeous man. His eyes were closed, he looked peaceful, breathing slowly, asleep maybe?. To be this close to his beautiful face. I panicked. I tried to sit up slowly to not wake him. But then he spoke softly "Are you alright now? I'm sorry, they chose to do this tonight. On your birthday, but I couldn't wait any longer myself. The last time I saw you was that night I pulled you from that car 7 years ago." His tone turned darker as he continue to speak. "That was such a horrible night when they tried to steal you from me! When they tried to take what was mine by right!" His eyes shot open an he sat up looking straight into my eyes. His beautiful dark forest green eyes. They felt like they could reach into me and touch my soul. He touched his forehead to mine and said "It's time!."

He stood up, stretched, an reached his hand out to me, an said "Do you trust me?" Silence "Do you remember the way?" I looked at him searching for some type of answers. Like it had all been written on his face. His perfect smile, the way he stood with strength and confidence. I was confused, an unsure. I looked toward the house. He answered me without me even asking anything. "They left, we're here completely alone. Your all mine for the next 5 days while your father finishes our last deal with our mutual opposing company. I have 5 days to teach you our ways an for you to become my mate! We must first start with your transformation, then move to the bonding an mating ceremony."

I turned to look back at him. I wanted to scream an yell at him. To say who the hell do you think you are! What is going on? This is crazy!! But he was taking his shift off, I totally freaked out. I tried to get up but ended up falling off the chair an scrambling to my feet feeling utterly embarrassed. He finished unbuttoning his shirt an laughed at me. "You act like you've never seen me naked before." He paused at his pants. Laughed again an said "Oh! Don't worry we're not doing THAT just yet. Your virginity will stay intact till I decide to take it." I turned bright red by his remark. "How do you know I'm still a virgin, an I didn’t say you could have it!” I yelled at him angrily. He walked slowly towards me then stopped an smelled the air deeply, licking his lips. "If you had lost it, you wouldn't smell like that towards me anymore, you'd hold yourself differently towards me as well. Your body wouldn't reach out to mine like it is. You'll understand soon." He reached out and took my hand in his, he kissed it softly. "You were always mine, an I was always yours." He then released my hand, walking past me, into the yard looked at the night sky an howled loudly. In the not so far distances you could hear what sounded like wolves howling back as if they were responding to him. He turned an looked back at me, then said "Whatever you do, Don't Scream or Run." As he vanished into the darkness.

I was instantly afraid, utterly and completely petrified. I wanted to run, to get away from this nightmare. Alone for 5 days with a complete stranger. How could my father do this to me! What was going on. But then it happened. I heard snarling, growling, He'd changed into this thing, it was dark in the yard. So I couldn't tell what it was at first. It walked closer, I froze standing next to the pool. It crept closer out of the darkness. It was a Wolf! Larger than normal. Weirdly though I wasn't afraid anymore. The wolf walked closer to the pool into the light. He wasn't scrawny, like normal wolves that I've read about or learned about in school. It was young, bigger, stronger, more defined. His coat was jet black. The wolf sat down by the pool, looked at me and laid down. Then started to lick its front leg. Sitting quietly waiting. Then out of nowhere that feeling was back. That warm feeling, I moved out from behind the chair, the wolfs body tightened up, his ears perked an twitched. But he remained where he was. I walked towards the wolf slowly reaching out to him. As I got closer to the wolf it moved, I was frozen solid, I couldn't move anymore fear rushed through my heart. The wolf whined softly an moved towards me pushing his head into my hand, licking up my arm. An I knew it, as if I was waking up from a dream. I spoke so softly you could barely hear me "Shadow!". I started to feel lightheaded again.

