Chapter Five
The final bell rings like a mercy killing. I shove my books into my bag and slip through the crowd before anyone can corner me. The hallways are too loud, too tight, too full of faces that see me without really seeing me.
Outside, the air is sharp with the smell of wet asphalt. Iâm halfway down the block when I hear footsteps behind me.
âAy, wait up!â
Mariah jogs to catch me, her hoodie pulled low over her face. Sheâs grinning again, like she always is, like the world hasnât noticed her enough to beat it out of her.
âWhyâd you ditch?â she asks, falling into step with me.
I keep my eyes on the sidewalk. âDidnât want to be late.â
âFor what?â
I donât answer. My boots scuff the pavement. The note in my pocket feels like itâs burning through the fabric.
Mariah bumps my shoulder with hers. âYouâre weird, you know that?â
âThanks,â I mutter.
âItâs not an insult,â she says quickly. âWeird is good. Means youâre not boring.â
We walk in silence for a few blocks. My heartbeatâs too loud, too fast. Every step feels like a choice I donât know how to make.
Finally, she stops in front of a little corner café. The windows are fogged, and a neon sign buzzes faintly overhead.
âCome on,â she says, tugging the door open. âMy treat.â
Inside, the café smells like cinnamon and burnt coffee. The kind of place nobody cool ever goes, which makes it perfect. We slide into a booth in the back, the cracked vinyl squeaking under us.
Mariah orders hot chocolate with extra whipped cream. I just ask for water, because ordering anything else feels like admitting I want to be here.
She stirs her drink with the straw, watching me. âSo⊠whatâs your deal?â
âMy deal?â
âYeah. Youâre always, like⊠here but not here, you know? Like youâre hiding in plain sight.â
The words hit harder than I want them to. I laugh, sharp and too loud. âMaybe I just donât like people.â
She smirks. âYeah, right. You like me.â
I donât answer. My throatâs too tight. The truth sits heavy on my tongue, tangled with fear and hope and everything in between.
Mariah leans across the table, close enough that I can smell her vanilla lip gloss. âYou should stop hiding,â she says softly.
And just like that, I feel seen. Too seen. Itâs terrifying.