No more Blues

Chapter 1

My name is Rhiana and I am a successful song composer , while francine is my best friend since we are in highschool she wanted to be a singer so badly but she doesn't have a chance to reach that point so she decided to be a song writer ..

me and francine were childhood best friends but I began to develop feelings for her which is I know unacceptable because we are both girls ...

We live together for almost 12 years like the usual couples do , we eat together , we cook together , we go to work together , we already know each other's life story , flaws, likes and dislikes and many more.. I really wanted to make this relationship work but one day while she is at work I had a headache that even if I already take pain killer I am not getting better ...

so I decided to go to the hospital and ask a doctor about it , then after many examinations done , they found out that I have a Brain cancer ...

I hide it to Francine for over a year now then one day she saw my medicine inside my Jacket's pocket and I told her it was a vitamin for having sharp minds ..

and believe it or not , she accept that kind of explanation ...

I was at the office that time when I saw her talking to a man named Heusaff , a successful businessman so I decided to run some investigation about him and found out that He might be a perfect fit to francine ..

To be honest, I love francine so much that I want her to be happy even if I am no longer beside her and even if I will face death sooner or later, I will be at ease leaving her alone ..

I want to see her get married and have a happy life , so then I set her up for a dinner date with Heusaff without her knowing ..

I contacted heusaff and tell Him that I wanted to talk to him about business proposal since he own a company which needs a composer for a Music Videos so I offered the list of songs that I composed .. He agreed about it and ask for the place where we could meet and what time .

After that I contacted francine and tell her that we will have a dinner together with one of my client , but then I didn't even bother to go to that place since I planned to leave them together so they might talk to each other .

after that day , I continuously see them together which is pretty painful on my behalf but that's what I want , I want her. to be happy even if I am not there anymore then one day while at home she ask me if what color would fit her .. I throw tantrums and tell her that why on earth she needs to ask someone about which color of clothes to wear , food to eat, what's best movie to watch .. I ended up being so harsh to her that left me felt guilty about it ..

I know all by myself that those kind of questions bring butterflies in my stomach since it sounds sweet to be asked by your beloved one about simple things because she wanted to be presentable in front of you .. How I'd wish I can go back to the days where I can openly tell her that color white dress fit her most , that her favorite barbeque chicken is the most delicious food she could ever eat and her favorite song "give me your forever" is the perfect song to listen to .. I muttered ," If only you knew how my heart felt everytime I saw you smile , everytime you hug me through my back .. everytime you began to be clingy like a cute little cat ..

I really missed those days .. but I needed to do this for your own sake, I don't want you to be sad alone when I'm gone ..

then I heard her knocked on my door and say ,"Rhiana I am sorry if I asked you about petty things .. I know it's kinda frustrating in your part .. by the way I decided to find a house for me to rent so that you can live peacefully alone" she mumbled ..

after hearing that, I quickly opened the door and tell her why? why did she need to find an apartment if she already have one which is our house ...

then she answered ," I don't want to bother you anymore.. And besides I will just be a burden to you..." and soon after that conversation she told me that she have dinner date with heusaff so I let her go ..

I was hurt so badly that she felt that way ..., she felt like she was a burden but it's not .. I am that i***t that always push her everytime she is being clingy like we used to be .. I can't even tell her I have brain cancer because I don't want her to worry , I don't want to see her crying , or see her being sad ..

I just can't ...

so that even if I wanted to follow her to that dinner date I just ended up eating our favorite midnight snack which is garlic rice with egg .. then she come back home and ask me if she can have some and eat with me ..

I just answered her "yes" for the last time ..

because I want to cherish even the last moments with her ..

while we are eating , she asked me if what kind of wedding will I choose if in the future I will get married , I answered her that I wanted to get married in a local church together with the person I love the most , I want it to be full of white and pink color, I wanted to have lots of tulips around the church and the reception area ... and the song will be "Give me your forever" and "perfect" by ed sheeran ...

then she said , what if we get married?

I was stunned with her question and left me unspoken .. but then I just laughed and say , "are you okay? you wanted to marry me?"

then she answered," yes of course , we grow together , we know each other so well ,we know each other's flaw .. so what's wrong with that?"

I answered, " It's wrong because we are friends, and we have the same gender"

then she replied ," so what? is it a big deal ? we are in a modern time where we can love freely , don't you know that?"

then I just answered, " you know what ? just go to bed you're just tired."

after that day , I had a headache again so I go to my doctor and she told me that I need to come with my guardian but I refused .. because francine is my only guardian and everytime I had chemotherapy I just go to the hospital alone .. Francine would always ask me why I always have night out more often that I need to have sleep over and many more which is pretty unusual for her but I always tell her it was an important meeting so I need to attend ..