All of a sudden the Wolf's whole posture changed. Turning to the side of me staring back into the yard his teeth where out, with a deep loud growl. His stance became firm, strong. As he lifted himself up chest out, head held high. Moving to put himself between me and the threat. In the darkness you could hear some wrestling leaves, branches breaking under something's feet. Then you could see eyes looking at us. The wolf growled into a deep bark, barking three times. As if he was yelling at someone, giving someone orders. You could hear other wolves whining and whimpering as he barked. Then the other animals ran off back into the night. A few seconds later the wolf's stance changed more relaxed again. As he turned around to look at me again, I was pushed into the pool by his body. As I came back up to the surface of the water. I heard someone dive in after me yelling "I'm sorry Lily, I didn't mean to push you into the pool!" I wiped off my face swimming in the pool and I looked around the wolf was gone. An this guy was back, he grabbed my waist pulling me over to the side of the pool. Once my hand touched the pool wall he let go of me. I looked at him, his eyes met mine again, our breathing in sync. I knew then that he was the wolf. His hair matched the color of the wolf, his eyes, the same youth an strength, with such confidence in his being.

I said aloud “Shadow”. In that moment he reached out grabbed my waist again pulling me into him an kissed me passionately, longing and needing me. After we kissed he put his forehead on mine again. And said "I knew you'd remember, the name you gave me!" I turned bright red, pulled my hands off his chest an covered my eyes. Screaming "Your naked!" He laughed "God I missed you! I showed you, an all you cared about is that I’m naked. You haven’t changed."

The rest of that night seemed to fly by like a dream. The way we moved around each other never being farther than two feet from each other. When I was getting ready for bed, I tried to separate from him to take a shower. But he already knew, he had towels and just said "Please don't ask me to leave, I won't look I promise." I instantly felt comfortable even though I knew my face was bright red from embarrassment. I have no clue why! I'm only 18, this was a grown man wanting to follow me into the shower. He had to be in his early 20s maybe? I've never even seen a man naked before. Let alone had a boyfriend before, my father didn't allow me to have one. When I was in school. After he found out I had my first kiss with a boy named Connor from science class, he switched me to home schooling. Then on the night of my 18th birthday he leaves me alone with one. Completely alone! An not just a man, but a man who can change into a wolf!! A freaking werewolf!

He started to turn the shower on, checking the water temperature. I stared at myself in the mirror I'm thinking this is got to be a dream. Over an over. Yeah! That's what it is! It's a dream. I had too much cake and ice cream an this is all a dream! I’m having a crazy junk food dream. He walked back over, an kissed my shoulder. Looking in the mirror at him I could finally see how much bigger than me he was, the definition in his arms from the muscles moving under his skin. His skin was tanner than mine but not by much, he had a tribal tattoo on his right shoulder down his arm that I didn't realize was there earlier. As I was starting to remove my clothes trying to cover myself with a towel. His whole body tightened up and he turned around quickly an apologized. I didn't speak, I was frozen in place. His nose started twitching, along with him shaking his head. He than brushed off his face with his hands, took a deep breath, an quietly said to himself "Behave! It's not time yet!" as if he was talking to someone or something? He laughed a little again an softly said “Lily, sweetheart relax its just a shower. I can smell your arousal, an feel your nervousness.”

I took my chance to quickly drop all my clothes to the floor and jump in the shower, as I turned around to try to close the shower door his hand was there stopping me. He said softly yet confidently "I'm coming in, You best turn around if you don't want me to see anything." My hands let go of the door, quickly covering myself as I turned around into the water coming down from the shower head. I heard him step into the shower and close the door. My body tightened up and stiffened. Because there wasn't much space in my shower with him in it given his stature. His left hand reached out past me to touched the wall by my left shoulder softly brushing against me. I flinched to the right almost hitting the wall, but he grabbed me with his right hand to steady me at my waist. I felt my heart pounding in my chest... He than leaned in closer to my right shoulder and whispered "Lily? Did you miss me? Like I missed you?" I replied "How do you know that name, that's what my mother called me!?" He replied. "We were small children, playing one day. By the lake, our parents were up by the grill arguing about something. I was practicing shifting into my wolf form all day, it wasn't fair that it came so easily to you. I was exhausted sitting next to you. You were still very young. So full of life and energy, your mother had put a Lily flower into your braids. You smelled so sweet from that day, I have always called you Lily. My Lily. Your mother must have continued calling you that. So that we wouldn't lose our connection when you weren't with me. I mean haven't you always felt me near by? Or that apart of you was missing. Because I felt you, all the time, every moment. I've longed for you. Needed you.” He paused an took a deep breath then continued on.

