No more Blues

Chapter 3

Rhiana's POV

I didn't expect that francine heard our conversation but since she already knew about it I confess everything to her .. after our civil wedding, she told me that we need to go to the hospital together, for her to know what needs to be done and what are the foods that I can eat ..

after we went to the hospital we just went home since it's weekend and it is our day off ..

while I was about to cook our dinner she hug be through my back and says," I badly wanna hug you before when you are acting so cold to me for the the past few weeks , but I can't , because I think I was being a burden to you.." I faced her and tell her that," No, you're not , I just can't tell you that I have an incurable disease so I became that cold ... but you know what? deep inside of me, I want to tell you that you are so beautiful , and remember when you asked me about which color of clothes fit you? I wanted to tell you that every color is perfect for you, because for me you are the prettiest person I've ever met."

she hug me so tight as if she misses me so much ..

then she replied ,

Francine: bubba? why are you cooking ham and egg with garlic rice everyday? the doctor says eating it everyday is not good for your health ?

me: because it's your favorite ..

Francine: hmp! okay starting today we will just follow those recommended food for you okay? and bubba? please if you feel pain in your head , don't hesitate to tell me okay?

Me: okay my beloved wife "ouch!"

Francine: why? what's wrong ? is it your head? is it painful ? do you need something?

me: yes , I need a kiss *I pouted*

(then she pinch me)

Francine: hm.. are you teasing me again ? do you remember I am not forgiving you yet ?

Me: hehe sorry, I love you my most beautiful wife ..

after we eat together and washed the dishes , we directly went to our room to sleep , and I unexpectedly see her reaching for my arms use it as a pillow then after that she hugged me ... then she muttered ,

francine : bubba? it feels unreal to sleep like this with you , just a week ago I was imagining this and now I am sleeping beside you within your arms..

me: haha so you are dreaming about me? and you know what I remember you just told me that all those years , you've been in love with me? *i tease her*

francine: hahaha yeah ! why ? haven't you notice that I am giving you a sign? I asked you about what wedding do you like and I purposely being clingy to you ? I always asked for your opinion as well on which dress fit me most . *she proudly replied*

me: huh? I don't know that .. I just thought that it was just a friendly talk *i answered her as if I pretend I really don't know but it's not haha*

Francine : hmp, you are so slow when it comes to love *she rolled her eyes at me*

me : haha just kidding , I knew it all along .. I just thought that I will just make you sad ..

Francine : hmp! stop it .. I know you will just tell me those words so stop it. Forget the sickness and let's talk about kids *she pouted*

me: huh? kids ? hahaha so you want kids huh? *i smiled teasingly*

francine:yeah let's make one who looks like you and another one who looks like me . *she answered with a seductive voice*

me: hahaha why not ?! are you really sure about that?

Francine : yeah ! I want to see little Rhiana and little francine running in our room! isn't it cute ? *she looks at me like a little cat asking for some treats*

for a moment I forgot having sickness and plan a future with this woman beside me , while she is explaining about our kids , how we will get an IVF , how we will buy baby clothes and how many babies we will have .. I just can't help but hope that this sickness will be cured so that I will live longer ..

but I know my time is running so that I decided us to have child asap , I told her that we need to go abroad so that we can undergo IVF and have kids .. at first she was shocked for the rushed but then when I told her that my time is running she just answered ...

Francine: no love , after you got cured , we will go abroad and I will undergo IVF I will be the one to carry your embryo inside me ..

me: but love , what if I will not get cured ?

I will leave you without anyone beside you ? atleast if we do it now , I will be at ease because you will have our baby ..

Francine : then who will buy my cravings ? what if you die in the middle of my trimester ? do you think I can get through it ?

me: hmm.. you're right , I still want to experience daddy duties *I smiled and wink ate her*

okay I promise I will do my best to be cured so that we will raise our children together okay? but for now you are my baby , my sunshine , my world ...

Francine : of course you need to or else I will get mad at you .. I want you to be with me when I had my cravings , I want you to be with me changing their diapers and so many more .. so please love ... please get well for me ? *she pouted*

me: Promise love , I will ... (I wish it will happen)

after that day we went to the hospital for another chemotherapy , the medicine is being injected through the bones at my back and it's so painful so I requested her not to get inside my room but francine insist to be there with me all throughout the process ...

I was in deep pain holding her hands while the doctor is injecting the medicine at my back , I saw her eyes full of worries to the point that she wanted to cry ...

but when our eyes met , I just smile at her to tell her it's okay but deep inside of me I want to shout due to the pain I was going through .. but since she is with me I don't want her to see me in pain because I know she will get sad .. and it will just make her worry about me ..

the session ended and I am lying in my hospital bed when I saw her crying in front of the window .. I asked her why and she said she can't bare to see me like that , she was so sad seeing me in pain so I tell her that I am okay and there is nothing that she needs to worry about , and I need to take those medication if she wants to have kids with me .. after that she smiled at me and says," This is what you've gone through for one year? and still you don't want to tell me .." I just hold her hands and pull it closer to me so that I can hug her .. then I replied ," ssshhh, I love you .. please don't cry , i promise .. we will grow old together with our future kids . okay?" then I kissed her forehead ..