Chapter 19Preparation for Ryan’s dance show is exhausting. When he’s not at the gym, Ryan’s at home stressing. Even Jasper offering to practice some choreography would set him off in a panic, as if he’s got a quota of talent that he can’t risk using up with Jasper in their living room. He knows his obsession with every little detail has forced him to block out everything that doesn’t have to do with his new venture. He doesn’t feel as guilty about mentally checking out of Simon’s focus activities as he does about the way he’s been shutting Jasper out. His boyfriend deserved better than what Ryan had to give to their relationship in the week leading up to him going away.
Ryan finally seems to break out of his dance show trance in time for Luke’s bachelor party the night before his and Fi’s