“I wanted to shift an sniff you out! To find you so we could be together again. But the elders forbidden it to happen! But that was the last time I saw you. That day your mother brought you to the elders for her request. You're so angry, at me for agreeing to give you this time. You were 9 at the time I had just turn 16. I was young, stupid, full of myself I thought it was the right choice. To agree with your mother and break tradition. I didn't want a little girl following me around anymore. I had to prove myself, to the pack! To your father, to my father! So I could lead! An be worthy of you to stand by my side when you were ready. I didn't listen to the warning signs. Because of it you almost lost your life, it was my fault you lost your mother. If I would have never agreed for you to go, you'd be so much more different now. You would still have a mother who would have taught you our ways and to be a good mate for me. We’d already be married with pups by now. You wouldn't shy away from me, or be scared of my touch or presence. Because I'll always be your Shadow."

At that moment I stood up straight bumping into him. His hand tightened around my waist, as his left hand rubbed down the wall into a fist slamming against it. As to fights back an urge that went through his body, from mine. I remembered everything, everything came back so quickly. That whole day came rushing back to me. My hands fell to my sides as I started crying. I spoke softly. "I remember….. You pushed me away an I yelled at you! You broke your promise!" My whole body tightened up, than out of nowhere this inner strength came out. I didn't even realize I was yelling now at him with tears running down my face. Screaming "How could you break your promise, you said I'd always be safe with you, an mom dragged me to the car. I kept yelling at you but you just walked away. Then mom drove off an I kept telling her I needed to be with you to stay safe, She kept trying to reassure me that I would be just fine. An when I was older I could see you again. Then..." I paused "Then that truck hit us!" I had turned around facing him so angry an sad, I was hitting his chest with my fists over an over as I screamed. Then I closed my eyes seeing everything all over again an said "I remember being hurt, my stomach hurt so badly. Hanging upside down in the car. An mom saying I love you Lily, he will come for you! Darkness followed with so much pain I could hardly bear it. An then a dog being there, someone carrying me. Being safe, warm! An waking up in the hospital. My dad was there crying cause my mother had died an I barely pulled through..." He than said. "I know, I was there by your side praying you'd live. I felt your pain that day as if it was my own I shifted in front of everyone that day without even trying. I was breaking all the rules an took off after you I'd never run so fast before, I just knew I had to find you. When I saw the car upside down and you just hanging there lifeless. I felt like apart of me had died. I wouldn't accept it, I ran through the broken glass as it cut up my paws and I pulled you from the car. Your mother was holding your hand telling me to get you out first, after I did, I went back for her but the fire was engulfing the car. I couldn't save her, I failed you for the second time that day. I carried you back to the pack when they took you to the hospital. I was willing to do whatever it took for you to live. I'd kill who ever did this to you. Praying you would just open your eyes. An when you did. You didn't recognize me. I was devastated, our bond was gone for you. You couldn’t feel me anymore. So I kept your mother's wishes and allowed you to go. I was so broken. When you didn't remember me."

He grabbed my wrists so I'd stop hitting him. He fell to his knees crying, wrapping his arms around my waist, burying his face into my stomach. Saying over an over how sorry he was for letting me go, for letting me get hurt, for not protecting me. For our bond being neglected, I was so angry that I turned and punched the wall without thinking trying to let out my anger. Not realizing I put a small whole in the wall. What was happening to me, my nose twitched like his did earlier, I felt jolts running throughout my body. This new energy and strength that had always been there deep down inside me that I hadn't realized before. It was like my soul had been completed and I knew who I was again. He looked up at me, I wiped the tears away from his eyes. He stood up an pulled me close to his chest, I could hear his heart beating just as fast as mine was. He knew I had found my past an my wolf as my eyes glowed back at him.

