CHAPTER 09: "DEATH IS A THIEF"
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SUNNY ROWEN (PRESENT)
I heard a quote somewhere and it said.
"Mental health will take everything from you until eventually it takes your life."
And I think its the same for the process of death and life.
My body is wrecked and so is my mind.
there is soo much left unsaid by me to my father. He will never know how important he's always been to me. He will never know how much I yearned for a good relationship between us and maybe circumstances didn't cooperate but he'll never be aware of how I'm willing to give everything to be his daughter again.
"Why am I just finding out? why didn't I attend my fathers funeral? why was I stolen of the moment to see him for one last time?"
I yell at my mother.
"Because he was murdered and we couldn't his other family was there as well and they didn't want us there."
What? murder? I was aware he made a small family But I knew his new wife died before him.
"His son." My mother clarifies.
Oh. If I were in his situation I would've wanted the same but that doesn't mean it doesn't sting. I inhale and try to calm my breathing.
"Does tris know?"
"Tris was the first to know" my mother answers.
How dare he? I deserved to know from him not her.
It feels like he stabbed me in the back. Tris knew how close I was with dad before their divorce and he never told me. This may be the reason I can't look at tris with the same respect again.
I bolt out of my front door and out the house and run. I guess running has been my motto these days.I heard my mothers screams from afar but I bump into someone ahead of me.
"Running again?"
Anthony. yes he can help me with this.
"Tris" I say before I can stop myself.
His expression turns confused.
"What?" he asks.
"I need you to get me to tris right this instance and its urgent ." he looks concerned but nods.
"Tris lives a city away go home and pack lets leave in an hour."
I nod appreciating his ability to understand. I turn to walk back before I hear him again.
"Whats in it for me?"
seriously? he had to ruin this .
I turn to him . glaring and I wish addie was here so she could kick him in the nuts.
"What do you want?" I say through gritted teeth. As that annoying smirk takes place on his face.
"You answer any question and at any time and honestly. " He says.
"Why would I do that?"
"Oh well looks like it isn't urgent enough. "
"Fine!"
I run back home hoping to not get in the way of confronting mom. Everything is too emotionally overwhelming at the moment and I need time before I can talk to her again.
As I step in my room I notice another letter .
I never wrote a letter like that.
After a while im sitting in the car driving with Anthony and it hits me how old sunny is gone just gone.
"Whats wrong?" Anthony asks . and I feel like if I don't let everything out I'll explode so I do.
"I love too much." he looks at me .
"I don't know when to stop when I love. there isn't a 'stop' button and its scary how people can turn on me and yet I'll still keep loving them." Anthony stays quiet for a bit before stopping the car.
"Its what makes you , you. You love knowing you'll get hurt, you love knowing that the other person doesn't love the same and your ready to take the blows thrown your way for that person. Maybe appreciate your judgement. maybe that person deserves to be loved and it may be exhausting for you but you wouldn't be the same if you loved so much."
- Writer
