Chapter 20Depression sleep never fails to leave Ryan more exhausted, despite having slept heavily for longer than usual. He’d woken up when Jasper got out of bed but fell back to sleep, and the next thing he knew, half the day was over. Half his last day with Jasper, for at least the period of the show, but given how closed off he’s been, he’s almost expecting Jasper will decide to end things soon enough.
The worst part is, Ryan has no control over how he’s feeling and how those feelings are being projected. If he could pull it together, he’d make today special and give Jasper a thousand reasons why they are perfect together, but he can’t even get out of bed or force his lips into a smile.
Last night it was everything outside of him that he felt separate from, and today it’s everything i