I realized then what he was talking about. My nose twitched from the scent. It was so intoxicating, seducing, this urge deep down within me pulling me to him I felt a longing deep down in my soul for him. His touch, his scent. Just to be near him. Plus this new feeling, this heat coming from in-between my legs, as my legs shivered together. I regained control of myself. Turning beat red and turn around away from him again.. He smiled and laughed. Pulling my hair back off my right shoulder. Leaning in closely again, rubbing his nose up the side of my neck breathing me in. As if I was forbidden fruit. My nose twitched, an the heat was back full force between my legs. He laughed again in my ear. Sending shivers through my entire body. He whispered "Now you know my suffering an longing for you!" I knew it, he knew it! I tried not to acknowledge what he was saying. But he put his left hand on my stomach and pulled me back into him again. This time it was different, I wasn't stiff or afraid, I was calm, following his movements an placement.

Then! Right then! I felt it. His member! Pushing on my butt. It was big, and hard. The heat it was giving off was just like between my legs. How his touch was so inviting and intoxicating. I felt his right hand on my thigh, running his fingers up my leg moving closer to my inner thigh. The heat was growing stronger the closer his hand got. Then he just stopped moving. Whispered in my ear "It's not time yet" He released his hold on me. And stepped out of the shower leaving me holding myself with his intoxicating aroma he left behind. "I'll be waiting for you in bed, take your time sweetheart." As the bathroom door closed behind him.

I stood there in the shower as the water started to turn cold, heart beating out my chest almost. Thinking what the hell just happened. I put a hole in the shower wall, I felt this new inner strength my body had changed an I couldn't explain it. I felt different very different. I finished washing up before the water was ice cold. As I was wrapping myself up with the towel I realized, that this wasn't a dream. An that I would have to face him again in the morning. I didn't know what to do. I started mumbling to myself as I walked to my room trying to put everything together and clear my mind. I remembered who he was, what our shared past was. But I didn't know if I wanted this future. One thing was for sure I wanted him.

I walked through my bedroom to my closet, dropping my towel to the floor, in my own world still trying to pull it together in my head. Without even realizing, he was in my bed!

He whistled at me, when I dropped the towel to the floor an said "Damn, I'm a lucky man! I got to see you dripping wet, fully naked twice now!" I froze, hunching over slightly, feeling all the hairs on my body stand straight up. I turned around in pure anger at his remark. Then he tossed his shirt at me, hitting me in the face with it, telling me to wear this to bed. I rolled my eyes an put on his shirt, as I pulled it over my head I felt surrounded by his scent. It was back this heat!! It was welcoming and intoxicating all over again. He sat up an snuffed at the air. Saying "Lily! Please!.. Dear, you need to calm down or I won't be able to hold myself back anymore. An I told you earlier it's not time yet!" I realized he could sense where this heat was coming from. The heat intensified a hundredfold! Then I felt a warm liquid, gushing sensation between my legs. Before I knew it he was at my side embracing me, my legs shaking under my own weight which he held up with his own. My heart racing with every breath, this urge from within just kept coming as our breathing became one. He whispered in my ear. “Please Stop! Calling out to me. It’s not time yet and now Shadow wants to come out. He can smell when your arousal, but it’s not time yet.”

We both stood there a moment longer, our breathing coming back to normal. He kissed my cheek, then leaned over picking me up in his arms carrying me to bed. An softly putting me down, he walked around the bed an got in the other side. Turning over to face me, as he pulled me closer to him. His breathing was faster as if he was fighting his instincts. His nose kept twitching, as he snuffed at the air. Every time he rubbed his hand on my body the heat would come back, he would groan each time his breathing becoming more difficult. Then he grabbed my waist in his hand and said. “This is all new to both of us, I’ve never before felt so strongly towards anyone like this. It’s not how they told me it would be.” I replied “So you’re a virgin to?” he replied “No, I’m not. I’ve done it before. When I thought I lost you, I tried to get you out of my head! I did as the elders told me then, but not anymore!” I felt betrayed by what he said. My body must have said it. He quickly replied to me “Its not what you think, I had to for the training so I’d be ready for now. I know you don’t remember everything but that’s okay. I took every precaution necessary to protect you. But if you call out to me again I won’t be able to hold back and you’ll get hurt.” I didn’t understand what he meant by saying this. My nose twitched by him trying to explain. He laughed an said “it’s almost time.”