No more Blues

Chapter 2

everyday is getting more and more difficult to the point that I can't even stand on my own .. my heart is longing for francine but my mind keeps on telling me not to tell her for her own sake ..

this is the day where I heard from one of her co-workers that she cried a river for not getting the promotion she badly wanna have .. and when I come home I can hear her crying and sobbing I knocked to her door and open it and I see her hugging her favorite pillow while facing the wall of her room then I asked her," Are you okay? " she just turned around and hug me and says," I didn't make it bubba (our endearment) I answered," please don't cry , I know you did your best and for me you are the most perfect person I've ever met they just don't see it because you are so hot" then she smile at me and asked me," really? you think so? *while smiling* and I replied ," Yes of course ...

she then replied ," then why don't you marry me instead ? if I am perfect , why don't you marry me and let me date with heusaff? if all along we are like a cute couple for 12 years? ...

her question left me unspoken so I just hug her tight and tell her to sleep because tomorrow will another be a busy day for her ..

I badly want to tell her that Yes , I wanted to marry someone like her and be with her forever but these sickness makes me realize that if ever I will marry her she will be left alone after a year or so ...

I don't want her life to be miserable because of me .. I know that she will be happy with someone who can grow old with , someone who can give her kids , someone who is healthy enough to take good care of her , hug her , cook for her and drive her home after work .. And it's not me ...

The next day I woke up earlier than her so I cook her favorite breakfast which is ham and egg with a garlic rice , then I go to the hospital for another chemotherapy , I sneakingly close the door so that I will not disturb her sleep ..

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Francine's POV

My name is francine and Rhiana is my best friend , the first time I met her when we are highschool is the first moment I knew that I love her ...

maybe that's what we call, love at first sight? she is smart and so famous at that time and I am the nerd one who tend to be bullied a lot ..

then she came along and always protect me from those bullies until we became friends .. when her parent's died due to an accident she was left all alone in her parent's house , I saw her being so depressed for what happen to them that moment .. She barely eat and began to lose hope and her grades went down.

I don't want to see her sad so I tell her why not we live together ? and she agreed since I don't have a place to live .

For over 12 years we became like a married couple that fit each other , we understand each other very well and we became more and more clingy each day , everyday I ironed her clothes while she do the laundry , I cooked for her then she do the dishes , we became each other's support system .. until one day I had a task to do where it needs to be rushed but my brain is not functioning since I barely had a sleep , so I decided to go to her closet to look for her vitamins for the brain, I drink 1 tablet of it but I got dizzy so I sleep ...

then when I wake up I go to the hospital because my dizziness doesn't stop ..

the doctor asked me if what kind of medicine did I take so I showed her the vitamins from Rhiana's jacket .

I was shocked with the doctor's reply ...

she said that the medicine that I drink is only for those who have cancer so that the pain will be bearable enough to get through it but it will not cure the disease .. and my knees got shaky to the point that I can't even bring myself up ...

all along ...

Rhiana... is fighting her own battle ...

alone ....

I rushed to the office and look for Rhiana to ask her why did she do that ? why on earth she didn't even tell me that she have cancer ?

but before I enter the room where she got in, I heard a conversation between her and her friend...

her friend : why don't you tell Francine about it , she is the one that can help you get through this , and besides you told me you love her so much am I correct ?

rhiana: that's the reason why I don't want to tell her .. it's because I am dying .. I don't want her to worry about me and leave her alone after I die ..

her friend: but rhiana , she needs to know ...

rhiana: no , I will make it ... I can do it alone .. I want to see her happy even without me , I want her to be with someone who is healthy enough to take good care of her ...

(after hearing those words from her , I slammed the door which make her left unspoken)

me: is that the reason why you've been so cold to me rhiana? *I asked her while crying and sobbing*

rhiana: f-francine let me explain ...

*I got frustrated to the point that I hit her multiple times because of what I've heard*

me: you didn't really think of me , do you?

rhiana: no , francine I love you ..

me: you love me? then why do you choose to hide it ? even if you knew that I love you so much through these years ?

*she just hug me tight while I am pushing her and hitting her*

rhiana: Because I want you to be happy francine , and I know you will not be happy to witness someone you love dying in front of you ... I've been through that when my parents died in an accident .. you know that ..

me: yeah! I know that rhiana , but do you think I will be happy to know that you are fighting with cancer alone ? that all those days that you sneakingly tell me that you have sleep over or overtime is the day where you had chemotherapy ? do you think I will be happy to see you in pain alone ?!

rhiana: francine please ...

Me: we can still be happy rhiana , we still have time to be happy together ... if you only have 1 year then let's cherish those moment in 1 year , if you will only have 1 month? days? hours? minutes? seconds? we will cherish those moments together holding each other hands ... so what if this world will be against us? is it a sin to be loved and be in love? we are not doing a crime ,we don't even kill people rhiana! we just love each other ..

rhiana: Francine , I am dying .. I don't want to leave you alone ..

me: rhiana please just give me chance to love you and be with you until your last moment ...

c'mon , come with me ..

rhiana: and where do you think we are going?

me: we will get a marriage certificate so that we will get married whether you like it or not!

rhiana: w-what? are you insane?

me: yes! I am insane because of you ! because you want to leave me without telling me that you love me all those years rhiana! all those years!

*then she burst out laughing instead of being worried*

rhiana: you know what francine? I think I can die now ..

me: wtf! rhiana can you please stop telling me that, and please stop smiling cause it's irritating.. *i rolled my eyes as if I am already pissed off but deep inside it's good to see her smiling like that*

Rhiana: okay fine , but please calm down my beloved wife *she smiled and wink*

me: shut.. up... *i was shocked* w-what do you say a while ago ? I'm sorry?

rhiana: which one? my beloved wife? *she teasingly smiled again*

me: y-yes .. *i blushed hearing those words from her , it's kinda cringe but as if it was a music to my ears*

rhiana: haha! just a while ago ,you are crying and now you are smiling like you win a jackpot ..

me: yeah ! because you are so selfish ! you didn't even bother to tell me what you are going through ? what if I didn't saw your medicine a while ago and went to the hospital ? I will be single forever ??

*i asked her in a sarcastic way*

rhiana: okay , you may stop now ,next topic please .. by the way are we really going to get a marriage certificate right now? how about the wedding ?

me: of course we need to go there now! as in now! no "but's" and no "if's" ..

what if you change your mind later and decided to marry other woman rather than me ? hmp!

rhiana: haha ! as if I have another woman other than you ? *she smiled*

after that we went to the municipal hall to officiate our "not so ready" wedding ..

I just want to be married with the person I love the most and her time is running so I didn't even bother to think twice before doing this ..

and at last we signed the certificate together ..

rhiana: happy now? my wife?

me: yeah I am , but I am not yet forgiving you for what you did , *i rolled my eyes to her then went inside the car*